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Things suckpuke, and then they're goodlove. Then they suck againpuke and they're goodlove. We understand each other then we upset each other and fight or cry all over again.

This is the most soul searching, trying time ever. My therapy sessions cannot start soon enough. I definately need help; I get plenty of advice, but it's from people that don't really...
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sluttygoodgirl:
Just the thought of going to that restaurant makes me cry. An extremely special night would be remembered in the midst of all that has happened since...might be too much for me to take.

Are you sure your true love won't mind?

If you really think she won't mind, then I might consider it. I don't want to do anything that might put that relationship at risk.



[Edited on Nov 12, 2004 9:50AM]
bankerboy:
You have an open invitation to come up and hit some bars. For you, I wish clarity. Take care of yourself and those around you.

bb
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I'm packing and getting ready to move out of my own house. It's fucking weird. For the first time in my life I feel that I have "no place" to go, to live, that is mine. I'm lookig forward to having to live on about 12K a year after paying evrything else to my soon to be ex... puke I'm such a...
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sluttygoodgirl:
I don't want you to take all of this on your shoulders, I really don't. My sister said that in a moment when she didn't know what to say - she and I have talked A LOT about all of the ways I fucked up.

I see what our family could be now, and I see our children hurting and I get angry, that's all. I'm sorry that that sometimes comes out in a way that makes you feel guilty. You need this time, I need this time. It's ok.

You are not responsible for my happiness.

And no amount of life insurance would make me happy that you were dead.



[Edited on Sep 24, 2004 10:36AM]
sluttygoodgirl:
for what?
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I wish I could just go away to a tropical deserted island with great weather and a therapist for at least a month.

This is the 36th day in a row that I have been at work. It was nice in the begining, putting myself into something, but now it's just another stresser.

Looking forward to being off for a couple weeks to go...
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someone kill me. PLEASE. ALREADY! FUCK!
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sluttygoodgirl:
Then again....I love you more than I hate you.
click_here:
haha...that prof pic is awsome...your son looks like he has on a Chairman Mao suit...haha i can so picture the Red Chinese Communist leader from back in the day with a party hat on haha...........
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I think my wife has been confiding in another man and getting too close. You know what that means. I guess I deserve it and should have seen it coming. puke
sluttygoodgirl:
Yes, you would deserve that.

Is this something you are HOPING will happen? You must be, because it's not.
m_bethany:
people who cheat are lower than low.

I know, I am a cheater. Always had one on the side of all my committed relationships. But cheating takes a big step, esp. in a marriage. It is not taken lightly at all.

both of you calm down and discuss. if things cannot be resolved btwn you two, perhaps a mediator would help. Couples theropy should not be shunned,.. sometimes it is needed to have the right points addressed properly and it takes an outsider to make each party face whatever the real problem or problems are.

hey, I hate theropy too but there is a very good reason why I am a fucking adultress... and i cannot change it until someone on the outside looking in tells me what they see.

I am just saying... and I hate when people fight. Esp. married couples with kid/kids.
~ the angel* wink
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gilane:
I'm heartened to see your forthright about what's gone on, and seem intent on owning up to it and working on sorting it out. As I said to your wife, I wish you both the best of luck!, and think you have a good shot, if your both willing to work on it. Reconciliation takes a lot more than forgiveness. Forgiveness by itself doesn't solve problems - and in the end may not bring you to the place your expecting. Someday, hopefully she'll be able to forgive you. Someday, you'll have to forgive yourself as well.

Sorry for butting my nose in - it's sort of a public place to have this come up, with both of you members. frown And it just breaks my heart to see people who love eachother in such painful conflict.
bankerboy:
First of all, happy birthday! Second, you have a lot of hard work ahead of you, I wish you luck. I am going through it, and you don'twant to, believe me.

Take good care!

bb confused
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Just got up and getting ready to go to work. I'll most likely be working every day for the next 17 days.

I cannot tell you how much that sucks. This is the best time of year for the weather, our kids are out of school right now, the house needs a lot of work done to it, and our relationship doesn't need...
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trials303:
Where the phuck are you?!?! You havent said "sup" to me in a grip!

You better be stopping by and saying hi soon or.....ill go and run myself into a tree....psyche.

Anyhow bro stop by say hi lemme know how things are kicking and lets chat smile


"Dance like noone is watching, Work like you dont need the money and above all else, Love like you've never been hurt"

Jason~
trials303:
read my journal
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Wife and I have been having a good time together.

At times my confidence gets a bit too high and she, or something I say or think, reminds me how tenuous things have been and maybe truly still are.

Feeling actually happy at times again. Really, happy.

Going to write again today. Was able to map out the majority of another story on 3x5's...
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tiffanymarie:
What would be the price for one night be. I looked at the Lucia and I thought it said something about $200 for a night. I thought that was unaffordable if it's accurate. Get back to me on prices. Thanks take care, Tiff
sluttygoodgirl:
Hey Mr Slutty. Just wanted to say how cool I think it is that you went and did some writing all this week kiss Ass plus chair baby, and your doin' it!! Keep it up, your a talented dude. More sluttiness to come, for SURE wink