i need some sex rite now!

youd think after possibly fracturing my ankle thatd be the last thing on my mind. but no.
any offers?

preferably female please lol

i sprained my ankle possibly fractured it.


it sucks we were in capitola and i thought id fuck around and "skin board" if you can call what i was doing that. it was all good for an hour occasional fuck up by eatin shit and biting it hella hard but eventually i fuct up and board come out from under my feet and i rolled my ankle and lost balance and all my weight went onto the ankle. so now i have a cast or temporary cast or support and am on crutches i was headed home when i decided to call mind you were two hours away from home and they say oh now go directly to nearest emergency room dont wait til you get home! so i do as they say and they gave me some vicodin at the hospital for the pain and ice. then they xray it long story short im SUPPOSED to be on crutches for the next two weeks but my job wont allow that or ill get canned so ima hide the whole thing and just gimp around til im better. good news is got some vicodin out of my stupidity! haha

i have decided....

im going to be giving up drinking all together.

Reasons:
1) its fucking up my relationship with jen
2) its caused me to put on a few extra pounds
3) itll save me money
4) i would over do it and thatd cause me to call in ALOT and cant being doing that right now with my new job.

i mean ill have parties and shit but dont expect me to provide beer or see me with a drink in my hand.
so from now on parties are gonna be strictly byob!

so my new job is the fuckin shit. its so fuckin easy. long story short i do nothing for 4 out of 8 hours haha for almost 18 bucks an hour.

i need to think about jen and my future. we need to prepare.
plus i would like to propose to her soon. and eventually start our family once we are both financially stable.

for the most part lifes been pretty blah. but i guess thats what happens when life becomes so routine which is why i like going with my buddies to their shows and helping. its a nice break from reality.

my mom and i are pretty strapped for cash like the rest of America.

i just things would for once turn out the way we want them.
but of course this is real life and not a fuckin movie so all these fuckers making millions of dollars and sitting high up on that high horse can just sit back and watch the rest of the world struggle.
if i had it my way and became wealthy my family would be the first people i take care of.

of course id be there for friends but family is most important i hate seeing my mom struggle and it blows when i cant do shit about it.

makes me miss my dad and shit bc hed kno exactly what to do.

but fuck im tryin my best but shit thats never good enough.

anywho figured id update since i havent in a while. so thats it for now.

peace out bitches

I am so STOKED!!! this weekend!!! friday and saturday. here we come fresno and bakersfield, gonna party it up after the shows. im "roadie-ing" for my buddies "cholo-billy"/psychobilly band. i get paid in booze and free entrance




plus!!! midnight mass pre party up in sac!!! pin ups! cars and bands! july 25th





SEE EVERYONE THERE HOPEFULLY! there will be after parties at the fresno and bakersfield shows. so hit me up if youre down, son

I am so STOKED!!! this weekend!!! friday and saturday. here we come fresno and bakersfield, gonna party it up after the shows. im "roadie-ing" for my buddies "cholo-billy"/psychobilly band. i get paid in booze and free entrance




plus!!! midnight mass pre party up in sac!!! pin ups! cars and bands! july 25th





SEE EVERYONE THERE HOPEFULLY! there will be after parties at the fresno and bakersfield shows. so hit me up if youre down, son

i hate how everythings been going lately. everything shitty. im in need of a change. sometimes i wish i could just up and leave start all over. too bad there isnt like a reset button . lifes been flat our shitty. i need to get back on my anti depressants. hmmm i got this way last year only 50 times worse. i went thru a period were i wouldnt eat anything for a couple months and ended up losing like 30 lbs. i think the next time that happens it may kill me..........and this looks to be the start.....

im not sure where im headed in life.... i have been really in my own little world so it seems. completely shutting out my girlfriend and really just partying it up with my friends and doing my own little thing with them. im not sure but i need to try to be more sympathetic towards her and spend some quality time. monday was pretty good for us. first time in quite awhile we did not argue or fight. had a bbq invited friends and had family and friends over. had beer and etc. but it was pretty awesome, my buddies band (who by the way will be in the fresno and bakersfield area june 13-14 for a couple shows. be sure to check them out. myspace.com/theillegaldead.) ill be down there that weekend if anyone wants to hang out we will also be having afterparties and what not so hit me up.

anywho my second job SHOULD be calling me soon with a start date. but i really dont want to have TWO jobs i just wish i had one well paying job. im sick of my job at the assisted living place everyone there is backstabbing. and i make shitty pay for what i do.

usually february and may are the worse months for me for one february is when my dad passed away and may is his birthday. so you can imagine the emotions running thru my household at the moment. friday is his birthday and the past few days ive been thinking more and more about him. its been two years this past february. he had liver, lung cancer that had spread to his bones. started from smoking. but its all bad. been depressed as shit lately and i think thats why ive been out partying with friends and drinking bc ive been trying to get over this month. hmmm anyways i try to stay positive. hopefully things will turn around soon...

absolutely not looking forward to working 6 days in a row and then having one day off only to work another 4 or possibly FIVE days in a row again. if i dont respond or give any one a call just kno this im being held hostage for $8.75 an hour by arbor place in lodi

oh yeah feel free to entertain me while im at work sweating in a fuckin hot ass kitchen, cooking for old people who can care less what theyre eating but still decide to bitch about EVERY little thing. dont get me wrong not all the residents are bad. theyre are a select few id miss and prolly still come back and visit if i were to leave this job which im hoping is soon bc i really need a job change. thank god for my second job im soon to start making $17.78/hour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot, wow that shit sounded gay but fuck it ill be makin hella goo dmoney

text me adios social life

god i need a vacation.

ps ask for my cell number if you wanna entertain me or wanna hang out and youre in the central valley (stockton area)

im sick and tired of my girlfriend nagging me for every little thing. seriously this woman is never EVER happy. got two jobs, making really good money and yet all she does is complain. its like nothing i ever do is good enough. she doesnt appreciate anything i do. i cook for her, run errands for her. its like you would think after almost 4 years shed realize some shit and be like "thanks" doubt ive ever gotten that. i need more than nagging. sex is awesome but i need more than that shit.

ANY TAKERS?



PS IM the one with two jobs not her. she has a good one and is commuting back and fourth to SF state. FUCK im so over her. so HELLLLLLO ladies!