So now it's two years Britt. I don't miss you any less but I don't hurt as much inside. You will always be what you are to me. your loss is the world's loss. Ciao baby.

Well ,tomorrow will be a year that Britt was murdered. And knowing there is nothing I can do makes it even harder to cope with. Let me tell you somethings about her. She was wickedly funny, smart as a whip and amazingly beautiful. She would talk to anyone at anytime about anything. She would carry a notebook around to jot things down people said if she found them amusing or insightful. (I gave her my favorite saying"if that's the worst thing that happens all day, I've had a pretty good day") and Julius Cesars" Iacta est Alea" meaning "the die is cast". She gave to me an appreciation for Eliott Smith and to her I gave Jeff Buckley.
She wrote down her favorite line from Say yes by Eliott Smith " I'm in love wtih the world, thru the eyes of a girl ,whose still around the morning after." How I wish she were still around!!!!!!!!!!

Halloweenie in Vegas Fetish and Fantasy Ball 27 October Alexis Park Hotel And Resort. Pix from last year's Ball

DERBY DENVER COLISEUM TONIGHT 7PM 15$ @THE DOOR AFTER PARTY @THE SHELTER

today I found out that all charges are being dropped against me. This all stems from an incident in april where 5 bouncers jumped me as one of there friends got in over his puny little head. Four thousand dollars later and it is worth every freakin penny. My elbow was dislocated they broke my front teeth and ruined my shirt. (mom was pissed about my teeth as she spent thousands getting them straight.)
Anyway I'm truly excited and can hardly wait for the civil case this is where I sue those mother fuckers for all there lousy asses are worth.


till later B

a little over two months from halloweenie in Vegas. If anyone reads this and has never been go at least once. The fun you will have!!! The pix with me wearing the skull are from fetish and fantasy ball. Halloween is for adults don't forget that ever.

Today I found out that someone that I cared for and once loved very much was mudered. We fell out of touch with one another but I think of her often. This is devastating to me! We were never going to be together again, but it hurts. She was killed May 26th of this year, only 26 years old. She would write down people's favorite sayings or expressions in a little notebook. I gave her my favorite saying " If it's the worst thing that happens to me all day, I've had a pretty good day". She was going to be an author of great works of fiction and non-fiction. if this seems disjointed it's because it is. I'm so disheartened as of this moment I truly can't think straight. But i will leave you with something she wrote down for me not an origanal from Britt but I still cherish the words, " I'm in love wtih the world through the eyes of a girl who still around the morning after"
It from Say Yes by elliott smith. Irony is they both died in a similar manner.


Tell later B

The derby was cool as it always is. No carnage a few good takeouts. What more can you ask for!!!!

Hey Y'all,
Roller Derby next friday July 20 Denver Colisium(Spell check) Denver Roller dolls. Should be fun.
get there early and get a seat on the floor.

This is my first serious injury ever. And I've done some stupid stuff in my prime. Jumped out of perfectly good helicopters, Aussied off a 200 foot rope bridge. Jumped off a 60 foot waterfall into 12 feet of water. Maybe I should stick with jumping, I don't seem to get hurt. oh well c'est la vie!!
Thursday Larimer lounge a couple of old bands are playing. No one famous just some old punkers playing and some Jim morrison wannabe. It should be fun. i got some free tickets, free the best money can buy.