I hate the amount of insecurities I have about my body and appearance. Just once I want to not focus on them.

Fuck,

I just want to lose weight and try to be a beautiful SG.

I hate this. I wanna be one so bad. They are so lovely. I wish I was friends with some. Fucking hell. Here's a random image of my fat self ha woohoo. Blah rant.

I really wished I wasn't such a pussy and did something about my insane urge to be an SG. But I'm not the girl I want, so why would anyway one else want that. Severe fear of rejection besides need for intense change in body type

Fuck. I really wish I could be an SG.
Gotta lose more weight for that... and get a photographer.
Haha oh dreams.

I am seriously so lame when I drink. I hope for a bod I can't obtain. Hey, what's up..

Feel like I'm going nowhere with my life

I feel fat and prob ate too much but pictures from the other night that I don't hate make me feel better. Blahh blah blah lonely.

Oh man.
I'm never on here anymore :/ fucking school and work kicking my ass and causing me to not lurk as hard on all these pretty ladies.
Side note I dyed my hair back to red. And I still kinda hate my bod. Oh well.

I need to get in shape...
god damn I am not a fan of myself most of the time...

Meh, I only have Saturday off. And I pretend I'm hot while drinking. Yeah.