Ladies and gentlemen!
How are ya all today? Good i'd hope. Me? I am humble.
Went out with Holllllly last night!!!!!
Fucking blast good god =)
We took the light-rail downtown again, went to Tarantulas's. PLayed pool for an hour before we decided and made an agreement to get absolutely shitfaced together!
So we started drinking and kept playing pool...talk about intense flirting~ So intense everytime we touched which was literally no exagerating(sp?) every 20 secs, i had to tuck the man under the belt....coulda ran a lumber yard with as much wood as i was sportin last night.
We kept trying to distract each others shots, couple times i ran my hand from her calf up the Hemn of her pants just close enough to her crotch, but not touching. Couple times she even got real close to the man chicken =P She even bit the fuck outta me, should see the bruise =P Turned me right the fuck on....
Well during this course, we looked over at the table and that shit was full of glasses...we lost track of drinking and were just fish breathing apparently =) Fine by us, didnt matter, we were 2 sheets to the wind.
Then i get this phone call on my celly, its my ex-wife....fuck. Shes ragging on about some child support shit and it kinda gets me in a bad mood, not to mention i told her to leave me alone cause im on a DATE at the BAR~ she blew the fuck up...haha dumbass thinks i care....i got gold now dont need her bronze get me?
Hang up the phone, she calls back but Holly is next to my phone and i asked her to answer it, she was kinda nervous to do so, but she did. She hands me thephone its tiffany again...Saying something about your never gonna see your son again, have fun with your slut and being drunk at the bar....i was just like Bet, btw remember my friend i used to hang out with back in the day? she says which one i said Click. Word, turned the phone off, no more ruining my night.
Well we kept playing pool and the flirting picked up to a higher level, im feeling like a pimp cause im the only dude in there with a hot chick and shes all over me =) I then said hey, lets go clubbin so i can break down my super white man dancing, so we took a shuttle to this club called Bash. SPent about another 100 dollars on drinks...we started dancing, good fucking lord, if i knew girls could move their ass the way she was when we were grinding....speechless, im talkin Beyonce on my ass then again shes a dancer in school =P
After drinking and dancing, we headed up to the lounge area...the world only consisted of us 2 at that moment, we started kissing, im talking foreplay in public, dry humping like 15 year old virgins and shit. We changed positions on the seats, she was on top kinda riding me, clothes still on of course...she looks at me and says "I want you so fucking bad right now" with these gorgeous Eyes...i just said ditto.
But i also told her she cant have me until we're together.....she got off of me...oh fuck. She started crying....i was like ummm? wtf just happened. Apparently, shes just as attached to me as i am her, but she knows how badly i was hurt recently and said she doesnt wanna be the one to ever hurt me....I said ok? i couldnt hear anymore the music flooded everything out i grabbed her kissed her and said lets go somewhere and talk...shes crying the whole time walking out, some girl walks up and tries to grind on me as were leaving, i just kept walking.
I told her, look im not cool with us just dating anymore, the thought of her possibly dating anyone else would kill me, she understood. I said you know even if you cant be with me i want to remain friends, oh shit shes mad now, stormed off.
She says thats bullshit, says that that is a poor excuse for being pissed if i dont get what i want basically. i told her i was serious. She says she doesnt want me as a friend, she wants me as more, she wants me to be hers, but she doesnt wanna be the one that hurts me...wtf?
She just wants it to be perfect and to never fail and end up hurting me, said shed never cheat, she learned her lesson from that before. Shes going off of her moving 30 minutes away to college for dance, oh well? ill walk 30 fucking minutes i dont care, to be with her? Shit ill crawl.
We got a cab, she cried the whole way to the car, i asked her to come in, shes drunk i cant let her drive home. We cuddled on my bed, i gave her a pair of my boxers and a t-shirt. Got comfortable. Told her look, your worth it to me, ill take the risk of being hurt to be with you.....she never replied.....she just started kissing me.....it started getting hot...real hot....clothes started coming off, only mine though....she didnt wanna go all the way i was cool with that, she played around for awhile on me.
Needless to say, we made love. It was fucking so great. So great. God. We cuddled and went to sleep, only after she came a couple times though =P id have it no other way.
Got up this morning, she had to bounce, dinner rehearsel for friends wedding and such. She asked if we were hanging out saturday night, i was like fuck yah. She just stopped back by forgot her ID in my wallet, i told her when we hang out tomorrow lets do it sober and talk, also asked her if she regretted last night, she said no. So tomorrow you great people will get to know where me and Holly stand =) Im omw to work to get fired and possibly arrested now so ill hit you all up later =)
Im out~
How are ya all today? Good i'd hope. Me? I am humble.
Went out with Holllllly last night!!!!!
Fucking blast good god =)
We took the light-rail downtown again, went to Tarantulas's. PLayed pool for an hour before we decided and made an agreement to get absolutely shitfaced together!
So we started drinking and kept playing pool...talk about intense flirting~ So intense everytime we touched which was literally no exagerating(sp?) every 20 secs, i had to tuck the man under the belt....coulda ran a lumber yard with as much wood as i was sportin last night.
We kept trying to distract each others shots, couple times i ran my hand from her calf up the Hemn of her pants just close enough to her crotch, but not touching. Couple times she even got real close to the man chicken =P She even bit the fuck outta me, should see the bruise =P Turned me right the fuck on....
Well during this course, we looked over at the table and that shit was full of glasses...we lost track of drinking and were just fish breathing apparently =) Fine by us, didnt matter, we were 2 sheets to the wind.
Then i get this phone call on my celly, its my ex-wife....fuck. Shes ragging on about some child support shit and it kinda gets me in a bad mood, not to mention i told her to leave me alone cause im on a DATE at the BAR~ she blew the fuck up...haha dumbass thinks i care....i got gold now dont need her bronze get me?
Hang up the phone, she calls back but Holly is next to my phone and i asked her to answer it, she was kinda nervous to do so, but she did. She hands me thephone its tiffany again...Saying something about your never gonna see your son again, have fun with your slut and being drunk at the bar....i was just like Bet, btw remember my friend i used to hang out with back in the day? she says which one i said Click. Word, turned the phone off, no more ruining my night.
Well we kept playing pool and the flirting picked up to a higher level, im feeling like a pimp cause im the only dude in there with a hot chick and shes all over me =) I then said hey, lets go clubbin so i can break down my super white man dancing, so we took a shuttle to this club called Bash. SPent about another 100 dollars on drinks...we started dancing, good fucking lord, if i knew girls could move their ass the way she was when we were grinding....speechless, im talkin Beyonce on my ass then again shes a dancer in school =P
After drinking and dancing, we headed up to the lounge area...the world only consisted of us 2 at that moment, we started kissing, im talking foreplay in public, dry humping like 15 year old virgins and shit. We changed positions on the seats, she was on top kinda riding me, clothes still on of course...she looks at me and says "I want you so fucking bad right now" with these gorgeous Eyes...i just said ditto.
But i also told her she cant have me until we're together.....she got off of me...oh fuck. She started crying....i was like ummm? wtf just happened. Apparently, shes just as attached to me as i am her, but she knows how badly i was hurt recently and said she doesnt wanna be the one to ever hurt me....I said ok? i couldnt hear anymore the music flooded everything out i grabbed her kissed her and said lets go somewhere and talk...shes crying the whole time walking out, some girl walks up and tries to grind on me as were leaving, i just kept walking.
I told her, look im not cool with us just dating anymore, the thought of her possibly dating anyone else would kill me, she understood. I said you know even if you cant be with me i want to remain friends, oh shit shes mad now, stormed off.
She says thats bullshit, says that that is a poor excuse for being pissed if i dont get what i want basically. i told her i was serious. She says she doesnt want me as a friend, she wants me as more, she wants me to be hers, but she doesnt wanna be the one that hurts me...wtf?
She just wants it to be perfect and to never fail and end up hurting me, said shed never cheat, she learned her lesson from that before. Shes going off of her moving 30 minutes away to college for dance, oh well? ill walk 30 fucking minutes i dont care, to be with her? Shit ill crawl.
We got a cab, she cried the whole way to the car, i asked her to come in, shes drunk i cant let her drive home. We cuddled on my bed, i gave her a pair of my boxers and a t-shirt. Got comfortable. Told her look, your worth it to me, ill take the risk of being hurt to be with you.....she never replied.....she just started kissing me.....it started getting hot...real hot....clothes started coming off, only mine though....she didnt wanna go all the way i was cool with that, she played around for awhile on me.
Needless to say, we made love. It was fucking so great. So great. God. We cuddled and went to sleep, only after she came a couple times though =P id have it no other way.
Got up this morning, she had to bounce, dinner rehearsel for friends wedding and such. She asked if we were hanging out saturday night, i was like fuck yah. She just stopped back by forgot her ID in my wallet, i told her when we hang out tomorrow lets do it sober and talk, also asked her if she regretted last night, she said no. So tomorrow you great people will get to know where me and Holly stand =) Im omw to work to get fired and possibly arrested now so ill hit you all up later =)
Im out~
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1. No one can hurt you like those that you love.
2. The deeper the love the deeper the hurt.
3. People will let you down.
Once you can just accept these things as facts of life, you can be free of the fear and go for it.
Wishing you the best with Holly and your new job. Your last job...fuck those guys.
Heres how the night started. She got here around 11pm, she knew we were gonna talk soooo when she pulled up and got out of her car, looking like the essence of beauty bottled mind you, she gave me a hug, except this time her hug wasnt heartfelt...i sensed it. I kinda went on the worry mission lol. I said you ok? She replied "yah im fine"....bullshit i knew she was lying. Statisically "im fine" is the one phrase women use the most in their life, true or not, most of the time its not true.
I said ok, well lets go inside and talk =) well we got into my room she sat on my bed, i sat in a chair. I asked her how her wedding went for her friend, she spent about 20 minutes explaining it, sounded lame. Even she had a bad time. I then asked her if she wanted to go to this neighborhood bar, Ali-Bi's, she agreed. We stopped at my old job to get smokes, saw my roommate cause he was working, even he saw that she wasnt happy. I was preparing myself for the worse when we left the store.
We got to the bar, i got her a vodka and cran, i myself had a white russian. We sat in the back area, away from the drunks singing Karaoke =P. The talk started, i opened it up. I was just like well, you know how i feel about you Holly, theres nothing i wouldnt do to be with you, she looked down for a minute. FUCK. She looks back up and lays it on me. She says: "Jason, i like you alot, more than i should." Great....
She then re-itterated the fact that right now she doesnt want a relationship, but wants to keep dating me to get to know me better. She also says that she can fully see a future with us, said shes even envisioned it. Cool, i guess. I reminded her that, if she didnt wanna continue to date or even think there would be a future then we can sincerely be good friends, she said she would love that, but thats not what she wants right now, just wants to date, get to know me better instead of jumping into a relationship which is all shes ever done and they've never lasted, she says she wants to do things right this time.
Ok, acceptable. I told her ya know, it really would hurt me if she started dating someone else as well. She then said Its not like im looking to date anyone else, i guess im the only guys shes done anything with or dated for the past year, BUT she also stated that neither one of us can tell if say tomorrow, the day after or a week from then one of us meets someone just as cool or whatever and start dating em, true. A motherfucking heartbreaker to hear her say that, but its the reality of it all really.
I told her, i refuse to date another person while im putting my effort into her, i absolutely will not do it. She said she isnt out looking to date people either but theres still the chance she may meet someone thats interesting even if shes not out looking for someone to date, i hate hearing that come from her.
Well, its settled, i told her: Ok so to clarify, we're dating? She said yah, but if you dont wanna put your effort forth i understand because i know you want a relationship right now and im just not comfortable yet, i need to do it right, get to know you better. Acceptable, painful but acceptable.
Dating.
I then told her the truth, said hey ya know, i really thought i was gonna lose you tonight, she said she had the same feelings to and thats why she wasnt all lovey dovey when she got out of her car, "didnt feel like hugging and kissing and stuff if this was gonna be the last night we were anything" she said.
I then said i feel relieved in a way she said her to and shes really happy that we can continue to date and see where it goes. Good i guess?
Well we just kinda chatted about small stuff the rest of the night ya know, like appreciating each other, saying how stoked we are its not over etc.
I asked her "Just a question, did this rack your brain at all since you been gone for a day from me and all, just curious." I was surprised she replied and said "Yes, the whole entire day and a half i was trying to figure out what to do, i thought about it constantly" I hope thats good lol.
Well we got comfortable again with that outta the way, kissed a few times, touching etc etc.
Bartender says its time to go......fuck 3 hours just blew the fuck by...quick.
We left she came back to my house. She came in we went downstairs to my room. Layed on the bed started cuddling, then kissing......by this time we're feeling each other, not touching wise i mean in tune with each other, i start kissing her neck, nibbling, ran my tongue across one side of her collarbone, to the other then started kissing the other side of her neck. I stopped myself, and said we should stop. She grabbed me and started kissing me, here we go. Started the whole kissing making out dry humping thing, then after about 20 minutes of that i said "Can i play with you?" She said yah, so........
I started undressing her, and her I. I went to go south and play with her but she kept pulling me up, never got to.
We continued the foreplay for a good 40 minutes. We took the remaining clothing articles off, my boxers, her thong/bra etc etc....I kept teasing her with....bah you guys dont get those details
We made love for 3 hours......it wa so fucking intense, it was and i will gladly admit the best sex ive ever had. We just flow so well together when making love, no off rhythm movements, everything was water. We finally both started tiring (especially my legs lol)cand i kissed her passionately. I layed there on top of her and we just stared into each others eyes, smiling. It was excellent.
I asked if she wanted some water, she said yah so i went upstairs and got her some, when i got back she was asleep Well i woke her and said heres your water sleeping beauty ill brb i gotta use the restroom. It then dawned on me....wheres the condom? Oh fuck, it was gone......i told her hey....the condom is gone....but she had already "taken care of it" i asked where it was, she just said i dont wanna know.
I went to the restroom got back and she was dressed, she needed to go home. I walked her out, in the course of walking her out we kissed, hugged deeply quite a bit. Gave her my old cellphone to use since i have no use for it, Just got a new one today, so now she has a cell, she got in her car i kissed her under the most beautiful fucking skyline ever, No clouds, im a mile high here in denver so the stars were fucking blazing, absolutely beautiful.
Thats my night guys,let me know what you think if please shed some light on the her just wanting to date me for now thing, it kinda scares me maybe i just dont get it?
Mysluttyfamily, thanks for leaving the replies, you guys doing better? let a brotha know