It's been 11 months since my previous blog and ... well... as the title says, things change. I won't make this a talkie and go on and on, but the things that stayed the same:
Still seeing the same girl.
Still working in the warehouse.
Things that have changed:
I've lost 60 lbs since moving from Indiana (Feb 013)
Got a new car
Became a father
Stopped drinking
A lot of good things have happened, yet I still find myself flighty. The relationship with me and baby mama is unconventional at best, but anytime I do get to see my baby girl, I can't help but forget all the drama and issues. I honestly never thought I could find myself loving and caring for someone so much, but that little girl has really got a hold of me. I'd like to be a lot more involved in her life but again, things are a bit complicated there.
Back to being flighty... I keep fighting this urge to say screw it, leave my job, leave the state, and just go do something else. I feel like I have burrowed into some pit and I need to do something to break free. But I don't, and I won't. Because I am lucky to have a job, that lets me live in a state I missed so dearly last year, and I am not sure what else I would want to do. Plus, to circle back to my daughter, the job and location allow me to be the best person I can be and afford her the things she needs. Plus, I am really close to her, so living far away would probably be even more painful now.
Overall, everything is good. Great even. *knock on wood*
All I got to do now is stay the course and be the best daddy I can.