So. . . . . . . .College. . . . . . .
I've been unemployed sitting on my ass for the past 3 months, and haven't done much to get myself out of this situation. . . . . .which is a bit hypocritical of me being as I always give people the "If you're stuck in a bad situation and do nothing to remove yourself from it, then you have no room to whine about it."
.................
YAY HYPOCRISY!
I brought up College because I'm sick of working the random odd jobs. . . . .I'm sick of Cable. . . .sick of towing. . . . . sick of retail. . . . . . .sick of customer service crap. . . . . . . .and sick of sitting on my ass all day. . . . .
My passion is art, yet I haven't created anything new in about a year or so. Sure, I dink around on Photoshop every now and then, but nothing that is a real project. . . .I feel that I am getting more and more depressed that I am not where I want to be right now. I am real good to come up with a plan that sounds real awesome, but rarely do I execute. . . . .And I don't know exactly why that is.
I play games all the damn time, and sometimes forget to eat. . . . .one. . . .. two. . . . . . .sometimes all meals of the day. . . . . . .
Really tough watching yourself from a third person's perspective. . . . .watching yourself just sink lower and lower wondering, "How can he continue to live like that? Why doesn't he just do something about it."
I'm not too sure where I'm headed with all my ramblings. . . . I started off with the idea of college, and know I am trying to bring logic to the way my head works :p
Sometimes it's just kind of nice to write it out, I suppose. . . . .I've abandoned my online journals for quite some time now.
Sorry if there are any of you who like to keep updated on people through blogs and such. I've disappeared for quite some time.
Meh.
oh yeah. . . . . . . .I think I've eaten a thing of ramen today. . . . .better than nothing, I suppose. . . . .
2 in the morning. . . . . . .still up. . . . . . .prolly gonna stay up for another three or so hours again. . . . . . . .then sleep in until forever. . . . .
Maybe I just need to take a break from the computer and give myself something real to do. . . . .go for a walk or something. . . . .just get outside. . . . . .see the sun for a small while. . . . .
I've had a really hard time getting excited about any of the hobbies I have, as well.
I'm in a "band" with a couple of friends, and despite how much of love music, art and creating shtuffs I just can't get excited about band practice. I don't know why. . . . .
I've really shut off from a lot of people. . . . . .I've just retreated away. . . . .I never really socialize. . . .People call me and reach out to me. . . . . . and I seldom even respond. . . . .I seem to only prefer doing anything with others if it involves them coming over to my place and I continue to do the same thing I'd be doing even if they were'nt there: Dinking around on my computer.........................
Meh..............
I'm almost out of Dew again V_V
>.>
<.<
<(^_^)>
Bleh.
This has gotten far longer and unnecessary than I intended.
I'll try to conclude with this: Don't do drugs. Be nice to your sister. Listen to your parents. Say your prayers, and eat your vitamins. . . . . .
And, I'm awesome. . . . . . . . .for a slacktard.
I've been unemployed sitting on my ass for the past 3 months, and haven't done much to get myself out of this situation. . . . . .which is a bit hypocritical of me being as I always give people the "If you're stuck in a bad situation and do nothing to remove yourself from it, then you have no room to whine about it."
.................
YAY HYPOCRISY!
I brought up College because I'm sick of working the random odd jobs. . . . .I'm sick of Cable. . . .sick of towing. . . . . sick of retail. . . . . . .sick of customer service crap. . . . . . . .and sick of sitting on my ass all day. . . . .
My passion is art, yet I haven't created anything new in about a year or so. Sure, I dink around on Photoshop every now and then, but nothing that is a real project. . . .I feel that I am getting more and more depressed that I am not where I want to be right now. I am real good to come up with a plan that sounds real awesome, but rarely do I execute. . . . .And I don't know exactly why that is.
I play games all the damn time, and sometimes forget to eat. . . . .one. . . .. two. . . . . . .sometimes all meals of the day. . . . . . .
Really tough watching yourself from a third person's perspective. . . . .watching yourself just sink lower and lower wondering, "How can he continue to live like that? Why doesn't he just do something about it."
I'm not too sure where I'm headed with all my ramblings. . . . I started off with the idea of college, and know I am trying to bring logic to the way my head works :p
Sometimes it's just kind of nice to write it out, I suppose. . . . .I've abandoned my online journals for quite some time now.
Sorry if there are any of you who like to keep updated on people through blogs and such. I've disappeared for quite some time.
Meh.
oh yeah. . . . . . . .I think I've eaten a thing of ramen today. . . . .better than nothing, I suppose. . . . .
2 in the morning. . . . . . .still up. . . . . . .prolly gonna stay up for another three or so hours again. . . . . . . .then sleep in until forever. . . . .
Maybe I just need to take a break from the computer and give myself something real to do. . . . .go for a walk or something. . . . .just get outside. . . . . .see the sun for a small while. . . . .
I've had a really hard time getting excited about any of the hobbies I have, as well.
I'm in a "band" with a couple of friends, and despite how much of love music, art and creating shtuffs I just can't get excited about band practice. I don't know why. . . . .
I've really shut off from a lot of people. . . . . .I've just retreated away. . . . .I never really socialize. . . .People call me and reach out to me. . . . . . and I seldom even respond. . . . .I seem to only prefer doing anything with others if it involves them coming over to my place and I continue to do the same thing I'd be doing even if they were'nt there: Dinking around on my computer.........................
Meh..............
I'm almost out of Dew again V_V
>.>
<.<
<(^_^)>
Bleh.
This has gotten far longer and unnecessary than I intended.
I'll try to conclude with this: Don't do drugs. Be nice to your sister. Listen to your parents. Say your prayers, and eat your vitamins. . . . . .
And, I'm awesome. . . . . . . . .for a slacktard.