age: 32 (Nov 06, 1976)

MEMBER SINCE: February 2005

occupation: Retired. Past jobs have included stripper, waitress, teacher, bouncer & bartender.

body mods: Pierced nipples. A shit load of scars. .

sign: Scorpio.

into: I like to fight. A lot. It probably says a lot about me that I enjoy causing pain.

stats: Undefeated. But I've taken a lot of damage.

most humbling moment: When I realized that the man I thought was my soul mate didn't love me enough to make it work. That he was just going to let me go away. ... Again ... Every time I go back to him hoping he has changed his mind. ..... Every time I realize that I will never get over him. ..... Knowing that I recently made another man feel exactly the way he felt. .... Wishing I could have found a way to change that and realizing it was impossible.

makes me happy: Training, sparring, dancing, racquetball, sex, good food, books, gardening, poker, role playing games, movies, music & art.

crush: Breaks my heart every time I see him. So why move back where he lives? Never seeing him makes my heart ache. Love sucks.

fantasy: He decides that happiness is more important than his warped sense of duty/obligation and admits he loves me. My fantasy is to be a home wrecker. That idea didn't used to bother me. It does now. And I still want it to happen. Does that make me a bad person?

makes me sad: Married men, people who deny loving someone when they know they do, cowardice, people who won't take risks. Loving people with the flaws mentioned above. That I can't let them go.