Sometimes it sucks not having internet at home.......like when you need to know something at 2am, and could easily look it up online, but....there is no online. Damn it!
OK, wow.....I didn't have internet for a few days, and when I come back it's the biggest change I've seen yet. Not sure how I feel about it, but I like having to figure things out as I go.....I miss the way the old bookmarks worked though, and seeing my friends list the way I did before.
My last math class is tomorrow, and my... Read More
Life is a complete and utter question mark. Things that I thought would never happen, have happened. How do you move on without fear and loathing, with the knowledge that ANYTHING can happen? Knowing, first hand, that people that you love can hurt you. WILL hurt you. I'm confused.
Yes, I am back and looking forward to seeing you back on the chat or messaging or email. With a bunch of folks you can make it through this, friends , family , and your larger circle.
Don't let it be a fantasy. Make it a plan. Plans don't always work out, but if you assume it's a fantasy from the start, you presume it can't happen. And you are _not_ stupid. ... Though he apparently is!
it's going to be hard but it does get better over time. hopefully you guys can at least work well for the childrens sake regardless of the situation between you two. trust me on this one, i've been there, have gone through it and still in it but now a little wiser for it. but yes it's tough as shit, it hurts a hell of a lot and damn if it's not always fair...
It's been 3 days since I found out. I am still sick. Still don't know what I want. I just wish that this could all be over with. I want this knot in my stomach to go away.
I don't know what to plan for now. Do I get the kids ready for school here? Are we even going to be here by then? Do... Read More
I'm not sure I got the right episode though. I'm hoping I got it right.
BTW, my wife moving out was the best thing that happened to me in 10 years, since we got married. It's been almost 5 months since she left, and I feel pretty good about everything. Little lonely a lot of the time, but 100 times happier.
So. It happened. My "husband" betrayed me with his girl. He drove right past our house, to go be with her. I feel sick. I am empty. I look at our kids and feel the pain triple.
why are there so many wonderful people on the west coast? and why are the wonderful people out there being hurt so bad? i want you to know though i don't know you from eve i do feel for you greatly and kind of know what you're going through. please remember to take care of yourself first and foremost so that you can then take care of the kids and deal with all the bullshit that comes with the territory.
My life is pretty sucky right now too. One thing that is keeping me half-way sane is to put my situation in perspective. It could always be worse! Take care, stop by and vent if you like!
"We are together, my child and I, Mother and child, yes, but sisters really, against whatever denies us all that we are." - Alice Walker
I love quotes. Had a fun time with my kids this last week and week-end. A lot of time was spent playing in the pool in the backyard. When you see and hear your kids really having a great time... Read More
thank you for your comments. they made the most sense out of the ones i received. you gave me good advice about a month ago, but when things blow over, i try to forget about everything i learned last time. i don't know what i want. but i definitely know that i wasn't ready to get married. it's too late for that now, but it's something i wish i would have seriously considered this time last year.
i don't know how to fight, how to be heard, how to air my feelings without coming across as accusatory. i know that i'm partly to blame for the problems that we have, but he feels no responsibility whatsoever. there's a gap there. and i think blame has to be assigned-- how can anyone change if they don't realize what they do that's wrong? myself included.
i'm pretty sure he won't leave me, but i'm not sure what i want to do. it seems like such a minor thing to leave over. but it's like the straw that broke the camel's back. if i cannot impress upon him that he doesn't have to hide things from me, that i'd be cool with almost anything he wanted to do, i feel like "why should i keep trying? what could possibly change?"
and i wish i could have some therapy. but we can't afford it. i don't even have medical insurance.
sorry for writing you a novel. i appreciate your comments.
How are things? I sincerely hope they are going well.
Things with holly and i are awesome =) Ill tell the whole SG community later in my next journal as to where Holly and i stand
Well its time to get pierced again WOOT~
Ill chat with ya sometime and stop by and say hi to me!!!!