judypatricia

It's almost alarming how doubtful most people can be of the sincerity of their friends, or just of most people in general. I grew up in a household where what you said or what you did would not even begin to scratch the surface of what you actually meant. It was hard. It still is, because nothing's changed. I don't particularly know why I turned out so different, in that respect, from my parents; I related to a friend last night on the phone how I've been criticized as naive or a doormat more often than I can count on all my fingers and toes. It's something that's always hurt my feelings because my interest in things or people, my words or actions, and my love, respect or overall liking of and for people, are genuine.

That said, take it or leave it.
And this is a long entry, so if you could give a shit about the rest of it, just look for your name and then you can go off posting comments in Lifestyle or Dirty Talk. Or whatever you'd be doing afterward.

AceTracer: You already know, or at least you should know, that I appreciate you. I did spend (only!) three hours on the phone with you telling you as much. You're a nice guy, and a good friend. But you already knew that.

Ash: You most likely won't get to read this, but I always enjoy your semi-wacky, semi-serious journal entries and questions, and liked what you had to say from day one. It always impresses me to hear that some people are still good parents and put their kids before everything else.

bocuma: I don't know if you remember me complaining about you not having an instant messaging program with which I could speak to you faster, but yeah, you should get on that, because I like talking to you. You might be the person I've known on SG the longest, and I hope when I'm up in Boston again, we can go on historic tours and nerd it up. And believe me, I will pose for pictures with Ben Franklin in Haymarket Square.

DiamondGeezer: I never really got to speak with you all that much (thanks, N.G.!), and so I feel somewhat cheated. Come back to us!

evilwillow: All I can say is that I owe you some offline fun, and will pay up the next time I'm in the mood for high temperatures and really, really flat land. I don't really know you at all, but we should remedy this.

FreakPirate: I hope you won't have too many more days and nights of missing your girlfriend, and that you two will be ho-ing it up Canada-style for good, soon. It's good that you're happy with most of what's going on in your life right now and appreciate it.

gallas13: I'd say I almost regret dumping all of what I dumped on you a couple of months ago, but you probably don't realize how much it helped me to feel better when I did. Anyone else could have simply hit "delete" and have been done with it. I promise to make a night of good conversation and coffee with you, if you promise not to feign disgust with my not having read several more books you're sure to bring up.

Jem: Not a lot of time passes between my telling you that you're awesome and telling you that you're awesome. God forbid I ever find a t-shirt or bumper sticker that has anything to do with ho-ness, it would be shipped immediately to your house. You're great. If I had some money to swing your way, I'd donate to the Ship Jem's Ass to Canada Fund.

JohnnySaltLick: I am somewhat surprised at how nice a guy you are. I'm glad I've spent a few days being dragged (ha!) through comic book stores, wasting Thai food, and laughing my ass off with you. There will be more of this, and many other things. Yes. Now show me your tits.

Koleeta: You remind me of my friend Karen, and I like that. Even though we don't talk much at all, I hope you know that if you feel like speaking with a random person at 4am eastern time, you can. And I hope things get better soon.

luckyP: I think if we started hanging around each other more, we'd eventually become those girls that other people hate because they're always acting like idiots and laughing a lot. And we all know that those girls suck, unless you are one. Anyone who can grope someone within the first hour that they've met, or feed hot dogs to silver-painted nude men with all seriousness, is more than welcomed in my life.

Manchester_Black: I love talking to you. If someone would have told me I'd befriend and think highly of you back when I was oogling over your cock-shots, I'd have been hesitant in believing them. But who knew? There's a cool guy attached to that penis afterall!

MissLucy: Sometimes I feel a little dorky for being so happy for you when I read about your life, just because we don't really know each other. And I think I mentioned how I literally clapped and yay'ed when I watched you win your competition on TV. It just makes me happy knowing that good peoplewhether I know them or nothave things work out for them.

Mnislahi: Even though it was only for a few minutes, giving you a hug and talking to you when you were in town last month was great. You're a wonderful person. I hope I see more of you, and soon.

NickFaust: Always has something to say, and is probably the only person I've met on the site who responds to just about every point I raise in my stupid, disjointed entries. Even though I don't really respond to most of what you write, I do read it, and appreciate the comments. I'd love to know more about your life.

plasticfangs: I always thought it was cute how a lot of my comments in the threads would go wholly unnoticed by all, except you. And for whatever reason, you'd find them funny. I love (and lately, really miss) our email conversations, and it's almost freakish the things we have in common. Now if only that pesky time-zone was not a problem, we'd probably kill our phones and phone bills by talking of everything under the sun for hours.

RaulBNuttz: Thank God you didn't turn out to be a creep, because I'd totally miss out on your supreme ridiculousness and high levels of awesome.

SongbirdReleased: I always feel like I don't make enough effort to talk to you or make plans to see you. I had a great time with you at SGB, and think we'd have a lot of fun doing other things (that sounds like a sex-thing, when I really mean watching movies and talking shit). I think we could become good friends.

SteveNeurotic: You give off good vibes, and are such a nice guy. Besides introducing me to such fine alcoholic beverages as Mike's Hard Cranberry Lemonade, you always seem so genuinely happy in person and I like that a lot.

sweetcin: Anytime you can walk over to a person, strike up a conversation, laugh a lot, and be glad you walked over to them in the first place, is a good thing.

throatneedle: Oh God. A couple of months ago I'd write nothing but cute shit and inside jokes here. But now I can only tell you that yes, believe it or not, I miss you. And I miss knocking over my take-out containers and spilling food in your bed, and making fun of your drunk speeches, and how much it seemed we enjoyed each other's company. I hate that you think I'm mad at you more often than I actually am. And I apologize for ever being a pain in the ass or too...much. Just know that I am around for you if you ever feel like forcing someone to sit through Baseball Tonight with you.

UnnecessaryZ: Aside from being mind-meltingly witty, you're a nice guy. Unless you periodically turn into some major shithead, I can't see why you'd ever be single. You've already charmed your way into MY heart, you stud, you. Give it time before I start hanging around outside your apartment building on 13-hour shifts, and telling everyone I have plans for bedding you down, making you a daddy, and trapping you into a Lifetime channel relationship. Or not. But either way, I think you're awesome.

It might go without saying that I don't know any of you as well as I'd like. So eventually, I hope that changes.

And to the rest of you,
BKFreak, BlondPunkGirl, blud, crayonscars, derceto, Fang, fdnymedic, FromThisSoil, gravediggerjesus, hoisin, HonkeyKong, Irina, kupoking, midknight, nogodsnomanagers, NYCEd, Pav, Scopitone, Skryche, Stirfry, vader, webpheret, whosyourlibra, and Zyon, I like and appreciate you all, but want to know you better.

So call me a goddamn hippy. I meant it all. And you should know.