so how many chances does one get? how many choices can one have to fuck up? i just got a second chance, actually third chance, to fix my life.
my fucking life, not yours, not her's, not his, not my life with someone else, but me, myself, my own fucking life, and its a chance i dont deserve, from a person i dont desreve it...
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my fucking life, not yours, not her's, not his, not my life with someone else, but me, myself, my own fucking life, and its a chance i dont deserve, from a person i dont desreve it...
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elvira:
easy come easy go
elvira:
hi sammy.
i've grown sick
i've gotten older
i finally have an audience to ignore me
i can yell all i want
but you still can't hear me
i'm punching myself out
holding in my breath
i can take this lightly
throwing up the words that i said to you
i always do what i'm not supposed to
here's to us fools
that have no meaning
i...
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i've gotten older
i finally have an audience to ignore me
i can yell all i want
but you still can't hear me
i'm punching myself out
holding in my breath
i can take this lightly
throwing up the words that i said to you
i always do what i'm not supposed to
here's to us fools
that have no meaning
i...
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sammy1:
ps, happy though!
elvira:
its like i know these kind of situations /feelings.
whats up sammy?? why dont you get your lazy fingertips up and write me a letter....write all the trash off your mind and i try to carry them.
ahm whatever. i just kicked out the boy who believes he is my boyfriend i told him a thousand times hes not and still he doesnt understand. i wonder how stupid someone can be.
i hope you are well babez
i hug you big, take care
whats up sammy?? why dont you get your lazy fingertips up and write me a letter....write all the trash off your mind and i try to carry them.
ahm whatever. i just kicked out the boy who believes he is my boyfriend i told him a thousand times hes not and still he doesnt understand. i wonder how stupid someone can be.
i hope you are well babez
i hug you big, take care
"she paints a picture of everything with words, a creation with an underlying truth, painted in shades and hues you never see in reality"
much better these days, but still not so good, but hey, tis life, if you ever saw the Facts of Life (yes, that retarded show from way way back) not sure were (not true, i do know were) but i heard...
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much better these days, but still not so good, but hey, tis life, if you ever saw the Facts of Life (yes, that retarded show from way way back) not sure were (not true, i do know were) but i heard...
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ahhhhh,,,, now starts the weekend...... uuughhhh
gonna be positive though! gonna be happy happy happy!!
gonna be positive though! gonna be happy happy happy!!
tuesday 7-03-07
Kinda lonely today.
Talked to CAL last night, was kind of surprised to hear form her a
ctually.
Shes either really messed up in the head or playin her games again,
or quite possibly just that confused about life. But I dont think so
on the latter. Shes a bit scattered in the head, but shes no
dummy. Apparently from what she tells...
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Kinda lonely today.
Talked to CAL last night, was kind of surprised to hear form her a
ctually.
Shes either really messed up in the head or playin her games again,
or quite possibly just that confused about life. But I dont think so
on the latter. Shes a bit scattered in the head, but shes no
dummy. Apparently from what she tells...
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elvira:
hola
i wonder what i did wrong in my past life that im so confused in everthing i do present. it kills me...i need a fucking plan...
how are you??
i wonder what i did wrong in my past life that im so confused in everthing i do present. it kills me...i need a fucking plan...
how are you??
reina_confundida:
it's none of my business and i don't know any of the story, but really, from what it sounds like, you need to just turn around and walk away and not let the relationship hurt you any more than it has already. it seems like, one way or another, she's found a way to push your buttons to keep you coming back when she treats you badly. don't let her do that.
(of course, what do i know, really? you can read my blog to see my own dating melodrama.)
(of course, what do i know, really? you can read my blog to see my own dating melodrama.)
So friday night sucked. Well, it went great, till I opened my mouth that
is. Lets back track to thursday first though. Thought the chicky and I
had a great time, and a great conversation. We actually seemed to get
so much out in a good way that it didn't really hit that she say's
oh, and a couple weeks ago when FK gave me...
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is. Lets back track to thursday first though. Thought the chicky and I
had a great time, and a great conversation. We actually seemed to get
so much out in a good way that it didn't really hit that she say's
oh, and a couple weeks ago when FK gave me...
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god dam motherfucking shit ass crap of a dink.
and thats just me.
i need to start this with i am happy, really, i am a happy happy person, with a happy happy healthy family.
but then theres me, and i am sick of being me. i am sick of getting on here and writing about how crappy i feel, or crappy i think my...
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and thats just me.
i need to start this with i am happy, really, i am a happy happy person, with a happy happy healthy family.
but then theres me, and i am sick of being me. i am sick of getting on here and writing about how crappy i feel, or crappy i think my...
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bored, tired, lonely, confused.
cant decide if i am happy or sad. i think sad, but i want to be happy.
i should know better, witch is my i shouldnt be so sad about things. or depressed about it.
i guess when people let you down, its kinda understandable, and i know people have shit to do, there own lifes and stuff, but how hard...
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cant decide if i am happy or sad. i think sad, but i want to be happy.
i should know better, witch is my i shouldnt be so sad about things. or depressed about it.
i guess when people let you down, its kinda understandable, and i know people have shit to do, there own lifes and stuff, but how hard...
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elvira:
i just had time to read the first part (read the rest later) but maybe its a chance to go eremit, change being lownsome into being alone, its a differene and you can get power from it. maybe you find something that takes your time and fullfills you at the same time. i wish so.
i hug you strong amigo
i hug you strong amigo
pictures and photos, memories or reminders?
i dont have alot of pictures, in the past, i was never worried about them, just be happy for the present, not thinking that it will be the past
now, i want pictures, i want something to say i was there, or i did that, or something.
but why? and who is it gonna say something too anyway??
memories,...
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i dont have alot of pictures, in the past, i was never worried about them, just be happy for the present, not thinking that it will be the past
now, i want pictures, i want something to say i was there, or i did that, or something.
but why? and who is it gonna say something too anyway??
memories,...
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funny, the things we forget, vs the ones we remember.
the stuff that stays at the front of your mind, maybe somewhere on the periphial, vs the stuff that hides in tha background, covered by the noises of your own despair? only to come crashing thru at the oddest moments, sometimes so strongly it makes you sit when u are standing, sometimes so subtly it...
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the stuff that stays at the front of your mind, maybe somewhere on the periphial, vs the stuff that hides in tha background, covered by the noises of your own despair? only to come crashing thru at the oddest moments, sometimes so strongly it makes you sit when u are standing, sometimes so subtly it...
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elvira:
hi sammy!!!
whatz up with you?? hmm
i just wanna leave you a big kiss and a warm hug.....
cya
whatz up with you?? hmm
i just wanna leave you a big kiss and a warm hug.....
cya
elvira:
i will never leave you as long as you trust me..
you are pretty my friend
kiss you and hug you biiiiggg
you are pretty my friend
kiss you and hug you biiiiggg
finally i cam up with something originail, inspired by someone who asked me of the land of milk and honey...
there is no milk and honey, only the land u do not see, somewhere between the fields of green, and the warmth of concrete, is the death of you and me
queer huh!
but not a quote of others i wished i could claim as...
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there is no milk and honey, only the land u do not see, somewhere between the fields of green, and the warmth of concrete, is the death of you and me
queer huh!
but not a quote of others i wished i could claim as...
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so,,,,,,
i finally cleared up spme bullshit with a good freind,,,,, at least he says its all good.
but it was my fuck up, not his, and i appriciate hime being that genrous, but not so sure i beleive.....
my typing stinks, so does my spelling, so i am off...
have sweet dreams!!! u know who!!!!
i finally cleared up spme bullshit with a good freind,,,,, at least he says its all good.
but it was my fuck up, not his, and i appriciate hime being that genrous, but not so sure i beleive.....
my typing stinks, so does my spelling, so i am off...
have sweet dreams!!! u know who!!!!