i had a truly great day yesterday. first of all, i didn't have to be ANYWHERE until 12:30, so that was nice all in its own. but then, i got to go hang out with some friends that i haven't seen in FOREVER. i'm talking friends from high school. it was such a blast.
i went to a birthday party for a 4-year-old and had...
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Happy August! Today was my dad's birthday...we went out for Mexican food. Yum. My birthday is in 2 short weeks! Yay for Leo babies!
so, overall, i am doing better. monday's breakdown has not repeated...although i am getting anxious as dana is about to return from africa...wednesday. i still have no place to live, which is a scary thought. but, i am in much better...
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so, overall, i am doing better. monday's breakdown has not repeated...although i am getting anxious as dana is about to return from africa...wednesday. i still have no place to live, which is a scary thought. but, i am in much better...
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jstduckie:
ok....suddenly i feel the urge to get back to the gym.... 
thanks for the smile....
thanks for the smile....
miya:
Its good to see you being able to teach still whilst pregnant, such a fun job!
i went to see jolene and heather last night to give them some herbs from my garden. i had a really nice time chatting with them. i think the problem started there...i had a nice time. i love them as much as i love my own family. it was as if nothing had happened between dana and i...and that made me sad.
once i got...
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xalicex:
i feel so lucky that i havent had much problems with hormones except gestational diabetes.....otherwise i have had no meltdowns, nevertheless i feel for you hun. i know how confusing this whole thing can be.
you seem quite strong though, just make sure you keep talking. dont let it consume you
you seem quite strong though, just make sure you keep talking. dont let it consume you
jordan8285:
awe babe its going to be okay!! youll see believe me!!
its funny how time changes everything (can we say cliche?) but its true. 2 weeks ago, i was feeling like i was going to die and wanting nothing more than my life back. today, i'm thinking, "that selfish jerk. i don't even know if i want him back".
so, i got another part time job...this would make 3 or 4...one is still up in the...
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so, i got another part time job...this would make 3 or 4...one is still up in the...
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astrokill:
You sound like you are better off without this guy! You're being happy and living your life! 
Congratulations on the certifications and the part-time jobs!
Congratulations on the certifications and the part-time jobs!
xalicex:
aww your little bump is so cute!!!!!
and whoa....how many jobs?????!!!! make sure you have time to take it easy too
and whoa....how many jobs?????!!!! make sure you have time to take it easy too
i'm baaaaaack!
did you miss me?
i feel so much better. that was really what i needed. i feel like my old self again...the old self i was before moving back to wyoming...alive, vivacious, confident, beautiful, fun, all that good stuff! its amazing!
first of all, i want to say, i am blessed with the best friends alive!
they are always there for me and...
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did you miss me?
i feel so much better. that was really what i needed. i feel like my old self again...the old self i was before moving back to wyoming...alive, vivacious, confident, beautiful, fun, all that good stuff! its amazing!
first of all, i want to say, i am blessed with the best friends alive!
they are always there for me and...
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terramedicx:
I'm glad to hear you're doing a little better! A trip home to see old friends is always a good way to cheer yourself up! I think I need one of those...already! *HUGS* Keep your chin up babe!
jstduckie:
miss you.....why yes.....thats a given.....your smile makes my day.....later doll
i'm going to denver today. i'm going to kansas city on sunday. i need some time to clear my head. my mom sent me an email today saying, "...you know you aren't the only one who has had a "rough few weeks". how do you think this has affected the rest of us?"
i wanted to tell her where to stick it, but instead, i...
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gaea:
It makes more sense to clear your head emotionally before looking for new jobs and apartments. A new job is a new start essentially, which means new people which means first impressions all over again and its best to be in a fantastic frame of mind for that, or at least to put one on even if it sucks to the back teeth. Totally get you on the mum level, mine's exactly the same 
nuadventure:
Have a great trip and come back refreshed. We're here for you.
finally, i have some good news to report...
I got the job! I got the job! (singing and dancing jubilantly) I got the job! I got the job!
its a massage therapist job at the athletic club. sweet. i hope it works out. right now work is slow at gyms, but here's hoping. i go in on friday for an interview with the aerobics program...
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I got the job! I got the job! (singing and dancing jubilantly) I got the job! I got the job!
its a massage therapist job at the athletic club. sweet. i hope it works out. right now work is slow at gyms, but here's hoping. i go in on friday for an interview with the aerobics program...
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nuadventure:
Many many congratulations on the job!! And it really sounds right up your alley
since it involves health and a person's well being.
Suffice it to say, I wouldn't mind getting a massage from you
Keep me posted. I'll let you get back to your jubilation dance now
since it involves health and a person's well being.
Suffice it to say, I wouldn't mind getting a massage from you
Keep me posted. I'll let you get back to your jubilation dance now
schiavona:
YAY!!! Congratulation on the job. I'm so glad to hear this. **doing happy dance**
Love the deer pics. They have some serious antlers on them. Our five males that wander through have somewhat small antlers, one has one broken off. Must be a tough neighborhood here.
Congrats again.
Love the deer pics. They have some serious antlers on them. Our five males that wander through have somewhat small antlers, one has one broken off. Must be a tough neighborhood here.
Congrats again.
the more i think, the more i reflect, the more i ponder, the less i understand.
there is so little logic. this is so out of the blue, so out of character, so undeniably weird. something had to have happened. it just doesn't seem to fit otherwise. the story i get doesn't make sense.
i feel bits of anger, but sense that there's more buried...
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there is so little logic. this is so out of the blue, so out of character, so undeniably weird. something had to have happened. it just doesn't seem to fit otherwise. the story i get doesn't make sense.
i feel bits of anger, but sense that there's more buried...
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the_libertine:
I know that you're going to be all right, my love. I know it with every fibre of my being.
I'm not sure you'll ever understand the way you need to. There are some things that we never find the truth of. Some things that escape our understanding in a way we want. But that doesn't mean the end of the world and I know you know that. I'm sure you've spoken to him about it and that you'll speak with him again. Should he be fool enough not to beg you to take him back, the answer you're seeking will have been given to you... maybe not the one you want or the one that makes the most sense... but perhaps the one you need. And if he does ask you to come home to you, then the answer to the previous question becomes irrelevant--to a point.
But that's not what's important, at the moment. At least, me, sitting over here, thinks it's not important. Obviously, I'm speaking from my point of view. See, sitting over here, what's important is that you cherish this time. These moments where you're not alone. Because for the next little while, as alone as you may feel, you're never alone. As you've said, you've got someone with you that you love more than you've ever loved anything in the world and that is the most beautiful thing in the world to me. Even more beautiful than you (and that's saying something... cause damn, have you seen you?).
But you know what? I'm not worried about you. Not even a little. I know that you've got things straight. I know that you won't break... and even if you did, you'd be on the mend in moments. I know you've got your eyes on the horizon and you're finding the beautiful in every possible moment. After all, how could you admire that horizon without the eyes to see it and the soul to know how beautiful it is? Each day gives you the answers you need, my love, if only we have the ears to listen. And you have the ears to listen, the mind to appreciate and the soul to be moved by the sun warming the world.
Love you, darling.
I'm not sure you'll ever understand the way you need to. There are some things that we never find the truth of. Some things that escape our understanding in a way we want. But that doesn't mean the end of the world and I know you know that. I'm sure you've spoken to him about it and that you'll speak with him again. Should he be fool enough not to beg you to take him back, the answer you're seeking will have been given to you... maybe not the one you want or the one that makes the most sense... but perhaps the one you need. And if he does ask you to come home to you, then the answer to the previous question becomes irrelevant--to a point.
But that's not what's important, at the moment. At least, me, sitting over here, thinks it's not important. Obviously, I'm speaking from my point of view. See, sitting over here, what's important is that you cherish this time. These moments where you're not alone. Because for the next little while, as alone as you may feel, you're never alone. As you've said, you've got someone with you that you love more than you've ever loved anything in the world and that is the most beautiful thing in the world to me. Even more beautiful than you (and that's saying something... cause damn, have you seen you?).
But you know what? I'm not worried about you. Not even a little. I know that you've got things straight. I know that you won't break... and even if you did, you'd be on the mend in moments. I know you've got your eyes on the horizon and you're finding the beautiful in every possible moment. After all, how could you admire that horizon without the eyes to see it and the soul to know how beautiful it is? Each day gives you the answers you need, my love, if only we have the ears to listen. And you have the ears to listen, the mind to appreciate and the soul to be moved by the sun warming the world.
Love you, darling.
sassie:
girl, i know how you feel...when i first got laid off i applied for like 20 jobs in one day! its finally starting to pay off! thats a great picture btw.
thats a great picture btw. tonight was a going away party for my friends jeff and lexi. they are moving to vegas. i am sad about that. i don't have many friends here, so losing 2 of the best is hard.
this weekend should be fun...doing a garage sale tomorrow with my sister and some of her friends. though, since the break up, i don't have as much to sell....
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this weekend should be fun...doing a garage sale tomorrow with my sister and some of her friends. though, since the break up, i don't have as much to sell....
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the_libertine:
Always the hottie, aren't you? Seriously, we need to get on that cloning thing like RIGHT. NOW. 
Have a wicked good time, darling.
Have a wicked good time, darling.
miya:
Oh wow, you look great! Have fun
By the way, its a GIRL!
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pawko4b:
Ya sure. Looks more like a whitish blob in the some black areas to me 
sunrize:
Aawww Congratulations!
I'm so glad that you're having a good day, darling! and that you've been in good spirits...