So I passed the test! Despite the day being rainy and ugly I managed to pass my class 6 exam and so ended up having one of the better Fridays I've had this summer. Drove my car to Innisfail to grab the bike and then, over the weekend drove to Buck Lake, Sylvan Lake and back to Edmonton. It is amazing how much easier everything seems now that I have my licence. Someday I'll learn to place the same amount of faith in myself as others do but until then I guess relying on tests for affirmation isn't the worst thing I could do.
I haven't however got over the fact that I'm really just as uncool as I was prior to the test. I was walking down the street between where I park my bike and work with my leather jacket on, helmet in one hand and "Order of the Phoenix" in the other.I'm pretty sure the one cancels out the other leaving me an odd fellow who seems unaware it is far too warm out for a leather jacket.
I really, really miss playing bass. I can't really blame the people I played with last summer for not calling me back... chemistry is hugely important in a group and I didn't really feel I fit in. That they felt the same, then, should come as no surprise. Unfortunately that still leaves me alone and I've never really been a big solo guy. At any rate, this weighs heavily on my mind as we move towards my first September out of the choir.
Giving up on things you love is hard.
All my best to you all, by the way.
I haven't however got over the fact that I'm really just as uncool as I was prior to the test. I was walking down the street between where I park my bike and work with my leather jacket on, helmet in one hand and "Order of the Phoenix" in the other.I'm pretty sure the one cancels out the other leaving me an odd fellow who seems unaware it is far too warm out for a leather jacket.
I really, really miss playing bass. I can't really blame the people I played with last summer for not calling me back... chemistry is hugely important in a group and I didn't really feel I fit in. That they felt the same, then, should come as no surprise. Unfortunately that still leaves me alone and I've never really been a big solo guy. At any rate, this weighs heavily on my mind as we move towards my first September out of the choir.
Giving up on things you love is hard.
All my best to you all, by the way.
All my best right back at you.