age: 85 (Mar 26, 1923)
MEMBER SINCE: February 2005
occupation: Music/Jitsu, thespian, lyricist and I write for a French guitar magazine
crush: Daniel Craig as James bond... He's hard as fucking nails.
sign: Aries/Tiger
most humbling moment: Watching shanka play.
makes me happy: Cats, Good music, Hip throws, tsuri komi goshi, V's, good food, crowd surfing,
i lost my virginity: and learnt that rhum really shouldn't be part of a decision making process.
gets me hot: veiny hands, backs ( bit of a back fetishist), Jitsu (literally), lait concentre sucree, boys kissing/with makeup... sadly, most idiots look hot in haks...
makes me sad: Global warming, money, asthma, cigarettes, hospitals, national hatred (especially the one some Americans hold against France), people who can't make the effort to spell (dyslexics excluded), artists on too much autotune, G.W.Bush, mistreatment of animals, girls who pose with guitars and can't play, frustrated guitarists turned bassists, cervix destroyers, insects (I'm completely insectophobe)...
fantasy: seeing my 2 instructors fuck would be GREAT, when the south park movie will be produced as a musical, when my music will be on guerilla radio, owning a Satriani Ibanez, a PRS, a musicman bass and every Z-vex pedal, playing every instrument ever made, living in Rihiveli for the rest of my life..
into: Music, Jitsu, astronomy, art, the ocean, surfing, sailor moon, gender fucking, androgynous boys and girls..
body mods: pierced, tattooed, stretched, waxed, clipped, painted, plucked, a few defunct holes... I am my own little pony
2. Before I get into the rest Check out what I got done !!

(rip this off and I will rip it off your own body.)

Wee, I am so happy with it ! I've been obsessed with astronomy since I was a kid and it's been my dream to go into space ever since. Given that this might never happen (insert winning the lottery), I've brought some of the sky to me ! My friends all had the Funniest reaction : � OH MY GOD it's MASSIVE !!� haha. It's very bizarre to get referred to as 'that tattooed chick' now !
So if you ever want some of the straightest lines a tattoo artist can do, go see Sacha. He used to work at Tin-Tin tattoos (in Paris) but now he just opened his own shop. Not only is he insanely talented, he's also a really nice guy : Mystery Tattoo Club
3.I'm Getting two words tattooed on my wrist there this Wednesday ! I'm looking for placement ideas other than just bracelet or center of the wrist so if you've got ideas leave them here. I'll also start a thread in the tattoo group.
4. ATTENTION LONDON MUSICIANS !After years of being asked 'so dude, do you have a band in London now ? ' and having no real excuse as to why not, I have finally decided to put together a band in Londontown. I guess the reason I hadn't yet was that I met a large quantity of 'musicians' who seemed to be just in it to get their dick sucked. I'm not against the side privileges music offers but really, I'd like to do music with people who are as motivated as I am by music, not because they've got a hip haircut, tattoo, t-shirt or can't get laid. Oh and then of course there...
2. Before I get into the rest Check out what I got done !!

(rip this off and I will rip it off your own body.)

Wee, I am so happy with it ! I've been obsessed with astronomy since I was a kid and it's been my dream to go into space ever since. Given that this might never happen (insert winning the lottery), I've brought some of the sky to me ! My friends all had the Funniest reaction : � OH MY GOD it's MASSIVE !!� haha. It's very bizarre to get referred to as 'that tattooed chick' now !
So if you ever want some of the straightest lines a tattoo artist can do, go see Sacha. He used to work at Tin-Tin tattoos (in Paris) but now he just opened his own shop. Not only is he insanely talented, he's also a really nice guy : Mystery Tattoo Club
3.I'm Getting two words tattooed on my wrist there this Wednesday ! I'm looking for placement ideas other than just bracelet or center of the wrist so if you've got ideas leave them here. I'll also start a thread in the tattoo group.
4. ATTENTION LONDON MUSICIANS !After years of being asked 'so dude, do you have a band in London now ? ' and having no real excuse as to why not, I have finally decided to put together a band in Londontown. I guess the reason I hadn't yet was that I met a large quantity of 'musicians' who seemed to be just in it to get their dick sucked. I'm not against the side privileges music offers but really, I'd like to do music with people who are as motivated as I am by music, not because they've got a hip haircut, tattoo, t-shirt or can't get laid. Oh and then of course there were the morons who without having even met, or heard my stuff, said flat-out 'we don't want a girl'.
I aim to do rock/crossover but I'm reaaaaaally open to blending styles, experimenting, jazzing up etc. The more varied the influences the merrier. So if you're a guitarist, bassist, drummer or fuck, hit boxes with forks and spoons, whatever, contact me !

(onstage with Destruction inc. More in 'The good'...)
5.The past year has quite honestly been hell. Which is another reason why I wasn't on here. Too much shit to deal with, feeling down etc. They're not joking when they say 'when it rains, it pours'... Anyway, I think I'm almost done with all of it now so I'm hoping writing about it will bring me a sense of closure about certain things. I'm not trying to throw a pity party here, just venting really. I've added a HUGE amount of pictures at the end of this entry as well as in it so if you're bored of reading this, you've got the options of visuals ! I'm dividing this into The bad, the good and the pretty ! Head to THE GOOD for news about the record
THE BAD
I'll start chronologically.
5. My sister got married to her high scool boyfriend last Summer and while her and me aren't close at all, I really didn't expect to be put through so much abuse by my family. 'take off your piercings this, no nail polish that, don't wear this, don't do that bla bla bla'. Sure I don't fit into the family mould but my mother and sister made me feel like I was some sort of embarassment. To top it all off, my sister had everyone around our age at one seperate table for dinner and excluded me because I refused to wear a pink dress with a big bow (seriously wtf..). Not that I liked the dress I had to wear anyway. I got to sit with people I had nothing in common with, who all had kids houses etc. Fucking sucked. And so nice, when I got up at 6am to decorate the church with flowers for her and got no time to make myself up.
The Church :



6. I then find out at the wedding that my dad had been married previously to my mother. Okay... My dad refuses to really discuss it and after badgering my mother, I find out that she 'thinks he had two kids but there's no point in making a big deal out of it' Oh yeah, no big deal at all to find this out in your twenties ! I had specific orders not to question my father about this. So I live with this secret for a few months. Coincidentaly, my half-siser gets back in touch with my dad during this time and my dad then announces to me over the phone that he had kids before my us, and I will meet one of them with her kid at Christmas... At the time I was so looking forward to anyone giving me any info on the situation that I thought meeting her asap would be a good idea...
Now imagine sitting at Christmas dinner with someone you've never seen before in your life who's calling your father 'dad' and looks exactly like him. Yeah. Then it gets even better when she tells me 'You know when I found out my dad had redone his life, I was really disapointed to find out his kids were girls !'. Was I supposed to apologize here ? Way to make your host feel great! I haven't seen her since though my dad keeps in touch with her. As for the topic of my half-brother, the subject is very taboo. Mostly because he is severely mentally ill, has been in an institute his whole life and that my dad was against having him (it was known very early on in the pregnancy that things were not going to be good for the child). Things all went downhill from there and my dad was eventually forced out of his marriage, didn't get to see the kids since etc. That's about all I know as no one seems ready to discuss anything more with me.
My sister fell out with my dad because of all this. Fair enough, I'm pissed off that I was kept out of it for so long but I don't think it's fair for her, or me, to make my dad suffer even more for things which we aren't in the position to judge.
8. Last June, I asked my landlord (young guy who always acted like we were friends and for whom I took all responsibilities, did all the paperwork for new tenants, assumed full responsibility for the place etc.) if I would be able to stay a least another year in the place I'd been renting from him for the previous two years. I wanted to know because I was going to install a giant rug, buy furniture etc. After he tells me that 'no problem, I'd love to renew your contract after the summer !', he then announces to me in the midle of the Summer (while I'm out of the country for two months) and after I've bought all the stuff, that his girlfriend and him are moving in and I've got to leave by September. Asshole.
So after a very painful move (I was too broke to pay for storage or movers so I had to move my stuff at four different people's houses in London while I found a place) we eventually found a beautiful house in Shoreditch and, despite the hefty price, things on that front are going fine and barbecues are aplenty
(I love the house)

9. My dad had some cancerous cells in his nose which he had to be operated on to remove, and, after months of debate on the subject, he might need to be operated for prostate cancer now. My dad has always been the one to cover for me when I needed it, pick me up at 3am from parties when I've missed the last trains, and generally been an awesome friend so I hope all will go well. It's scary how many people around me have had their parents develop cancer in the las year or so.
10. My grand father passed away last month and though I didn't know him that much, it's still very sad. He had not been very well for a while so it wasn't a shock, but still. The night he passed away, my grandmother called me from the US at 9am -4am US time- and I didn't pick up the phone. I'd been working the whole night through and was going to bed ; my grandparents never really call me so I knew the call was bad news and was just not in a state to deal with it. I feel really guilty about it now. I wasn't invited to the funeral, largely because there was no one to pay for a plane ticket I suspect. My grandpa was high up in the army and apparently super authoritarian and hard to deal with ; my mother (who is made of steel) really doesn't sem to care about his passing. I guess they weren't friends but that's still pretty bewildering.
11. My cat was diagnosed with Diabetes about a year ago (and he's only 5..). Giving him shots everyday was fucking awful. The vet was a fucking bitch and ripped us off of a lot of money for nothing (long story). After talking to someone on facebook and going through him having hypoglycemic seizures, we decided to change his diet and he hasn't needed a shot since ! If you're in a similar position and would like to know more please leave a comment or message me.

12. I have never discussed my relationships on here; mostly because my ex used to pay for my account, I love him dearly and I would never want to inflict on him what was inflicted upon me. Now that I pay for it, that we are very close friends and that he seems happy with his new lady, I feel okay about sharing. And, well, I need to get this out of my system.
Last fall, I broke up with someone I had been with for a while, and have been going through the worst break-up I've ever known since. I won't go into too many details - that would take far longer than this passage and it's not my purpose to drag his name in mud - but it's been absolutely horrendous. The situation was made that much more complicated by the fact that he is my Jitsu instructor, 40 and I have to see him at least twice a week. I decided to break up (although things were not going well from either side) and ended up regretting it and realizing how in love I was. The worst part was that he refused to be friends with me, stating that while I may stay friends with my exes, he never has. I would have understood that, if it wasn't for the fact that we were going to see each other twice a week anyway...
After months and months of crying, I met up with him and suggested we get back together. He didn't think it was a good idea and then later sent me an e-mail telling me he was now with one of my training partners from my club.
I think I'll always remember reading that exact sentence and the feeling that my heart had actually just shattered in a billion pieces, that someone had just put a bullet through me (forgive the clich�s). Sure I expected him to eventually be with someone else but not someone from Jitsu, not someone from my own club, a friend, worst of all not someone who was my grade, who I had to fucking train with twice a week, and not someone who had previously commented on 'how cute we were together'. It's bad enough when you imagine that person with someone else but fuck, that is one of the things you fear the most after breaking up with somebody: them getting with a friend of yours. And telling me in an e-mail ?! My reaction might have been more measured if he had told me to my face.
What followed was not pretty. I've been angry/sad/upset in my life but nothing this bad. I was screaming through my tears, broke all sorts of stuff, nearly burnt his books, started completely self-destructing ; In short, I completely fucking lost it (and I'm generally described as having my shit together). Lucky for me (and my posessions), my flatmates came home and stopped me from going onto further stupidity. I don't think there was a single drop of water left in my body to cry at that point anyway. I then left for France to get away from it all. I came back and exiled myself from my club for two months which also meant not seeing my friends.
I'm back at my club now and it's very very hard. I guess he didn't expect me to come back and doesn't quite know what to do with me. The first month or so, he stopped giving me any feedback on what I was doing which made me suffer even more. Fuck, hadn't I been punished enough ? I never did anything wrong and it was a hundred times harder for me to show up then it was for him to teach me. Things have been getting slowly better but showing up every week is like being prometheus, going through that punishment again and again and yet I keep showing up, because that's how much I love Jitsu. I wish he noticed that...
The fact that I am probably more committed to it then 99% of people who have ever shown up. That despite having no natural abilities I made it to blue belt. Despite every fucking injury I still show up at every single course and training session and that really, of all people, I don't deserve to be ignored. The worst part is, if he'd accepted my friendship, I would have been able to turn the page and might have even been happy for him. I think breaking up was the right thing to do as I was unhappy on many levels but still, I wish it wasn't this hard. Not only did I lose my boyfriend (then again, that can be questioned as he refused to call me his girlfriend under various excuses ; and let me tell you how much that hurts when you're with someone for that long), I lost one of my closest friends, (And my Nintendo 64 which he pointlessly threw away along with a few other things) who was also a bit of an anchor point for me in London.
13. Shortly after we broke up, I had to deal with a greek guy who liked me far too much. I must admit he helped me out tremendously when I moved and I liked him quite a bit at first as well but quickly realized how immature he was for a 28 year-old. The worst bit was what backward thinking he had about women. He ended up hacking into my e-mail-and god knows what else- first stating that an 'enemy of mine' (is this pre-school or what..) had sent him a screen capture of a mail in which I talked about fucking this guy (after I had pointed out that him and me wasn't going to work), couldn't deal with rejection and proceeded to bombard me with messages calling me every insult in the book, saying I had used him bla bla bla. I got a message every day for nearly two weeks, as long as this entry... It's a long story, not worth my or your time though.
I've been more or less single since, for the past year. I've seen a few people but I was too emotionally exhausted to feel anything for anyone for a while which was a shame as I met some nice people. After being with someone who had just turned 40, I'm findng it pretty hard adapting to the habits of the guys I meet who are generally much younger and hence have their shit much less together. Hopefully someone will eventually manage to pull me out of this coma.
14. My left shoulder 'popped out' two or three times this year which has been less than fun. It got slowly better until the last time, a few months ago when it happened again. Oh the irony that it was from training with my ex's new girlfriend... Of course I can't blame anyone but let's just say training conditions haven't been optimum - it's not exactly easy to focus on jitsu when it's a constant reminder of what goes on off the mat.
Anyhow after, one more pointless run in with the NHS. I finally got proper medical care in France, scans, IRMs, physio, etc. I just saw a specialist who suspects bankart lesion. Because I'm only in my twenties, it's almost certain they'll have to operate as I'll otherwise have no more shoulder in 20 years, since it's now too instable not to pop out all the time and fuck up the cartillage. Oh and apparently I suffer from constitutional hyper-laxity (read super flexibility) hahaha ! *insert innuendo*. Damn I knew I should have opted for a career in porn !
THE GOOD
1.Destruction inc.'s first record, THE DOGMAN'S TALES is finally out !! Hooorah ! Actually it's technically the second one as we recorded 'Greatest Hits !' beforehand, to which I had a much broader contribution. For this one, you can hear me on 'The Good Son', which I did in its entirety live, as well as another one I wrote called 'Appoggiatura' which is on Greatest Hits ! (You can hear that one on our myspace: Destruction inc.). I also wrote the tracks 'O'Mother' and 'Puppenhaus' (which annoyingly has been entered in itunes as Ruppenhaus..). GO BUY IT !!
Here : French Amazon
Or here : Fnac.com
Or in ITunes!
It got great reviews by the way
« This album is close to perfection, if it weren’t for its cover, which is a throwback from another time » ROCK ONE
� Destruction Incorporated sums up what rock has done best since the begining of the nineties which, is a real tour de force !� ROCK MAG

We're currently looking for management and distribution internationally, in the US or UK. Makes more sense to have the record(s) out and do shows there anyway as it's all in English so if you have any address, PLEASE pass on ! I will love you forever.
2.I came around for a concert at La Loco in Paris last July. The sound in that place was just awful, I couldn't hear myself which was pretty frightening... The run-up to the gig was stressful to say the least ; No real fuck-ups though ; ) Pictures by my father (a.k.a. a very notorious photographer !) and others below in the picture section. Here are two :


3.I graduated with an art and performance degree from the University of London last Summer !! Wooo ! I'd never mentionned it on here because I hate to be pigeonholed : there's this assumption that being a student is a full-time thing and that you're not doing anything else with your life. Untrue in my case as I had lots more exciting stuff going on.

I would have liked to do a Masters in the same area but let's face it, an art degree only gets you so far. It's the opportunities you get outside of university and the work you do that gets you to where you want to be.
4.I got a kickass job ! Last Summer I was offered to become a full-time journalist and translator for Guitar Part magazine which is, I believe one of, if not the biggest music publication in France. Funny thing is, I never applied to work there ! My guitarist has worked for them for years and I had previously helped them out but that's it (yes, I'm bragging I admit it).
That being said, it is hard work and because they're not the most organized people ever, this is journalism after all, and there are deadlines, I'm often asked to do things last minute ; but hey I'm writing and translating stuff that I'm really into, nerdy guitar stuff etc.
I worked on a database of amps, pedals and guitars for a few months so I've since become a complete know-it all geek Coil taps, spring reverbs, active pickups, skunk stripes, sawtooth waves, EL34s, DSP, sandwich guitars, phrygian modes, minor thirds and fifths... oh baby ! The best part is that I get to work from home and that they let me stay in London ! Currently looking for a job in an another UK or US guitar/music publication as well, or guitar/amp/pedal company, something like that...
Might I add that it is so sweet (and yet so hard) to work from home (or wherever I want), by yourself.

Yeah ummm... Looks nothink like that though...
5. I interviewed Dave Stewart (of Eurythmics fame) last month which was fun. He e-mailed me some stuff we talked about later ; it's pretty surreal to look through your inbox and see e-mails from Dave Stewart ! I asked him what the key to his creativity was and he told me about how he took loads of LSD when he was younger... Hopefully our readers won't take his advice! He got totally confused at one point and was saying 'wait, is this a French magazine, I'm interviewing for ? You sound American..' (I've always been fully billingual with no accent in either language which often confuses people who don't know me)
I asked him for Gwen Stefani's number and he said he'd give it to me after the birth of her twins ! I'm so happy they published that bit tehehe!
6.I got my light blue belt last Summer !!!!! Being a blue belt in my style is a big deal because you start to be treated like soon-to-be instructor material, you get to teach more, attend 'blue belt courses' (one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my life, both physically and mentally), train with instructors etc. I did the Instructor course 2 months ago where I got to teach to a full class which was brilliant. I got great feedback as well : )
7. I bumped into Tim Burton a few weeks ago in a small London pub. He was all 'oooh you're part French ? I loooove France' and then kissed my hands ; he seemed a bit pissed... My friends are all very jealous now ; )
8. I made some new friends in London... I probably shouldn't mention who they are on here for all to see. Let's just say, they all drive Harleys (or Buells, you know what I mean), and wear a lot of leather. Lovely guys actually ! They throw great parties too : ) Here's my good friend Cyran :

9. I'd been dreaming of owning a Standard US Fender Telecaster for a while now and finally got the object of my desire Last September ! Or almost since I settled for another model in the end : A Fender Telecaster thinline '72. It's a semi-hollow body, great neck, warm tones and the twang !!! Only the pickguard is an atrocity but I'll change it soon. This brings my total to 8 guitars!
My next purchase will be an amp, with tubes, probably blackheart (fantastic gear, sweet price). I can't wait...

10. I made the switch. I got a Macbook! I wish someone had told me how much better this was than PC earlier! Essentially I got it because music production software just runs better on this but wow, everything else runs better too ! I get my mbox and pro tools this weekend (thank you Shanka <3), after which I might never leave the house again ! All my compos won't be going to waste anymore, hoorah!
11. Because I think the environment is -obviously- more important than what happened with my ex, I'll pimp his (very, very good) book out, which he was writing while we were still together : The Ethics of Climate Change
I wrote a review which you can read on the following link if you're interested in the book.
Go buy it here : The Ethics of Climate Change on Amazon
12. Yey, the London tattoo convention starts in just under two weeks !
13. Currently making a myspace music for myself... I'm trying to think of a way I could change my normal profile to a music one, whilst keeping all my friends etc. Ummmm...
14. My stepmother, who is an incredibly talented sculptor, invited me to attend one of her teaching seminars : Here's what I produced (with extra work). She said it was incredibly good for a first time and that I should really keep to it. So when I have more time hopefully... In the meantime I'm translating her website.



Here's her website by the way : Sculptures Rivaux
And one of her pieces :

(It's Zimbabwean Serpentine.. Oh and I modelled for it :p)
16. Other than that, there was SOOOOOOOO much Partying this year... Fun, fun, fun!
Many related pictures below and I'll end it on that !
THE PRETTY
Warning ! There are a LOT of pictures !
(All the Jitsu pics are from me - unless I'm on them obviously)








































(the person who spotted me in there has good eyesight...)




(I'm right on the left !)





Man do I love this girl ! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3





In case you haven'st seen it, head on over to youtube and search for 'Rapist glasses' (by Jon LaJoie)










Destruction inc.'s Drummer, Pierre from Lofofora : )




(I can assure you we aren't trying to undress each other...)




















Now for my usual questions (because after reading all about my life, I care to know about yours as well) :
-Tell me about an event, good or bad which significantly affected you in the past 12 months or so.
-Tell me about the worst breakup you ever went through and how you dealt/are dealing with it. Do you think you'll always love that person ?
-And just because everyone might not want to be so deep, the latest record you bought and what you thought of it ( ?)
SEP 14, 2008 04:40 PM
Love your tattoo ![]()
And such an enjoyment it must be to be able to create all forms of art.
Hopefully I will be doing competitions as well in Hap Ki Do in a few months ![]()
Hmmm 12 months. I suppose it would have to be going to Iraq, which was a great and awesome experience, but having to come back home early, and realizing I got one letter from any of my friends, and not a single person came to welcome me home out of any that lived in the area. I don't think I have ever felt so betrayed after all the talking up they did.
Either that or knowing I will probably never be a good enough writer to have any sort of publishing.
Worst breakup was simply gf 5 years ago was a whore hahahaha. I have been single since.
Last record I bought worth mentioning would be The Mars Volta, Bedlam in Goliath, which was a complex sound of religious, spiritual, dark, and light moments, it's a record that is hard to swallow at first, but never seems to get old once you do.
SEP 14, 2008 07:03 PM
Wow, I guess a lot does happen in 8ish months, Sorry for your loses and bad ocurrences in life, and Kudos on all your achivements. Love LOVE the tattoo, is pretty freaking amazing and truly good luck finding a band dude, your voice rocks! I couldn't find "The Good son" but "Appoggiatura" was great
Abut the questions:
- I got fired from my 5 year job for getting caught looking at SG while on watch;
- Never had a worst break up because I don't let myself love anybody;
- "All Hope is gone" from Slipknot is still kicking my ass, love it
SEP 14, 2008 10:31 PM
i always love reading your posts, even if they are few and far between.
wow. you've had more stuff go on in the last year than i have in the last ten. you are a bundle of life and it's really awesome to see. also, glad to see the music is still going strong. if i was in london, i would totally be in a band with you. i've been dying to play bass again and play some shows.
SEP 15, 2008 03:02 AM
Wiow! Epic post! Very glad to hear you're still alive and still on the site! ![]()
Sounds like things have been like a rollercoaster lately. Sorry about the family stuff and the other stuff *hugs*
I would definitely be up for doing some music in London, and I would 100% not dick you around. I'm happy to do anything really. I can sing or play a bit of guitar although I'm best as a drummer but I don't have transport/don't drive (which is a real hindrance). Totally with you on the rock crossover/experimental stuff too. Let me know? ![]()
In regards to your questions, I'm not sure really what's affected my the most in the last 12 months. Emotionally things have been very stable, except for my dad's 60th (which wasn't bad, just a little weird, like our relationship always has been). My freelancing opportunities with a games company in the US have dried up, which is a pain, and the current dip in the housing market might really bite me in the ass next year *shrugs*
As far as my worst breakup goes, I guess it goes back a few years to a girl who who was the best friend of one my best friends. We got on really well, became really good friends as well as lovers, and after going on holiday to Australia together we decided to buy a place together and move in together. Sadly that only lasted 9 months - we stopped getting on, weren't communicating very well and eventually she left. I think it was more her fault than mine (although I will shoulder my fair share of the blame). I didn't go crazy, although it took a long time to adjust being on my own again. Mind you, If I hadn't had taken custody of our two cats for company I think I *would* have gone mental... ![]()
The last thing I bought was the latest Metallica album, more for curiosity's sake than anything else. It's more listenable than St. Anger, although there are a couple of tracks that bore me to tears. Not the best thing they've done, but it's a step in the right direction...![]()
SEP 15, 2008 07:44 AM
That was no blog, that was an epic autobiographical odyssey!
I LOVE your new ink - I've been obsessed with astronomy since I was a kid too. So much so that I painted my attic bedroom walls/ceiling midnight blue and then mapped the constellations out with glow stars and setup a black light. It was my own personal planetarium.
You lead an amazing life and have had an incredible year! I would love to meet up for a drink and hear some of your stories some day. I come to London for both work and family (rellies in Cornwall) sometimes so perhaps you'll indulge me when the time comes?
And now, since I've had quite a year myself, here goes:
[spoiler]
Tell me about an event, good or bad which significantly affected you in the past 12 months or so.
The last year and 1/2 has been an intense roller coaster ride of emotions, experiences and change. My father was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and given a few months to live. I move to Australia and live in Brisbane. I've traveled to Taiwan, London, Edinburgh, New York, LA, Cornwall and Vancouver. The project I'm working on here got canceled 18 months later and now I'm still working here but am seriously considering other options back in Canada. My father has been through Chemo and is living and working and apparently OK. For now.
All of those things have significantly affected me.
-Tell me about the worst breakup you ever went through and how you dealt/are dealing with it. Do you think you'll always love that person ?
The worst break up I went through was ending a 5 year relationship (I still love her but we weren't meant to be together in this life - maybe ever). It was a heinous and soul crushing experience and I don't have the emotional and mental wherewithal to recount it at this time of night. Perhaps another time? Let's just say this: it happened in 2002 and it's been a very interesting few years since. We remained friends and I was even photographer at her wedding but I've learned so much about myself since that I'm convinced it is sheer idiocy to marry someone unless you've been together for at least 5 years. Preferably 10.
-And just because everyone might not want to be so deep, the latest record you bought and what you thought of it ( ?)
As a composer I tend to buy a lot of different kinds of music all the time to keep myself learning and inspired. I find I buy fewer albums these days and more just individual songs or pieces. That said, the last record I bought was a CD of a girl who was playing live at a pub in Byron Bay (south of Brisbane). She was fantastic live and had a great band but the CD utterly failed to capture the magic she wielded on stage.
I'm thinking of buying the New Death Cab and some old Bach guitar concertos next. Possibly also some Datarock.
SEP 15, 2008 12:56 PM
bad event
-devoir rester en deuxieme annee.. booooh. oui, redoubler en gros.
good event
-etre de retour en californie, meme si c'est juste pour deux mois.
ralllaalala, jaimerai bien pouvoir me debarrasser de mon accent francais quand je parle anglais. enfin bon...
bad break up?
-bof, rien ne me vient en tete, ca a jamais du trop me marquer. j'imagine que ca va venir donc.
c'est du lourd comme update tout ca!!
SEP 19, 2008 12:26 AM
so, nothing really going on with you, then?
that was an exhausting and exhilirating read. sounds like you are on the up and up despite all the horrific drama.
love the new ink! when i was young i would read astronomy books from the library and draw my own spaceships on graph paper. i too wanted to go to some alien worlds. i got to see some, just not by rocketship
can i just say that i'm really amazed that you had the guts to go back to that jitsu school. i would have just found another one. that school must be hella good to put up with that tension.
1. ya know, i can't thnk of one really good or bad signicant thing that happened to me. unless you count drug and alcohol binges (yeah, i didn't thnk so). oh, i just moved into a bigger room in the same house, feels alot better to stretch out a bit. now to try to motivate and get rid of some stuff. i have way too much stuff.
2. don't know about worst breakup, but the last lady i was with was more than likely my soul mate. i pushed her away. she ends up with one of my friends. sound familiar? we are stll friends, i get acupuncture/accutonics from her a couple of times a month. i don't really talk to him any more. i found out they were engaged thru myspace. neither one has yet to say anything to me about it.
3. i still buy way too many records. i'm digging old Yes, MGMT, and jazz records. also the Fiery Furnaces latest. and Petula Clark's "Downtown" 45.
































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