i am listening to japan, night porter, i was into this group the last year of my childhood age 15/16- abit of a lost idyll looking back but at the time- perhaps. that was almost 25 years ago

could i ever explain this feeling of love it just lingers on....

what is sacred to me-what points towards the divine?

1. men who almost go bald but never quite do
2. the smelll of my own holy farts
3. the united states of muva fukin amerika at its best
4. the arses of the black women i love
5. u tell me dick head , you fukin tell me?

time for a change- i hope

i have come over all shy

zsd ;lf

i have decided to end my membership of SG in january 06. time to move on as next year will be a key year

in the last ten days i have just gotten into bob dylan. it is like discovering a huge chest full of treasures that the more you spend the richer you get

for £4.95 i get albums that are so fresh i think they were recorded yesterday not in 1962- fucking hell i love the usa just for bob dylan let alone everything else-miles davis, john coltrane, jazz blues, r and roll, housey house music, and th rest it just goes on and on and yet and yet it is full of the worst

any general rule about anyting disintegrates in such complexity even this one
love it

time it goes so fast when your having fun- a wise californian lady once said that and she was right

but who was she?

imagine being a combat soldier and getting fired at day after day, seeing your friends die/wounded and only being 19 or 20 your self. imagine being a young officer who is responsible for his men and has to make split second descisions based on limited knowledge

noone read or acted upon my last journal so i will have to conquer the world all on my own and then and then i'll....


thank god for sweet reality and sobriety- love them both

so it is autumn and bomfire night. i bought some sparklers for my son (yes i have bred) and we are going to a bomfire somewhere in the wilds of red neck kent (i exagerate but only a bit)

Please

1. Invent a word- not a jokey one but one that will one day appear in the dictionary ( i know these are not mutually exclusive but i don't want lots of different names for rude things)

2. introduce a phrase or saying into the language, one you made up yourself. I would like to introduce "kung Fu!" to be said whenever you approve of something e.g. "do you like my shoes?" the answer would be "kung fu!"- i know the exclamation marks should go out of the speach marks but i don't like doing it that way

3. have a good bomfire night


my head visted a not so positive place tonight. i won't be going back there

see you in the morning