age: 30 (Nov 20, 1981)
MEMBER SINCE: April 2004
makes me happy: a full stomach of food, empty highways day or night, finding skate spots, finishing projects, cool old shit, dirty hands, hair and body... sans crotch rot.
into: skateboarding, tattoos, old cars, bombs/customs, mixer media art, metal art/sculpture, video art & motion graphics, drawing, ratty lowrider bikes, horror movies, evolving thoughts,
BLOGS
Its been almost 4 years to-the-day since Ive posted on here. I think within those past 4 years Ive only logged on twice maybe 3 times.
Everything in my world has been slowly changing... for the better.
Life:
I was lucky enough to land the most amazing woman I have ever known. She has everything I ever wanted in a person and rocks the shit out of my world. We're in love and thats a first for me.
Mania:
I finally got a proper diagnosis in November of 2009.
After living in an extended period of a painful "mixed state" with extreme paranoia and again more psychotic idealizations I was, at first, reluctantly admitted to a mental hospital outside of Chicago. It was my fourth hospitalization and second longest stay at 11 days (14 days being my longest stay)
It had been around 4 years since my last hospitalization. This time around I was way more receptive to treatment, therapy, group therapy and the biggest part which is finally getting on the best working meds for me that my mind finally responds well to.
so manic bi-polar with agoraphobia, mild hallucinations and occasional heavy social anxiety. Im still working on being able to go to the grocery store by myself and being able to leave the house on a regular basis without panic and fear.
At the hospital one of the therapists keyed me into a wild idea which was boredom and isolation will always result in another mixed state, a manic episode, and or another hospitalization.
tattoo:
Just got a few new ones and have appointments for a few more.
I cant find any good artists that have the style i like around here. so I have a lot more traveling to do ahead of me... hurray!
car:
im in the works of getting my 62 meteor to be shipped down here to Florida (where im living till 2012) so i can make it a street creeper and all the badass shit. its all money though so its a slow process.
art:
Im rebuilding my motion graphics website to gear it more towards abstract and experimental video pieces and focus less...
Everything in my world has been slowly changing... for the better.
Life:
I was lucky enough to land the most amazing woman I have ever known. She has everything I ever wanted in a person and rocks the shit out of my world. We're in love and thats a first for me.
Mania:
I finally got a proper diagnosis in November of 2009.
After living in an extended period of a painful "mixed state" with extreme paranoia and again more psychotic idealizations I was, at first, reluctantly admitted to a mental hospital outside of Chicago. It was my fourth hospitalization and second longest stay at 11 days (14 days being my longest stay)
It had been around 4 years since my last hospitalization. This time around I was way more receptive to treatment, therapy, group therapy and the biggest part which is finally getting on the best working meds for me that my mind finally responds well to.
so manic bi-polar with agoraphobia, mild hallucinations and occasional heavy social anxiety. Im still working on being able to go to the grocery store by myself and being able to leave the house on a regular basis without panic and fear.
At the hospital one of the therapists keyed me into a wild idea which was boredom and isolation will always result in another mixed state, a manic episode, and or another hospitalization.
tattoo:
Just got a few new ones and have appointments for a few more.
I cant find any good artists that have the style i like around here. so I have a lot more traveling to do ahead of me... hurray!
car:
im in the works of getting my 62 meteor to be shipped down here to Florida (where im living till 2012) so i can make it a street creeper and all the badass shit. its all money though so its a slow process.
art:
Im rebuilding my motion graphics website to gear it more towards abstract and experimental video pieces and focus less...
DECEMBER 2011
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