yes i know... it's been a long F@(K3N time since i last posted. sometime in the order of 17 months. (i wonder if that is an SG record for an active count with blog posts?) lots of new sh!7 going on. i've been pretty sick for the past 6 months and my job in new haven fired me over the summer because i was ill and my doctor said i would be out for a few month. so i am suing their asses for wrongful termination and discrimination. (that's what they get for firing someone who averaged 55 hrs a week and was made sick because of it.)

i am living back in boston and my sweetie and i just moved into a new apartment (without roomates for once of course my sweetie is living with me :love. i am just starting to look for a new job in boston so we will see what happens for the next few months.

I am sorry i never got to say goodbye to all of you in CT. i love you guys very much and will miss you all !

on the upside... now you all have a place to crash when you come to boston to go to a club or see a show so drop me a line and we'll make arrangements.

also if i have advance warning (and a place to crash if buddha and i light up) i would to love to come down and hang out with you guys. (maybe the xmas party? )

i hope all of you guys in SGCT are well. luv u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey look at me... an update.
i know it has been a long time. (oops 7 months) (sorry) thing have been quite crazy in my life with work taking up the bulk of my time and my life. i have a little down time today (thanks to elmcitydrunk's party last night i decided to fore go doing anything today and just hang and update my journal. it was so great to see people last night. i had a great time. and ben i promise i will return your "swingers" tape
hopefully i will see all of you again realy soon.
and jed have a safe trip back to fresno. i'm so glad you were able to hang out with us while you were in ct. lol

past couple of days have been better. last weeks SGCT wed nite shin dig at elmcitydrunk's place and debate watch were fun. and the air hockey table was working again. yay .

my hair is now purple. i've been wanting to do this for over a year and finally did it this weekend. now i have to get the piercngs and tats i want and life will be good. hopefully soon .

well just wanted to post a quick update.

lol

hey everyone. okay i'm finally updating. i know it's been a while and some people (mhm Karebear) have informed me that since they have updated, it is now my turn.

so on that note i'm still feeling like crap. just as i started getting over one thing, something new has come to take its place and so i'm feelin' like crap all over again. well bitchin' about it won't help. so i've been takin' it easy the last 2 weeks and getting to bed early every nite. hence the reason for not postin' for so long. except for the last 2 wednesday nites when i've been hangin with the SGCT crowd at elmcitydrunk's place. which has been lots of fun. although allied is getting on the shit list for not showing up to hang again. but it was great to see chiquitabonita & welntaod & especially karebear since she hasn't been around for ages & of course our gracious host elmcitydrunk plus it was nice to finally meet alienprincess .

so in other news, i still haven't heard spoken to my ex in texas since finding out about her moving in with her bf. she's texted me a couple oftimes and said how she missed me and she wants totalk but still no word. it's all so upsetting & infuriating. i wish she would call so we could talk.

my dad is in the hospital again . he had a fall yesterday while trying to help a neighbor down the stairs. he didn't break anything but he developed a bad nose bleed and they have to take him off his heart meds. so they don't want to risk anything while he is off the meds. the last time he developed a bad nose bleed it continued for nearly two weeks and when they finally took him off his heart meds he had a heart attack a couple of days later. so this time they don't want to take any chances.

ah when it rains it pours. argh

on the work front things are pickin' up again & it looks like I will be putting in 50 to 60 hour weeks again for a while which is great for $ but suck for the social life. what i need is a new gf so that i have a reason to leave work at decent hour. (that and some good comapny, good conversation & fab nookie .)

enough of that. hopefully within the next few days i can catchup on everyones journals and say. i've missed u all over the last couple of weeks & i can't wait to find out what's going on with everyone. talk to you all soon.

i'm feelin' like crap all day bin sick all day and not any better tonite just wanna roll over & die callin' it an early nite. maybe i'll have nice dreams with lots of SGs in them

nighty nite

okay how slow am i? i check the "my friends" section of my profile after every post i make because i don't want to lose track of who has posted a new jounal entry since whenever someone post a new entry they bump the bottom person of the list and i'm always worried i'm gonna miss a post once someone is off the page. well i just discovered the next page button at the bottom of the screen so i can now look at the last jounal post of each of my friends. WOO HOO now i can keep track of everyone's last post and not freak out because i missed one at the bottom of the page.

good nite everyone. i luv u all

sorry it's been a while since last update.
and sorry to everyone in SGCT who was @ flux. please forgive my no show.
"rant time"
so yesterday sucked. i got a voicemail from my ex who wanted t say hi and said for me to give her a call back. so when i got home i gave her a call. but when i called her place it said her # had changed an it gave me the #. so icalled the # and "her" answering machine picked up. i say "her " answering machine because when it picked up it was her voice but the message said that her and her boyfriend weren't home. what a shock and way to learn that she moved in with a guy.it makes me question what were we doing in a relationship for 3 yrs? how is it she can move in with a guy in less then a yr but in 3 yrs never want to move in with me? why was it that she didn't want those things with me? what couldn't i give her? i hate the whole situation. and now i haven't heard back from her and i think we need to talk but i'm not sure i should try to call her a again. how could she be with a boy? i met him and he's nothing like anyone else she's ever been with and i've met and become friends with 4 of her exes. i don't get it. it makes me so depressed.

last nite was fun. i went out to flux to meet up with SGCTers. only elmcitydrunk & LittleSister showed up. (Allied u are now on my shit list. still luv ya though.) LittleSister was so drunk and so cute and so touchable

on another note...i've only gotten about six hours of sleep in four days and tonite is not looking any better i feel like death and i'm horny as hell and not getting any real relief for the most part. i need a gf

this weekend my nose piercing popped out while taking a shower and closed up before i could get to a piercer to put it back in. so this weekend i'm going to get two to replace the one while i'm at the Boston Tattoo Convention.

anyway...enough ranting it's :30am in CT and i going to try to get sleep again. wish me luck.

boy do i have a lot to post later today. but it will have to wait until i get some sleep.
god it was lots of fun hangin with emlcitydrunk & LittleSister

sorry i haven't updated in a while. i'm trying to get better. iwas in boston for a few days and didn't have access to a computer and berfore that i spent a few days really depressed and was unable to post anything more than a few words at a time on some of the groups and in friends' journals.
well i'm back now. (hehe)
i'm still feelin' really depressed and i'm trying to find a way out of da funk. (maybe da noise?)(sorry i get a little punny from time to time trying to cheer myself up) hopefully i'll get out to sgct flux nite tomorrow. that would at least get me out of my apartment which has been another problem (aside from going to work)(and boston was an obligation). problem is i don't have anything to wear to the club. (i don't want to wear something i already wore to the club.)(okay my overly girly sensibilities are kickin'in. )
well i'll have to figure out clubbin clothes tomorrow it's gettin' late and i need to get to sleep since last nite i only got 2 1/2 hrs of sleep and then put in 12+ hr day. (wah wah wah) yeah i should stop whining and just get to bed. hope all of u are havin' a better week then i seem to be. lol