decided to give up drinking for awhile after saturday, too much stress and too many pent up emotions come out when i drink anymore
i had had a good night, but careened into self destructive asshole mode as soon as i got home
kept drinking even though i was already near blacked out, had phone conversations i don't remember....
i need to get some shit figured out, i think i know what i'm going to do this fall now, but even with the school question pretty well answered i still need to get the rest of my life unfucked, i don't like the punch in the gut feeling of a hangover turning worse when you realize you were a complete dick to someone who's been nothing but nice to you