my movie is finally up! starring fenchurch! featuring a little hotcurry! go watch it! click on the ad afterwards because i get money if you do!
THE MISANTHROPES
THE MISANTHROPES
i wish i could make a fenny video that would go up on the site.
except how i would do it is, have her talking the whole time (or maybe doing something gawky and cute) without all the nude pan shots set to background music.
and i doubt they would want something like that.
le sigh.
except how i would do it is, have her talking the whole time (or maybe doing something gawky and cute) without all the nude pan shots set to background music.
and i doubt they would want something like that.
le sigh.
things i did today:
1. met with my agent. thrilling, nerve-wracking, etc. things are looking good for our movie.
2. saw some adorable puppies. it was this fancy pet store that apparently only stocked the tiniest and fluffiest of puppies. my mother and i have since become obsessed with the idea of getting a puppy, which is sadly impossible at least for a few more years. lately i've been feeling very maternal and wanting to take care of tiny things. i think a puppy would make a good test baby for me.
so okay, here's my (rhetorical) question: how on earth do normal people flirt? i've noticed that whenever i see a really cute girl, i invariably look like shit and am usually with my parents (since they are my only friends), making flirting impossible even if i had any idea how to do it. go up and be like, "hello hot countergirl, i am GAY for YOU"? or give her a subtle gay test like "look, i just found this socket wrench-- can you show me how to use it?"
rambling journal, whee! i really should get off the internet and go to bed.
it really sucks that they only give uniforms to people who are actually in the army, because fatigues are hot and i'd like to see them on more women. or a navy uniform with a little hat.
1. met with my agent. thrilling, nerve-wracking, etc. things are looking good for our movie.
2. saw some adorable puppies. it was this fancy pet store that apparently only stocked the tiniest and fluffiest of puppies. my mother and i have since become obsessed with the idea of getting a puppy, which is sadly impossible at least for a few more years. lately i've been feeling very maternal and wanting to take care of tiny things. i think a puppy would make a good test baby for me.
so okay, here's my (rhetorical) question: how on earth do normal people flirt? i've noticed that whenever i see a really cute girl, i invariably look like shit and am usually with my parents (since they are my only friends), making flirting impossible even if i had any idea how to do it. go up and be like, "hello hot countergirl, i am GAY for YOU"? or give her a subtle gay test like "look, i just found this socket wrench-- can you show me how to use it?"
rambling journal, whee! i really should get off the internet and go to bed.
it really sucks that they only give uniforms to people who are actually in the army, because fatigues are hot and i'd like to see them on more women. or a navy uniform with a little hat.
i am up late with crazy insomnia! i haven't written in this thing in forever.
hmm... what can i contribute in this entry? AHA!
oh my goodness becky, look at her bible. it is SO HUGE.
hmm... what can i contribute in this entry? AHA!
oh my goodness becky, look at her bible. it is SO HUGE.
i have a giant crush on loki and seeing her in a set today has stripped me of anything interesting i might have said.
quilty and i have had a veritable 24 hour adventure. she spent the night. green and flaming liquids were imbibed; several hours of hysterical laughter and sg-perusing followed. sets of venla, charlie, andarete sighed and lusted over. stayed up til 5 am under the hot inquisition lights not talking, keeping secrets locked under collarbones.
i couldn't sleep but lay there shaking with my own racing thoughts. got up at 6:30 to pace the house and mutter to myself.
i slept for two hours before we had to get up for our lion's gate meeting. we dressed in carefully planned professional yet cute outfits (my heels matched my skirt!) and drove over. in the waiting room we were quite giggly and unsophisticatedly dazzled by our surroundings.
the exec was lovely and had AMAZING notes for us on how to lengthen. i am so grateful; she knew exactly what we needed, stuff i hadn't even thought of. so we're gonna lengthen it into a feature, which is what we knew the meeting was about.
the thing is, though, she wants to make our movie.
we walked out of the office and through the parking garage in a dazed way, like alternating between dazed and giggling screaming freakouts with lots of swearing. we drove home on the freeway in this manner for around five hours (terrible traffic) as if we were making the trek across some biblical desert. singing along to "tainted love" and the gaston song and other mix cd awesomeness very loudly. we also had to make stuck-in-traffic cell phone calls to our parents-- my dad was more excited than ever in his life; he said, "i'm happier than if it was me getting a job."
when we got home there was a homemade sign made by my dad on the door. it said:
HOO RAY
welcome home winners!
i'm still reeling.
i couldn't sleep but lay there shaking with my own racing thoughts. got up at 6:30 to pace the house and mutter to myself.
i slept for two hours before we had to get up for our lion's gate meeting. we dressed in carefully planned professional yet cute outfits (my heels matched my skirt!) and drove over. in the waiting room we were quite giggly and unsophisticatedly dazzled by our surroundings.
the exec was lovely and had AMAZING notes for us on how to lengthen. i am so grateful; she knew exactly what we needed, stuff i hadn't even thought of. so we're gonna lengthen it into a feature, which is what we knew the meeting was about.
the thing is, though, she wants to make our movie.
we walked out of the office and through the parking garage in a dazed way, like alternating between dazed and giggling screaming freakouts with lots of swearing. we drove home on the freeway in this manner for around five hours (terrible traffic) as if we were making the trek across some biblical desert. singing along to "tainted love" and the gaston song and other mix cd awesomeness very loudly. we also had to make stuck-in-traffic cell phone calls to our parents-- my dad was more excited than ever in his life; he said, "i'm happier than if it was me getting a job."
when we got home there was a homemade sign made by my dad on the door. it said:
HOO RAY
welcome home winners!
i'm still reeling.
My review of THE SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELING PANTS (contains spoilers):
PLOT SYNOPSIS: Four best friends are about to spend their first summer apart. Before they leave they find a pair of jeans at a thrift store that magically fits all of them perfectly, even though theyre all really skinny and one of them is tall and America Fererra is fat. I dont know, its magic. So they agree that theyll share the pants (theres a long, elaborate scene where they make up a bunch of rules for the pants sisterhood) and send them to each other over the summer.
So they all go on their separate trips and adventures, and of course, when they wear the pants, something important happens to all of them. At the end they acknowledge the pants might not really be magic, but its kinda vague. So, yeah.
MY (SEXUAL) RESPONSE: Okay, so I completely just went to this movie to make fun of it, but it turned out to be actually not bad. Fantastic acting by America Fererra and Amber Tamblyn. Also, there was not ONE girl in the movie I did not want to do. America Fererra So. Fucking. Hot. And she took off her pants. Mmmm. Amber Tamblyn also incredibly fucking hot. And sarcastic and adorable.
Rory Gilmore (have forgotten her real name) really hot on her trip to Greece to a soundtrack of bad womyn-type music. She also took off her clothes in this movie. Whats with her CRAZY GORGEOUS face? I dont understand it.
Blake Lively, the blonde oneWTF. She never didnt look like a porn star. She was supposed to be at this all-girl soccer camp, and every time you saw her she was wearing these tiny spandex shorts and running and tossing her long, blonde hair as sweat trickled down her tan, nubile body. At one point she actually poured a bottle of water on herself. When she put on the magic pants it was the most clothing she ever wore. Also, she was constantly surrounded by hoards of similarly nubile running girls in shorts. Im going to rent this movie again and masturbate to it because it is DIRTY, DIRTY PORN.
BEST SCENE EVER: Over the summer, Amber Tamblyn meets this 12 year old girl who is dying of lukemia and they bond and Amber Tamblyn learns to feel. So there's a scene where Amber Tamblyn is in the hospital with Dying Girl and she brings her the traveling pants and its like oh Amber, leukemia is a real disease. Pants are not gonna help. Also these pants are not ACTUALLY magic. Anyway, Amber starts facing her feelings with this dying girl, and its actually some incredible acting, shes like really breaking down emotionally, and its really powerful except its ruined by all this dialogue about the MAGICAL FUCKING PANTS. Amber sobs (re: the pants), "You have to take them, you have to let them help you and the little girl in her hospital bed goes, No, the pants have already worked their magic on me. They led me to you. So I could not stop laughing during this scene of this child dying.
Thats the end. Go see this movie if you want to become a lesbian, or if youre male, go see it to drool over the girls.
PLOT SYNOPSIS: Four best friends are about to spend their first summer apart. Before they leave they find a pair of jeans at a thrift store that magically fits all of them perfectly, even though theyre all really skinny and one of them is tall and America Fererra is fat. I dont know, its magic. So they agree that theyll share the pants (theres a long, elaborate scene where they make up a bunch of rules for the pants sisterhood) and send them to each other over the summer.
So they all go on their separate trips and adventures, and of course, when they wear the pants, something important happens to all of them. At the end they acknowledge the pants might not really be magic, but its kinda vague. So, yeah.
MY (SEXUAL) RESPONSE: Okay, so I completely just went to this movie to make fun of it, but it turned out to be actually not bad. Fantastic acting by America Fererra and Amber Tamblyn. Also, there was not ONE girl in the movie I did not want to do. America Fererra So. Fucking. Hot. And she took off her pants. Mmmm. Amber Tamblyn also incredibly fucking hot. And sarcastic and adorable.
Rory Gilmore (have forgotten her real name) really hot on her trip to Greece to a soundtrack of bad womyn-type music. She also took off her clothes in this movie. Whats with her CRAZY GORGEOUS face? I dont understand it.
Blake Lively, the blonde oneWTF. She never didnt look like a porn star. She was supposed to be at this all-girl soccer camp, and every time you saw her she was wearing these tiny spandex shorts and running and tossing her long, blonde hair as sweat trickled down her tan, nubile body. At one point she actually poured a bottle of water on herself. When she put on the magic pants it was the most clothing she ever wore. Also, she was constantly surrounded by hoards of similarly nubile running girls in shorts. Im going to rent this movie again and masturbate to it because it is DIRTY, DIRTY PORN.
BEST SCENE EVER: Over the summer, Amber Tamblyn meets this 12 year old girl who is dying of lukemia and they bond and Amber Tamblyn learns to feel. So there's a scene where Amber Tamblyn is in the hospital with Dying Girl and she brings her the traveling pants and its like oh Amber, leukemia is a real disease. Pants are not gonna help. Also these pants are not ACTUALLY magic. Anyway, Amber starts facing her feelings with this dying girl, and its actually some incredible acting, shes like really breaking down emotionally, and its really powerful except its ruined by all this dialogue about the MAGICAL FUCKING PANTS. Amber sobs (re: the pants), "You have to take them, you have to let them help you and the little girl in her hospital bed goes, No, the pants have already worked their magic on me. They led me to you. So I could not stop laughing during this scene of this child dying.
Thats the end. Go see this movie if you want to become a lesbian, or if youre male, go see it to drool over the girls.
since being TIED DOWN and FORCED (*disclaimer: that part may be a lie*) to watch a marathon of the L word, which included Heart playing on the show for some reason, i have become fixated on that one Heart song, the one that's like, "i'm gonna go craaaaazy on you!"
jenny, the L word's kinda-main character, takes their advice to heart (haha, pun) by hallucinating some more and having a bunch of flashbacks to her childhood trauma. the flashbacks take place in a circus though, and she's a mime. fencha, i know this is important news that you have been pining to hear.
i was thinking about enemies today... i was always the kid who tried never to rock the boat, but after nineteen years i've found myself with a couple of people who've got it out for me. i guess it's unavoidable. i should write something about a pair of enemies. no i shouldn't. i should write the things i'm already writing.
things are very mellow around here, floating around the house with my lead balloon of a dad. waiting for people to call me back so we can maybe start shooting the movie... i'm losing hope for this summer, but i know we'll do it eventually... waiting for meetings with execs who liked the script. waiting and trying to write more. and sleeping. it's pretty nice, i needed this break after the work load of this last term.
i also have lots of time to read now, and i swear i have not read a book in like a year, which is ridiculous. anyone have book recommendations for me?
jenny, the L word's kinda-main character, takes their advice to heart (haha, pun) by hallucinating some more and having a bunch of flashbacks to her childhood trauma. the flashbacks take place in a circus though, and she's a mime. fencha, i know this is important news that you have been pining to hear.
i was thinking about enemies today... i was always the kid who tried never to rock the boat, but after nineteen years i've found myself with a couple of people who've got it out for me. i guess it's unavoidable. i should write something about a pair of enemies. no i shouldn't. i should write the things i'm already writing.
things are very mellow around here, floating around the house with my lead balloon of a dad. waiting for people to call me back so we can maybe start shooting the movie... i'm losing hope for this summer, but i know we'll do it eventually... waiting for meetings with execs who liked the script. waiting and trying to write more. and sleeping. it's pretty nice, i needed this break after the work load of this last term.
i also have lots of time to read now, and i swear i have not read a book in like a year, which is ridiculous. anyone have book recommendations for me?
EVEN MORE OF AN UPDATE! i have new photos.
me with a shapely man
more here.
yeesh, it's hard to keep track of all my online journals. my goodness, what a TERRIBLY emo statement.
speaking of emo, next year trent, fenny, ian and i plan to finally launch our fake emo band Tendercore.
idea for first song: emotionally transmitted diseases. here's my half-assed shot at it, fenny could probably do better.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the night we met, you took me into your bed
you were honest right from the start
you looked at me and asked if i had protection
i should have put saran wrap over my heart
(chorus!)
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
the night we met, you said you'd never hurt me
but now i know that you only lied
i know now that sex is never really safe
i can't scratch this itch that's inside
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
(bridge? is that what the weird isolated part is called?)
(wail) it BURRRRNNNNNS
now i'm gonna pass this pain to somebody else
pass it to somebody else
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
me with a shapely man
more here.
yeesh, it's hard to keep track of all my online journals. my goodness, what a TERRIBLY emo statement.
speaking of emo, next year trent, fenny, ian and i plan to finally launch our fake emo band Tendercore.
idea for first song: emotionally transmitted diseases. here's my half-assed shot at it, fenny could probably do better.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the night we met, you took me into your bed
you were honest right from the start
you looked at me and asked if i had protection
i should have put saran wrap over my heart
(chorus!)
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
the night we met, you said you'd never hurt me
but now i know that you only lied
i know now that sex is never really safe
i can't scratch this itch that's inside
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
(bridge? is that what the weird isolated part is called?)
(wail) it BURRRRNNNNNS
now i'm gonna pass this pain to somebody else
pass it to somebody else
you're iiiin my blood nowwwww
emotionally transmitted disease
i'll try to smile, try to get through it
but i'm infectedddddd
and you're gone.
i feel like i need to update. new york was amazing! we (kaley and i) (and my mama and daddy) stayed in a luxurious hotel and saw intensely wonderous musical after intensely wonderous musical. and i bought my wife alice a bowler hat. joy!
also, i got another assignment from the advocate. this time i went to the stonewall bar and interviewed this guy named tree (full legal name) about the actual riots which he was actually at. the article's due in like three days. i really need to start writing.
i have too much work.... i am at this moment staying up all night working on a photo history paper. it's fascinating! for so long people were like "we have our camera obscuras, and on an unrelated note, silver nitrate blackens when exposed to light, but we're totally NOT gonna put two and two together"
i am very tired.
more goth shooting tomorrow! it will be 100% goth! last scene went quite well. julia especially got very stanislavski with her "popular girl Nicole" character and became somewhat possessed by the hideous "Bratz" shirt she wore as a costume.
HANNAH: I always screw up my lines.
JULIA: Not me. "One-take Julia," they call me around the set.
oh, i love all my little friends who are actors for me! they are all so wonderful and hilarious.
now MUST FINISH PAPER. stop looking at porn/streaming simpsons episodes off the network/checking email obsessively!
also, i got another assignment from the advocate. this time i went to the stonewall bar and interviewed this guy named tree (full legal name) about the actual riots which he was actually at. the article's due in like three days. i really need to start writing.
i have too much work.... i am at this moment staying up all night working on a photo history paper. it's fascinating! for so long people were like "we have our camera obscuras, and on an unrelated note, silver nitrate blackens when exposed to light, but we're totally NOT gonna put two and two together"
i am very tired.
more goth shooting tomorrow! it will be 100% goth! last scene went quite well. julia especially got very stanislavski with her "popular girl Nicole" character and became somewhat possessed by the hideous "Bratz" shirt she wore as a costume.
HANNAH: I always screw up my lines.
JULIA: Not me. "One-take Julia," they call me around the set.
oh, i love all my little friends who are actors for me! they are all so wonderful and hilarious.
now MUST FINISH PAPER. stop looking at porn/streaming simpsons episodes off the network/checking email obsessively!
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