openchakra

damn, i woke up in the most cynical of moods for some reason. i sometimes can fake being ok. but nah....a co worker was talking to someone and was mentioning how upbeat he usually is, and how rare it was for someone to answer when asked "how are you?" and he replies "GREAT!" with genuine enthusiasm. and he says in mid sentence, "you know, most people just say i'm ok, or alright." and then he turns to me and asks, "hey how are you?"

and i turn to him with a sour look on my face and say "not so good at all."

i agree with him though. most people will just say ok or alright even if they are not. why lie? if i feel shitty, and someone asks me...hey..I feel shitty. thanks for asking!

anyways, ive got tommorrow off and i got a fresh pouch of tobacco and i'll probably go chainsmoke at my favorite little haunt, and drink some beer...and read.

that's funny. alot of people like to go to bars and schmooze or try to pick up people. I have a few bars i frequent.
one of them my favorite because its nearby and you can smoke inside. I like to bring a paperback and just smoke and drink and read. and occasionally people watch. I'm not a super gregarious individual to begin with, but the human side still has some amount of social need, so just being around a bunch of other people is alright by me. i won't turn down having a conversation though either...its not complicated....i just don't like talking all the time.