Ever have a need to vent and not have anyone to vent to? That's kinda what I'm going through right now. I have been putting up with a lot of crap lately, and I'm not sure how much longer I want to tolerate it before I lose it. I haven't been sleeping well, and I think I'm getting ulcers.

So, what could possibly be so bad? Well, this is the second time I found out my wife has been fucking around with her lesbian lover behind my back. I fell for it when she told me it was over the first time and that they were just friends, but man was I a sucker. She has become a master of making believe what she wants me to believe, even though it goes against my gut instinct. This situation is taking a huge toll on me and my sanity, as well as my two young daughters'.

Just when I think things are starting to get better, all hell breaks loose. I don't know why the hell I even convince myself that I still love her so much, especially after what she has put me and the children through over the past few years. Now that she has a job, I almost wish she would just tell me she is leaving me and the girls to live with her lover so that I can try to live life with a little less drama and a lot less stress.

Anyways, it was nice getting that off my chest, even though there is a 99.99% chance no one will even read it. If you do happen to take the time to read it, thanks.

There's nothing quite like being home with the kids while mommy is out getting drunk with her friend. Funny how just an hour or two turns into four or five, and then to find out that she is passed out half naked in her friend's bed. I don't know what to think anymore. I try to give them the benefit of the doubt, but come on now! I may be stupid sometimes, but i'm not a complete idiot!

Anyways, I'm done with all my classes for school, now I just have to CLEP a few general ed credits. I plan to start all that in a month and be done a couple weeks later. My boss is already checking into options for a promotion.....possibly to an engineering position.

Work is getting hectic since the product we are developing will be released at the end of this year. I've been averaging ten hours per week of overtime. The extra money really helps, but the long hours are really kicking my ass! I need to get out and start making some friends. I can't wait til the weather gets nice so I can start hitting the road with my Harley! This rain has to stop some time, right?