found a new place and get to keep my dog, so i am happy as hell. i was also informed that i was approved for the prp injections, which is awesome news as well. let me get situated, and i'll be back soon...
aloha
p.s. check this out too...:
my new blog
aloha
p.s. check this out too...:
my new blog
stressing out a bit...:
gotta move by the 14th
can't find a place to let me have my dog that i can afford, and REFUSE to get rid of him
had a gig at the hard rock on sat, aug. 20th with my favorite band out here on maui, mothxp, and it might actually end up being not only our debut, 1st show, but also our last because we just can't get on the same level
still awaiting possible back surgery and/or PRP injections
and all my friends and family in texas
PLEASE let this be the lowest point so we/i can begin our/my incline again, as i can't handle much more of this decline...
and to think that things could be worse is just plain scary...
gotta move by the 14th
can't find a place to let me have my dog that i can afford, and REFUSE to get rid of him
had a gig at the hard rock on sat, aug. 20th with my favorite band out here on maui, mothxp, and it might actually end up being not only our debut, 1st show, but also our last because we just can't get on the same level
still awaiting possible back surgery and/or PRP injections
and all my friends and family in texas
PLEASE let this be the lowest point so we/i can begin our/my incline again, as i can't handle much more of this decline...
and to think that things could be worse is just plain scary...
so, i am as estatic as frightened right now, for multiple reasons, so i'll start w/the scary shit 1st, as you know i ♥ horror, but i fly to oahu tomorrow to meet w/a 2nd neurosurgeon to discuss my near, not to mention for the rest of my life, future...
i'm scared as hell of someone cutting on me, as i've never had a surgery before, besides my wisdom teeth, but that's not even remotely close to what my future beholds, so, yea. i fly out about 7:30am, which means i gotta get up REALLY early, as my appt is @ 9:30, & fly back @ 5pm. the insurance co sent me a check to cover the r/t flight & taxi rides to & from the dr's office, & i think they owe me breakfast as well, at the VERY least, but we'll see. i have to return receipts of everything, including the money left over from the trip, which i don't even know how long the appt will last, but it is only an evaluation to discuss options, & hopefully set a date to get me back to me again...
i'm excited because today i was gifted rather nicely, to say the least, w/some new toys. another friend is leaving the island to be with her man who already left, unfortunately, & selling stuff, so i needed a computer desk. when i went over to pick it up today, i also left with a red sunburst limited edition electric epiphone/gibson les paul, an electric/acoustic bass & an electric bass that says "jay turser(?)", an swr tube preamp/solid state power amp rack mount, 2 keyboard stands, which were desperately needed, a couple of usb converters, an extra dell flat screen monitor, among a few other gems, so TYVM keri & jaybird...
so, i'm assuming, which i HATE to do, that the powers that be are trying to show to me once again how the good goes w/the bad, or the yin goes w/the yang, etc, etc, when all i REALLY want is my life back to whatever normal was before i sustained this back injury, but i guess patience mustn't be forgotten either; it's just been a VERY tough & painful past 34 VITAL months of my life that i will never get back, & it's still not that close to being over, but, as bob put it best, time will tell...
all i know is that things could ALWAYS be worse, so i am gonna make it, and i hope all is well in your lives as well...
aloha
i'm scared as hell of someone cutting on me, as i've never had a surgery before, besides my wisdom teeth, but that's not even remotely close to what my future beholds, so, yea. i fly out about 7:30am, which means i gotta get up REALLY early, as my appt is @ 9:30, & fly back @ 5pm. the insurance co sent me a check to cover the r/t flight & taxi rides to & from the dr's office, & i think they owe me breakfast as well, at the VERY least, but we'll see. i have to return receipts of everything, including the money left over from the trip, which i don't even know how long the appt will last, but it is only an evaluation to discuss options, & hopefully set a date to get me back to me again...
i'm excited because today i was gifted rather nicely, to say the least, w/some new toys. another friend is leaving the island to be with her man who already left, unfortunately, & selling stuff, so i needed a computer desk. when i went over to pick it up today, i also left with a red sunburst limited edition electric epiphone/gibson les paul, an electric/acoustic bass & an electric bass that says "jay turser(?)", an swr tube preamp/solid state power amp rack mount, 2 keyboard stands, which were desperately needed, a couple of usb converters, an extra dell flat screen monitor, among a few other gems, so TYVM keri & jaybird...
so, i'm assuming, which i HATE to do, that the powers that be are trying to show to me once again how the good goes w/the bad, or the yin goes w/the yang, etc, etc, when all i REALLY want is my life back to whatever normal was before i sustained this back injury, but i guess patience mustn't be forgotten either; it's just been a VERY tough & painful past 34 VITAL months of my life that i will never get back, & it's still not that close to being over, but, as bob put it best, time will tell...
all i know is that things could ALWAYS be worse, so i am gonna make it, and i hope all is well in your lives as well...
aloha
Aloha everyone! I apologize for my absence, but my laptop died on me last june, and all I have for now is this "smart" phone. It allows me to get online to do certain things, but it is still pretty damn limited.
I am finally going to see my neurosurgeon april 21st to compare mri's, discuss surgical options and hopefully set a date for me to go under the knife, which I am still afraid of, but after 2&1/2 years of "conservative treatment," I just want my life back, and I definitely don't want to have to depend on the pharmaceuticals they've had me on this whole time, 9 and still counting...
I lost control of and wrecked my moped on jan 30th, hitting the ground face first without a helmet on. I was taken to the ER and had x rays and ct scans done on my head and knee, which had positive results to them. I was coming home from a convenient store with a couple of sodas when I hit a wet spot on the road at a curve, and my back tire slid to my right and I went down before I even knew what was going on. I hit my left eyebrow first, and got 6-7 stitches from that, and then I must have rolled a few times before coming to a stop. Luckily, I was wearing jeans, a hoodie and a toboggan, or beanie, which just so happened to save my eye socket from crushing my eye during the initial impact. I was VERY sore for a few weeks, but somehow did not injure my lower back any worse, thankfully. It also kinda helped to knock some sense into my stubborn head: I realized I was only focusing on the negative things going on in my life right now, listening to angry music and reading negative literature; I had become a hermit that would not go out to do much of anything, and I always kept my shades pulled tight, never allowing the sunlight in my room, not to mention my life. Since the moped accident, I've changed my thought processes, music I listen to, got more positive reading materials and started letting the light in my life, and I already feel a million times better, mentally.
While I'm still awaiting this surgery, I've been writing some new music and can't wait to get the correct few other players I need to perform it live, so please keep me in your thoughts and I will try to get on here more often, though an actual laptop would be better, but for now I'll just have to use this when it works right. I hope all is well in your worlds, and please remember to help look out for eachother, as we're all in this together...
Aloha
I am finally going to see my neurosurgeon april 21st to compare mri's, discuss surgical options and hopefully set a date for me to go under the knife, which I am still afraid of, but after 2&1/2 years of "conservative treatment," I just want my life back, and I definitely don't want to have to depend on the pharmaceuticals they've had me on this whole time, 9 and still counting...
I lost control of and wrecked my moped on jan 30th, hitting the ground face first without a helmet on. I was taken to the ER and had x rays and ct scans done on my head and knee, which had positive results to them. I was coming home from a convenient store with a couple of sodas when I hit a wet spot on the road at a curve, and my back tire slid to my right and I went down before I even knew what was going on. I hit my left eyebrow first, and got 6-7 stitches from that, and then I must have rolled a few times before coming to a stop. Luckily, I was wearing jeans, a hoodie and a toboggan, or beanie, which just so happened to save my eye socket from crushing my eye during the initial impact. I was VERY sore for a few weeks, but somehow did not injure my lower back any worse, thankfully. It also kinda helped to knock some sense into my stubborn head: I realized I was only focusing on the negative things going on in my life right now, listening to angry music and reading negative literature; I had become a hermit that would not go out to do much of anything, and I always kept my shades pulled tight, never allowing the sunlight in my room, not to mention my life. Since the moped accident, I've changed my thought processes, music I listen to, got more positive reading materials and started letting the light in my life, and I already feel a million times better, mentally.
While I'm still awaiting this surgery, I've been writing some new music and can't wait to get the correct few other players I need to perform it live, so please keep me in your thoughts and I will try to get on here more often, though an actual laptop would be better, but for now I'll just have to use this when it works right. I hope all is well in your worlds, and please remember to help look out for eachother, as we're all in this together...
Aloha
i apologize for my lack of activity around these parts lately, but my laptop is dead and needs to have the operating system reinstalled, and i have neither the patience or experience to do it myself.
i am currently awaiting epidural injections of steroids to see if that can heal my lower back injury i sustained almost 2 years ago. if they don't do the trick, i will be going under the surgical blade, which i would like to avoid, but at this point, i just want to live as pain free as possible and try to return to a normal state in my life, like having a job and being a functioning member of society.
i recently got a keyboard for my birthday, so i am in the process of teaching myself how to play it. i really wish my comp was working, as i'm positive there are multiple options for video lessons online, so i must say that it's a beautiful thing that i am musically inclined with instruments in general.
i will be trying my hand at this op sys reinstallation again, so please send me your good energy, and hopefully i will be interacting with all of you crazy mofos on a much more regular basis. until then, be good, or at least good at it...!
aloha.
i am currently awaiting epidural injections of steroids to see if that can heal my lower back injury i sustained almost 2 years ago. if they don't do the trick, i will be going under the surgical blade, which i would like to avoid, but at this point, i just want to live as pain free as possible and try to return to a normal state in my life, like having a job and being a functioning member of society.
i recently got a keyboard for my birthday, so i am in the process of teaching myself how to play it. i really wish my comp was working, as i'm positive there are multiple options for video lessons online, so i must say that it's a beautiful thing that i am musically inclined with instruments in general.
i will be trying my hand at this op sys reinstallation again, so please send me your good energy, and hopefully i will be interacting with all of you crazy mofos on a much more regular basis. until then, be good, or at least good at it...!
aloha.
i’ve been in a couple of studios lately, and it has been rather cathartic, to say the least. i’ve had way too much free time on my hands over the last 20+ months, and we all know that idle time is the devil’s favorite plaything. and as much as i like/need to get the noize out of my head, there is also the boredom, depression, frustration, guilt, suppression, etc. that i need a get out of my life, which makes me a dependent in the sense that i require others to assist me along the way.
it seems to me that way too many artists/musicians get all caught up in a fatal catch-22 syndrome that consists of egotism and narrow-sightedness, as opposed to sharing/working with as many like-minded individuals as possible, which is why i created dbc. we shall see what is to be, as i'm coming in contact with more of the people i'm supposed to these days, which is, to say the least, the best possible thing for me right now. i’m going to “whore” myself out right now and utilize as many resources that i can come across to assist not only myself in the process, but hopefully theirs as well, and hopefully we can all come up in this seemingly impossible world we live constricted by these days. either way, it feels right to me, as we are all in this together.
the moral is this...: everyone, play nice together, and the proverbial cohesiveness of this world seems to stick together much better...!
aloha.
p.s. go to www.myspace.com/deathbycoconutband for samples, and add don't forget to add me as a friend and let me know what you think of it all...
it seems to me that way too many artists/musicians get all caught up in a fatal catch-22 syndrome that consists of egotism and narrow-sightedness, as opposed to sharing/working with as many like-minded individuals as possible, which is why i created dbc. we shall see what is to be, as i'm coming in contact with more of the people i'm supposed to these days, which is, to say the least, the best possible thing for me right now. i’m going to “whore” myself out right now and utilize as many resources that i can come across to assist not only myself in the process, but hopefully theirs as well, and hopefully we can all come up in this seemingly impossible world we live constricted by these days. either way, it feels right to me, as we are all in this together.
the moral is this...: everyone, play nice together, and the proverbial cohesiveness of this world seems to stick together much better...!
aloha.
p.s. go to www.myspace.com/deathbycoconutband for samples, and add don't forget to add me as a friend and let me know what you think of it all...
last night i watched you
while you slept and you dreamt,
and i studied your breathing,
alluring and hypnotic,
like a warm, southern wind,
on a cool, northern day,
allowing yesterday's frustrations
to completely melt away
into a place of inner peace,
some form of sudden bliss,
happiness across your face,
those lips i long to kiss,
which formed a lovely smile,
as your eyes, they captured me
gazing upon my angel
with complete serenity,
as you slowly rolled over
and fell back asleep...
the making of a memory
that i will always keep...
while you slept and you dreamt,
and i studied your breathing,
alluring and hypnotic,
like a warm, southern wind,
on a cool, northern day,
allowing yesterday's frustrations
to completely melt away
into a place of inner peace,
some form of sudden bliss,
happiness across your face,
those lips i long to kiss,
which formed a lovely smile,
as your eyes, they captured me
gazing upon my angel
with complete serenity,
as you slowly rolled over
and fell back asleep...
the making of a memory
that i will always keep...
