Laptop is back from HP fixed for FREE, yippie! Bless you factory warranty. I would have had no way to pay a service bill at the moment. That would have sucked, but then again if it wasn't under warranty then I would have just replaced the fan my damn self. Anyhow that is all the technology crap I wanna talk about. Don't get me started on the iPad or Avatar. You will not like me if I do.

My bestie that was lost at sea was declared deceased. the ceramony was very uplifting in the sense of unity and commrodary (except the random girl from highschool who didn't get along with anybody there and just wanted to talk for the sake of not being a good friend) and we all went out and got wasted at the old spot, then I proceeded to take shots of mushie-infused goodness and DMT lines I was in a world of my own. The party had a sideshow with my friend. Jish, hammering a nale in his nose and Ben breaking a cinderblock over Jish on a bed of nails. Intense visuals on this trip, haha.

I got a job too! I kinda forgot. I haven't started yet cuz they are adjusting the schedule and yadda-yadda-yadda so I should be starting soon. I might get to work with one of my closest friends in my entire life. I don't care if the job is mundane I need money, BADLY!

2010s Bliggedy bloggin' blog.

Lets us see how to begin. My best friend is missing. He was working at a resort in Honduras and learning how to scuba dive. X-mas day he took a boat and that was the last anyone has seen or heard from him. The boat has been recovered from what I have been told. I don't know much else. I am in utter shock and am not thinking about it right now. His parents went down there to search. Enough of that before I get really upset.

I got all sorts of ambitions and goals and dreams and whatnot for this year. What are your plans/goals/resolutions? Like you'd have to ask. I'll just share. No particular order.

Get a job. ANY DAMN JOB! any ideas? I got a degree in MGMT and nowhere to use it.
Getting out of debt (well pretty damn close cuz I do owe a fuck-ton)
Get off probation (gawd willing) and get my license back.
Stop all the noise in my head. Most shit IS my fault and I should just grow up and tough it out.
Stop squandering away my time on pointless projects that just kick my OCD in high gear.
Fill out application for a new passport. (I freaking lost mine in my hometown!)
New Cell Plan/Mobile Device...I am thinking the Nexus One on T-Mob, but we shall see.

That is all. For now.

Had a spectacular All Hallow's Eve, Halloween and my birthday (All Souls Day) with loads of friends, costumes and boobies! Yeah for great friends, great drinks and great rolls. Man, I was totally having a blast. Everyone had a really sweet time. Some random fucker came to a party half starting shit with my inebriated friend and his girlie. Fists were swung and it made me unhappy. This douche swung at my old roommate for attempting to break up the fight, so ole Graham had to step in. Why is someone out of their mind on awesomeness the voice of reason? I jumped on the random with a headlock and proceeded to slam his head onto the pavement. The entire time I was asking him to please stop and leave the house so we could continue our festivities. Everyone was starring at me funny cuz they didn't expect me to be nice to a person while kicking the shit out of him. He high-tailed it out of there and I proceeded to go back to having fun. got a ride back with the girlie and fucked for hours on end. Ended up sleeping until dusk the next day. Total awesomeness all around. I might post pictures, but SG keeps fucking up everything I try to update on here lately. Maybe it is my Opera web browser, but if that is the case, then I'll just stick with Opera and not update pictures or videos. Hope all is well and holla!

Fuckedy fucking FUCK YEAH!!! Passed that piss test that has been haunting me for almost a month now. My probation is now dropped to just calling once a month instead of waiting to see the wicked, lazy witch of the department. It took over a half an hour for her to get to me when she only had one client before me and he got out in a matter of minutes. I told her about my creepy job interview at the crematorium and she proceeded to talk about that field for 15 minutes. Arrrghhh, I was soo annoyed. She took four or five calls while I was in the meeting where she proceeded to yell and mock her clients. I was sweating bullets, thinking that I was gunna get a violation or end up in the county clank. Then, she asked for my pay stubs and told me she would make a copy of my SATOP and give me "instructions." Ahhhhhh!!! WTF? Then she comes back with a list of these -telephone instructions to make once a month calls for probation. I am officially half done!!! Yippie-kia-aii muthafuckas!!!

Lemme see...what else is on Grahamtastic's plate??? FInally got my check from Shitty's (Chevy's) Veggies, do not eat there!!! The beans are soaked/cooked in beef and pork fat. They don't tell you that, unless you ask a cook because the servers are fucking dumber than the dirt they walk on. None of the plates are thoroughly washed, so you prolly have a chunk of meat gristle on the bottom of your plate. Fucking chain-restaurant corporate nonsense. I am going back to cooking all my own food, dammit. Fo REALz!!!

This cute nurse is all over my shit right now. Not literally, she is neither examining scat nor on top of me, but adores me. She is some ethnicity that has great olive/brown skin tones and a so-cal accent. I likes it. She just got this "One Love" tattoo with the globe and rasta flag colors. So, this could prove problematic to my not gunna get high scheme that I have been working on. Only cuz I am on probation and no jobs in my area hire without a piss test except shitty chain restaurants.

Dilemma. and another problem...

My cell phone screen doesn't work. My cell does, but I am unsure who is calling me or who I am calling Ohh yeah and I can't find her number. This sucks, we were supposed to kick it tonight. BUMMER.

Another sombre day. The impact of my mom's stroke is looking rather disheartening. Pops is a drunk and she can't stand it, but she can't live on her own, now. She isn't her happy self because she is stuck with pops. SHe used to leave him every few years for most of my childhood, get an apartment for a year or so, decorate it with her wild and awesome framed artwork (hers as well as the greats and unknowns) hang out with her cat and dream of being free. She never had the balls to go thru with a divorce and now she is somewhat stuck at the house she helped build and maintain for so many years. She has her flowers, but I am the only one that looks after them and the weeds have become almost un-managable. I can't get my ass up to do more because my shitty job sucks out my life as well as the depression of losing lost ones and not being able to leave this shitty city.

I guess I will just "man-up" and quit being a moping pile of shit. I am working on getting my debts paid off, don't have rent to pay anymore and am going to get some motivational support from friends that I have neglected or distanced myself from since the demise of Graham. My mom will get a SS disability check soon and her insurance is covered for at least another few months (thank fucking god, cuz the $500,000 hospital bills got paid in full) Yeah by the way, fuck socialized health care! That is another topic and I am quite sick of political debates these days and don't really want to hear anyone else's opinion on any such matter.

Losing some of my best friends due to excessive drug use, alcohol, sheer spite and demeaning myself has really gotten me in a position of disbelief. Nothing ever goes according to plan, so plans should only be made as vague outlines for goals. Now I have goals and ambitions and dreams AGAIN! I am sick of being judged by my redneck extended family and do not need them in my life. I have always been looked at as a black sheep and dammit I like how I was living before all the bullshit hit the fan. You just got wipe that shit off, hose it down and let it dry out. Dump the fucktards "friends" and rebuild the relationships that are salvagable.

I had a talk with a once really close friend of mine while I was trippin my ballz off while he was Djing. I had been a total bitch to him ever since our regular DJ gig went sour and due to circumstance (more so the clubs than our disagreements) and "The Nightmare" was cancelled. When I saw him, I was like [P33] what the fuck is up with ya? This shit is bangin' bro! He looked at me and the look on his face made me almost start to cry. He was like "I am dying for you to hear the new mix I made, it is that crazy shit you'll flip! Fuck man, I've missed you."

That was shen I decided that my own faults of being a fuck-up were no excuse to lose close friends like that. No fucking way, just no FUCKING WAY! Getting my shit straight.

My bestest of best friends is comming to visit from NOLA and I am soo excited. Just talked to him on the fakebook and he said he had just started college, got a job and a car. I was like, holy fucking shit. I gotta get on the ball and go full throttle on this thing...LIFE!

FUCK GI JOE! After the trailer with Kid Cock, my childhood dreams melted. I watched the second Transformers and was offended in more than one way. The movie industry has fucked up a bunch of my childhood. Glad DinoRiders never got huge. If there is a Thundercats movie I will kill the producer and director.

Lets see...I can't tell if this quasi hippie (that has a "real" job) likes me or just wants a fuck-buddy. I don't really care cuz she has OnDemand and I can watch True Blood when I miss it. I don't smoke cronic cuz of my probation and random piss tests, so I just have to hang out with stoners. Kicking it with people who get high when you are sober is a total suck-fest

Got me a job at the local Chevy's FreshMex. They do have a full bar and I am the dishdawg! Hahahaha. I have a business degree and got a job pearl-diving! My life is hilarious. I needed something to appease my probation officer or I might have to go back to the county jail, FUCK THAT SHIT!