Hey everyone long time no speak i know however there has been alot happening in my life recently.
First of all i haven't got a pc at the moment hence why i haven't updated in ages..
I am now 20 weeks pregnant (shock horror) still getting used to the idea and its been very difficult as i haven't been well at all with it.
Im also wanting to be on my own as there is too much happened and happening for me to deal with.
I have also decided that i am leaving this site as its not what it used to be and i haven't missed it at all so im just going to let my contract run out.
hope everyone are ok
xxx

beginning of the week was rather pants

however not long now till the weekend im looking forward to getting my sleeve started on saturday so very excited!!! mr eldiablo is coming with me whats the betting he will laugh if its painful im a sissy haha

eldiablo is coming down on thursday night and staying for a long weekend was lovely having him here for the fortnight im missing him loads so im a bit odd i know but there we go..

Im off to the london tattoo convention on sunday who else is going?

Isn't the beach a wonderful place to go for a walk or a run i always find it kinda helps to make you think or forget things that are not so important having a weird start to the week alot happened to me over the past few days some good things and some bad.

Im dreading next tuesday my dad has been passed away for 4 years weird how it always hits me a week before i was in denial for a long time didn't believe he was going to die i always imagined he was this invincible man who would always have the answer to anything i asked or was always there when i needed him most if i fell he would pick me up, when i got dumped he wiped the tears off my face, when i was in the wrong he gave me a look which i knew he disaproved, he never shouted at me and only slapped my arse once in my entire life it hurt him more than me i ignored him for about a month hehe i never imagined my world without him he died of lung cancer and collapsed in the hallway and i arrived too late to say goodbye i just saw this cold figure lying in front of me and there was nothing anyone could do. At his funeral i wore bright colours and dyed my hair as red as i could possibly get it and then i realised life was too short and still 4 years on i feel robbed only my mum ever speaks of him my brothers pretend that he didn't exist its a cold house at this time of year...
xxx