Well, been off SG for a bit... Kinda figure now isn't a bad time to get back on since my life has pretty much fallen apart around me over the past few months. GF of 9 years kicked me out, left a note on my computer while I was at work saying "I love you, I just can't be with you right now". She kept our/my dogs, and I really don't have a leg to stand on there, she has 10 acres of woods and I am more or less homeless. Went to my sisters briefly, but she is going through a divorce and has lost her shit, she kicked me out after 10 days because her new BF, the guy she had been cheating with for 3 years on my now X-bro-in-law, was moving in after bro-in-law threatened to tell his wife about the affair... So now I'm couch surfing between my bro-in-law in Providence, my cousin in VA, and one of the oldest/longest friends I have ever had, Deb. I met Deb 15 ish years ago when I tried picking her up at a sketchy college bar in NH, now she is happily married to her wife of 10 years, she has always been a shoulder to cry on, a piece of good advice, and a swift kick in the ass when I need it. I love her like the sister I wish I had.
So now, I'm trying to figure my shit out... recently met a gentleman at "the local watering hole" who overheard me chatting with my new favorite bartender, and he offered me some advice. He said, he had been through this kind of shit lot to long before, and he had gotten some advice that worked for him,... Take however long you need to figure out who you are... Find the shit that used to make you happy before her... DO NOT become serious with anyone until you are happy with yourself... For him, he had found his new wife after almost 2 years, doing the shit, that he had remembered he enjoyed.
Well... job interview tomorrow, have 3 of the 5, 4000 footers in VT done, will get the other 2 knocked out in the next few weeks(NH has 48, 4k's, start on that shit next year), 1 obstacle race "Reach the peak" in Claremont, the Clarmeont brewfest and 5k the 16th and a Spartan sprint at Killington on the 17th. I've hicked Mt. Ascutney 5 times, only 3100 feet, but 2200 up, camels hump is 4100, but only 1900 up, all based on where you start. One of the biggest thing I've learned about myself... "I need a dog" oh, and a job... but... I know a few other places/jobs I am going to apply, dream job is a power plant right outside of Portland, ME.
I think I've hit rock bottom,... there is nowhere to go from here but up...