r.i. is getting sticky and hot. last night was tough sleeping. there are choices to be made, as always. they are pressing down. a friend betrayed me. he broke my heart 15 years ago and he still needs to grow up. i have let him go but it makes for some kind of journal entry. i have been lost for words latley...
back on the straight and narrow. the past few days have been filled with glutton. too much coffee, the wrong foods, weakness and wine. after today, life goes back to those found in a monestary. water, bread, occasional sleep, and dreams of salvation will pepper my exsistance. wish me luck, as caffiene withdrawal headaches are a bitch.
y:
Yes, I'm very changeable! It's a bit of an affliction.
That's weird; I've been overdoing it with the food and drink of late as well.
Noticed you were gone. I always get worried when people go away for a space - I tend to think they're annoyed about something or someone on the site, and often find myself thinking it's me. I'm paranoid that way
Peace be with you mammie
That's weird; I've been overdoing it with the food and drink of late as well.
Noticed you were gone. I always get worried when people go away for a space - I tend to think they're annoyed about something or someone on the site, and often find myself thinking it's me. I'm paranoid that way
Peace be with you mammie
y:
That's an older pic, but not much older. I mostly prefer myself bearded - it softens me.
the idea of portland...kind to the heart, to the eyes. my sensibilities are flooded with those that have been before. being human, i find it of interest what those of my own kind have said of their stay. now back to my almost solitary exsistance. i am sad about the routine being mantained, as my husband was right, i do need a little break, but...
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y:
Good luck 
don't be content easily. those who remain content easily remain small: small are their joys, small are their ecstasies, small are their silences, small is their being.
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avalokitesvara:
Talking to yourself now, eh? Good for you! 
So, you're saying size matters?
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So, you're saying size matters?
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y:
Them's good words.
take it for what it's worth - a small collection
letting him
walk the ocean
alone.
"go"
i said
"there is no reason
both of us
should be in here
while he sleeps."
he checks out
the facilities.
"locked tight."
he reports.
the ocean continues its
washing
just beyond the hill
out of sight.
a family arrives
with two awake children.
they are stuffed into...
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letting him
walk the ocean
alone.
"go"
i said
"there is no reason
both of us
should be in here
while he sleeps."
he checks out
the facilities.
"locked tight."
he reports.
the ocean continues its
washing
just beyond the hill
out of sight.
a family arrives
with two awake children.
they are stuffed into...
Read More
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billyfivecrows:
Love your poetry.
Deep and human. Well written.
Thanks so much for the birthday wishes!
-bfc
Deep and human. Well written.
Thanks so much for the birthday wishes!
-bfc
y:
Ooohhh you did not, you big fibber!
take it for what it's worth - a small collection
letting him
walk the ocean
alone.
"go"
i said
"there is no reason
both of us
should be in here
while he sleeps."
he checks out
the facilities.
"locked tight."
he reports.
the ocean continues its
washing
just beyond the hill
out of sight.
a family arrives
with two awake children
they are stuffed into...
Read More
letting him
walk the ocean
alone.
"go"
i said
"there is no reason
both of us
should be in here
while he sleeps."
he checks out
the facilities.
"locked tight."
he reports.
the ocean continues its
washing
just beyond the hill
out of sight.
a family arrives
with two awake children
they are stuffed into...
Read More
hard times. must drink.
sketchy_mf:
I like your new pics! Let's see some more.
Much more!
Much more!
met with sis at penera. we were shameless about occupying the two best stuffed chairs in the place for two hours after buying only one cup of tea. good for us!!! there is nothing like a good talk with a good friend. god, i sound arrogant. 
it was quite a day. tired and strange is my motto, and yet the sleep...it needs to come but i keep myself from it. it is now past 1 in the morning. i wanted to call a friend but didn't. there is no privacy in this apartment. my cell phone is close to empty. charging it seems too much a bother, plus i pace when...
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y:
Careful what you wish for
I'll come visit you some day
Based on my knowledge of the situation, I'd say your future is bright.
I'll come visit you some day
Based on my knowledge of the situation, I'd say your future is bright.
what's to say? it seems i am lost for words. who knows? this might be a good thing.
have a kitchen to clean and a window to repair. rhode island is grey for its fifth day, it is trying. i lived on the west coast where it was grey for months at a time but the energy was different, cleaner and more positive, so it was easier to handle. r.i., the place i was born, the place i never thought i'd come back...
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avalokitesvara:
Sorry you had a disappointing mom's day. I like your new picture. Are you guys getting hammered by the rain that is flooding MA?
y:
You sound very blue 
Love to you! 
Love to you! my husband sucks. i guess that's why we're getting a divorce. my real mother's day gift is on thurs. this coming week, when i go to a divorce mediator. it is scary, as i have been a stay at home mom being supported by him since my son's birth. i will have to come up with a plan and i will do whatever it takes...
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badsun2:
these things are never good but they tell me they do pass in time.....sory you had a bad moms day
y:
Than you very much!
Bad times, I see. My Mum never believed in Mother's Day and wouldn't let us celebrate it. She believes every day should be Mother's day. We believe she's being unrealistic
I'll never understand the 'grown guys and video games' thing
Bad times, I see. My Mum never believed in Mother's Day and wouldn't let us celebrate it. She believes every day should be Mother's day. We believe she's being unrealistic
I'll never understand the 'grown guys and video games' thing