it's been a while, i apologize.

i was somewhat busy for a few months there. on top of school and work full time, i was also in my first college play. i played kay banks in father of the bride (the bride, if you are curious). the show just ended, and now i have some free time again, which is slightly depressing, haha.

i took a three hour nap after work today. the first time i've been able to just take a nap without setting an alarm in months. it felt nice, now i'm awake and procrastinating on writing two papers about my play. ha, college.

i've been on suicidegirls for a year now. a lot has happened in the past year. i am constantly discovering things about myself, changing, and growing. i've grown close to a large group of people. i've stepped out of my comfort zone. i've achieved things i never thought i would have a year prior. it feels good. i've also lost a handful of friends, but that's going to happen. i feel like i never allow myself to get attached to anyone anymore because of it. so it goes.

i want to help people. it sucks so much to see someone with all the talent and potential in the world that doesn't seem to have the drive to do something great with themselves. i can only encourage so much. i've been there. i've been in that slump. i've lacked motivation for a long time. i realize it's all up to that other person, but i just want to constantly remind them, 'hey, i'm here if you need me.'

in 5 more weeks this semester will be over. sometimes i just can't believe that i'm in college, working, and living on my own. this is something that would have seemed too challenging to attempt three years ago. i've been living on my own successfully for two years. it's been a struggle but i'm happy where i am. truly. all i can hope for is more independence.

and maybe to figure out a career path. we'll see.

it's been a while, i apologize.

i was somewhat busy for a few months there. on top of school and work full time, i was also in my first college play. i played kay banks in father of the bride (the bride, if you are curious). the show just ended, and now i have some free time again, which is slightly depressing, haha.

i took a three hour nap after work today. the first time i've been able to just take a nap without setting an alarm in months. it felt nice, now i'm awake and procrastinating on writing two papers about my play. ha, college.

i've been on suicidegirls for a year now. a lot has happened in the past year. i am constantly discovering things about myself, changing, and growing. i've grown close to a large group of people. i've stepped out of my comfort zone. i've achieved things i never thought i would have a year prior. it feels good. i've also lost a handful of friends, but that's going to happen. i feel like i never allow myself to get attached to anyone anymore because of it. so it goes.

i want to help people. it sucks so much to see someone with all the talent and potential in the world that doesn't seem to have the drive to do something great with themselves. i can only encourage so much. i've been there. i've been in that slump. i've lacked motivation for a long time. i realize it's all up to that other person, but i just want to constantly remind them, 'hey, i'm here if you need me.'

in 5 more weeks this semester will be over. sometimes i just can't believe that i'm in college, working, and living on my own. this is something that would have seemed too challenging to attempt three years ago. i've been living on my own successfully for two years. it's been a struggle but i'm happy where i am. truly. all i can hope for is more independence.

and maybe to figure out a career path. we'll see.