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MY CHILD, BY BROTHER AND MY CO-WORKERS...

Should not quit their day jobs, because photographers they are not. However, I have pieced together pics of the new tattoo. I'll post better pictures when it heals, but you'll get the gist of it.

I got there at about 7 PM last night. We fought about the tattoo until 9 PM!!! Why, you ask? Because...
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thejuanupsman:
Long time no update...
melladoree:
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I have been awfully quiet online. It's been a time of hard work and self-reflection. I've been working on personal growth and trying to make a bigger contribution at work.

And then I got this idea that I would build a house. I know this sounds like a harebrain idea, but in Los Angeles you can't buy a house unless you're...
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northern:
Happy Birthday!!

Hugs!!

Haven't heard from you in ages. Hope you're doing alright.
poedelaire:
Happy birthday to you
Squashed tomatoes and stew
Bread and butter in the gutter
Happy birthday to you.

Hope you're having an outstanding birthday with lots of oral pleasure!
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I know, I know ... Suzy, where are you?

I'm lost, but I'm okay. Truly. Perhaps I will write more later, but I have to run again.

Love to you,
~Suzy kiss
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chazstrummer:
Suzy Suzy Doo where are you? wink
societyspliers:
Suzy 54 Where Are You?

Glad to hear you're okay.
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~I Told Kyle I Was Taking Pictures Of Him~

And putting them on the Internet and that there was nothing he could do about. It doesn't even matter that the light has been bad all day and the pictures came out crappy. In fact, he's watching me right now and powerless to stop me. I didn't want to be a liar on...
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dufsmashxiii:
neat stuff and smiles for you CougarKabloozy. smile

i like to curl up next to my pussy too. biggrin

that is an excellent mat btw.
madscience:
Meh, it usually equals out, what we each end up paying for over the course of our random ex-sex trysts. And we both want no-strings ex-sex. I don't want to get back together with him! And that's what I like, I'm all about equality, or everyone contributing according to their means, really.

Aww, your young 'un's a cutie! wink
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You know what I find tragic?

People that cannot live life on life's terms. This does include me on a fairly regular basis, but I don't just lie down and take it. I'm bloody and bruised from all that trippin', but I do keep getting back up again.

Schizoid Personality Disorder

That's not me, by the way.

I'm my characteristic...
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societyspliers:
Rhanarose said:
Just like the energizer bunny - you keep on going.............

Actually, I saw the obituary: The Energizer Bunny has passed away.

It seems someone put in his batteries backwards and he just kept coming and coming and coming . . .

I'm kinda jealous. blush
poedelaire:
Cheer up button, life won't suck forever. love
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It Was 100 Days Ago Today...

I was getting up and getting ready for work. I had my last cup of Mike's coffee. He was good at making coffee, btw, and he used to bring it to me in bed every morning. May 22nd was no exception.

Daron was still in school and I was trying to get him to school on time. I...
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curioustomcat:
Wrong!

There is a point to what you did write.

You do not have to forget your peronal history but stop counting the days or each day will become a link of a chain that will tie to never more for eternity! eeek
nina_kova:
Sweetie *big, big hugs*...I know that feeling...To me, it has always felt like having my chest squeezed so tightly I can't draw a proper breath. Being left hurts. I know I have so many issues with being abandoned, feeling as though I'm not good enough - and then when something like that happens - it seems to re-inforce those things.

But - you are a beautiful, wise woman who has freely given me so much support and love over the past few weeks. That is a gift and I appreicate all you've said. Sharing about your loves and what has happened - it is so painful becuase I identify with so much of it. I don't have words of wisdom - I don't want to offer the "you'll find someone - he's an asshole" because what he did sucked - who he was (and is) to you doesn't suck. You love him and it fucking hurts.

When I was 16, my dad left my mum. He never told me he was leaving - just left. He never told my mum he was gone for good - he just told her he needed time and space. My mum was in and out of recovery and she fell apart. I mean had a complete nervous breakdown. But, she learned to focus on herself, went to meetings, and learned to truly love the woman she is. She told me - that was the first time in over 20 years she had been out of a relationship - and that it was one of the best periods of growth for her. She also gave me a bit of wisdom - the woman that walked in the halls - would not choose the same man she chose a few years later. I don't know if that makes sense, but I know identify with that - I stayed single for almost two years, the man I am getting involved with - is not the same man I have always chosen. I always joke I dated the same man for 20 years - but with a different name each time. So - I had to get own to a few core truths about me before I could move on and make different choices. It is so amazing to know that today I can choose the man I want in my life, I no longer have to wait to be "chosen" - perhaps this is a gift to you - time for just you. Not everyone can stick around while we implode and relationships sometimes become wreckage of our pasts. I am so sad that this has happened - I don't want to tell you to focus on the positive - or to look for the meaning. I grieved for a long time - it takes as long as it takes to do that. You are grieving and my heart goes out to you... kiss kiss kiss

P.S. My mum ended up marrying an amazing man in 91 - they are still happy, married, and both sober over 20 years...So - there's hope (my mum was also 43 when she re-married an he's her 3rd hubby - so....there's hope!)
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I have worked 70 hours in the last 7 days. And I thought I was going to work a "short week" when I came back from Oklahoma! Ha! Well, only three more days to go. I won't work this next weekend if I have to actually kill myself to avoid it.

One day, I might actually explain the Oklahoma thing in more detail. I...
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poedelaire:
love
artdebris:
Congrats, Suzy!

I read back on your journal and see that times have been tough for you. Try to stay in and focus on today, that's all we can do...one at a time, just 24 hours.

The Bliss Cafe on Vine (I think) has great meetings and very interesting people. I'd be proud to go with you...just let me know.

And when things get difficult, review your "Into" and "makes me happy" items on your profile. You have a lot to be grateful for.

You can always call and talk to me, too. I just sent my number to your SG mailbox.

Take care---you can do this!!!
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Hot Enough For Ya?

I know I sound like a little sissy bitch when I complain about the temperature and why I cannot currently leave the house to go anywhere, so I decided to check and see what the high temperature actually was yesterday. Ummm, yeah, it was 119F (that's 48C for you Europeans!). Today was MUCH cooler, it was only 115F (46C).

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poedelaire:
119F!?!?!?! Fuck me backwards and call me Gemima!! That's a trifle warm isn't it? We had record breaking temperatures in the UK last week. Erm, almost erm, well, 37C....And that was barely bearable. How humid does it get over there, cos over here the air turns into soup and just breathing makes you sweat.

How do you avoid crashing with your tits staring up at you all the time? And I'll gladly join you as far as Brody is concerned, we'll do her together. She won't know what's hit her!! love
gtx:
Wow, no AC in LA. I grew up in AZ, so I know from the heat. I've lost my resistance, though, from living in SF for the past 10 years.
Even when it was 'hot' (and I use the term advisedly) up here, my Sunset Dist. 'hood remained pretty cool.
Now it's cloudy and about 68 again. I'm such a wimp.
You don't know me from Adam, I've just run across your blog a couple times for reasons of random linking (the profile pic didn't hurt), so I thought I'd say hello.
Hello!
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THE SADDEST DAY OF MY LIFE IS TODAY

Today I came home from work and my boyfriend was gone. All his stuff was gone. The clothes that I wore (of his) were gone. The clothes that I bought him were still here. He left his cell phone and he lives in a truck, so there is just no way to contact him. We were supposed...
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rhanarose:
I'm sorry Suzy - I don't know what to say -!!?? I've been thinking about you alot - wondering how you manage to get thru the day? What you say to your kids, especiallly the little guy......... frown
I do hope that he gets in touch with you to explain his position/reason for leaving......It's a shitty way to leave - puke
You can e-mail me if you'd like to talk.........rhanarose@yahoo.com
astraltraveller:
frown I'm so sorry to hear. You sounded so happy with him. I went through some shit earlier this year and I hope it works out for you. I know that's not very helpful but what is...You deserve to be happy. kiss kiss
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surlyclown:
Hehe...hope you and your family have good things planned for this Christmas. smile
voile:
Hey thanks for telling CircusFreak...er... i mean TheSinner about me. I missed everyone!

Hope that your holidays are going smashingly. Me, I have an exam to write and I won't be in a christmas mood until it's done.
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Okay, this is probably not a popular thought among the youngsters on this site ... but all this women's liberation stuff sucks! I'm not saying that women aren't equal to men, but they are sure different. I feel more sorry for the men than the women, to tell you the truth. No one seems to know how they are supposed to act any...
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babygiantsquid:
thanks for the birthday wishes, hotstuff kiss
as for the whole rape thing, two comments:

1. RAPE BAD. i think we are all on the same page with that one.

2. i have lived my entire adult life waiting for someone to wake me up with a BJ - what the fuck is wrong with that guy?
aeryn:
Happy Mother's day!!