It is time...
Today was spent looking at apartments and houses, trying to find a new place to live here in Indiana. I have been flying back and forth for about the past 7 weeks, and its become rather tiresome, but to be honest, I didnt want to leave Colorado.
.
I love Colorado, I love the mountains, it is my home. And now I am moving away from it and it is so god damned hard to do that. i've only lived in Colorado Springs my entire life and now, after 34 years, I am uprooting it all and moving to Bloomington Indiana. Work is bringing me here as we are trying to build up something new here. It's all rather exciting, frustrating and overall a mixed bag of emotions, but I know its the right thing to do. It feels right, as if a new progression that I need to take. But still, I fly back to Colorado every weekend, and every weekend I am greeted by those same beautiful mountains, that same beautiful sky, and I cant help but doubt myself.
So to say I am torn, is a bit of an understatement.
Todays silver lining is that I have been approved for a new home here, so I can stop flying back and start building something here. I think maybe I was more aggravated because I didnt have any stability. Well now I am taking the first step to something new, something stable. I move in, I put my stuff in there, and I turn that place into my home, and I think I will feel better. Maybe 6 months from now I regret it, but I will work hard to not do that.
I guess this blog has gotten away from me a bit because I am having problems keeping my mind and thoughts straight. This was more or less an exercise to spill my guts onto the page and just get it all out, say what I want to say in a private forum that has very little chance of being read.
Thank you Colorado for being a wonderful state. I am sorry that I am leaving but I promise that I will be back home soon. I have to do that, other wise I will go mad.
here is to my new home, Indiana. May it treat me as well, if not better than my previous state.
Salut!
Today was spent looking at apartments and houses, trying to find a new place to live here in Indiana. I have been flying back and forth for about the past 7 weeks, and its become rather tiresome, but to be honest, I didnt want to leave Colorado.
.
I love Colorado, I love the mountains, it is my home. And now I am moving away from it and it is so god damned hard to do that. i've only lived in Colorado Springs my entire life and now, after 34 years, I am uprooting it all and moving to Bloomington Indiana. Work is bringing me here as we are trying to build up something new here. It's all rather exciting, frustrating and overall a mixed bag of emotions, but I know its the right thing to do. It feels right, as if a new progression that I need to take. But still, I fly back to Colorado every weekend, and every weekend I am greeted by those same beautiful mountains, that same beautiful sky, and I cant help but doubt myself.
So to say I am torn, is a bit of an understatement.
Todays silver lining is that I have been approved for a new home here, so I can stop flying back and start building something here. I think maybe I was more aggravated because I didnt have any stability. Well now I am taking the first step to something new, something stable. I move in, I put my stuff in there, and I turn that place into my home, and I think I will feel better. Maybe 6 months from now I regret it, but I will work hard to not do that.
I guess this blog has gotten away from me a bit because I am having problems keeping my mind and thoughts straight. This was more or less an exercise to spill my guts onto the page and just get it all out, say what I want to say in a private forum that has very little chance of being read.
Thank you Colorado for being a wonderful state. I am sorry that I am leaving but I promise that I will be back home soon. I have to do that, other wise I will go mad.
here is to my new home, Indiana. May it treat me as well, if not better than my previous state.
Salut!
i hope you're feeling better about your choice (i see it's been a while, i'm shit at keepin up with people on this site)---
and thank you for everything you said on my blog : ]