So it's been a week since everything happened. Not gonna lie, it's been a rough week. Not only have I had to find my own way to work through what happened, but I had to convince my father to go get help. Those of you who know me know how stubborn I am....well guess where I got it from. It took me telling him exactly what he was feeling, over the phone mind you, to get him to realize I know what I'm talking about. Yesterday he finally made the call to the Red Cross support team, and within about an hour he had someone calling him to check in on him and an appointment to see a provider. He told me that he's finally starting to understand what it is I've been dealing with the last 3 years.
My care was a little easier. Tuesday I took the day off of work, went down to the outpatient clinic down the street from the office and saw my therapist. It helped a lot, and yes I did call the RC coordinator as well, but he knows I've been getting myself taken care of so I'm not getting the full court press.
When I got back to work on Wednesday I had a few visitors to my office. The head of Employee Assistance and one of the docs from Mental Health came up to check in with me and to offer the usual "anytime you need to talk" speech. It did feel nice to know they were looking out for me. The week kinda went by on autopilot...didn't do a ton of work, and with everything on Friday I was one of the only people in the office.
I posted this on Instagram a couple of days ago and I felt like I should share it here too..


"Volunteering at the Boston Marathon used to be about the jacket...about having fun and helping out. Next year, its different...next year its to show that we aren't afraid, that we're going to keep running this race every year. You can't stop this...you cant keep this from us."
My care was a little easier. Tuesday I took the day off of work, went down to the outpatient clinic down the street from the office and saw my therapist. It helped a lot, and yes I did call the RC coordinator as well, but he knows I've been getting myself taken care of so I'm not getting the full court press.
When I got back to work on Wednesday I had a few visitors to my office. The head of Employee Assistance and one of the docs from Mental Health came up to check in with me and to offer the usual "anytime you need to talk" speech. It did feel nice to know they were looking out for me. The week kinda went by on autopilot...didn't do a ton of work, and with everything on Friday I was one of the only people in the office.
I posted this on Instagram a couple of days ago and I felt like I should share it here too..

"Volunteering at the Boston Marathon used to be about the jacket...about having fun and helping out. Next year, its different...next year its to show that we aren't afraid, that we're going to keep running this race every year. You can't stop this...you cant keep this from us."
So. Here's how it is...
Spoiler for giant wall of text.
Spoiler for giant wall of text.
I'm physically ok. Mentally is another story. I was with friends of mine who've never had to deal with something like this, and it fell on myself and my best friend that's a firefighter to keep everyone on track. A really big load to put on your shoulders. I've avoided the temptation to sit and drink until I fall asleep, even though I really haven't slept yet.
Hopefully the next few days go smoothly and I can start working towards putting things behind me. I just want to thank everyone who checked in on me when they heard what happened, even the people who I didn't expect to hear from. Yesterday was a bad day...today is better...tomorrow hopefully goes better than that.
Just a quick message to say I'm ok. I was on the marathon course but nowhere near the finish area. I'm currently home. More to follow when I've had time to process through everything today.
THE LOCKOUT IS OVER...HOCKEY'S BACK!!!!

Broke all my gear out of where it was packed away..i'm wearing a jersey all day to celebrate!
Broke all my gear out of where it was packed away..i'm wearing a jersey all day to celebrate!
Made it through another year! Spending the day today with some friends up at the American Classic Arcade Museum, and then maybe going out with the family for a birthday dinner...yay me!


