so today i will get a new tattoo im anxious about it cause my boy is at the end of his apprenticeship but he can draw and everything ive seen is hot so we`ll see ........i will be going to what we call war this weekend which i only love cause its an adult playground for all sorts of naughty things day and night i have my psychadallics however you spell it so i`ll hippy flip and it will beautifull eat lots of watermelon soaked in bacardi drink lots of everything and just be fucked up for 72 hours ...yay!
awww man my whole blog just got got deleted fuck .....................i`ll be back later !
so it appears im having a seizures and the worst part is they have`nt got a clus ,it sure is scary first one happened at home in my room while doing my hair , i fell off my bed and dislocated my shoulder woke in pain with 4 ambulance /firemen over me and looking off to the side i see my kids and those poor things, the fear in thier eyes was saddening .
so after a million and ten test and 2 days in hospital nothing just popped my shoulder back in ,thank gawsh they put you to sleep i cant imagine how painfull it must have been ,so after wards the pain and fear i was in was just awful i was devistated to have been through this awfull ordeal .
okso a week later im at walmart ,i wanted to go wash my hands ,while walking twards the bathroom i was feeling dizzy and i kinda been that way all day and the days passing so i just took a xanax and walked slow ,anyhow i went into the bathroom and boom i was down straigh back busted open my head and had a bump the size of a golf ball and when i awoke i was looking into the eyes of my husband and hearing people talking about whatever it sounded more like charlie brown blabber ,then i hear someone say i`ll call 911 or would you like me to call 911 something like that ,so again im off to e.r. and im terified im crying i , cant talk my teeth are clenched i`ve bitten my cheeks to pieces as well as my husbands finger while he was trying to keep me from injuring my self swallowing my tounge or bitting it off whatever ......so 3 days spent in the hospital they decide they will figure out why this is happening and again a million and ten test and nothing ,they just go with the assumption my antidepressant (wellbutrin ) may be causing these what fucken ever i been on the shit over 5 years so they send in some neuroligist to tell me this and then change up all me meds (asshole) adding klonopin to the mix increasing lamictal and adding effexor and stopping xanax blah blah blah ........i go home eventually see my psychiatrist and he`s pist off that this doctor would do this with out contacting him so he changes it all back lets me stay on klonopinn its an antiseizure med but im thinking its gonna make me fat im scared about that i lost alot of weight its been tough and i do not want to gain it back cause of that aghhhhhhhh.
and they still dont know know why im having seizures so fuck it im done with the med klonopin all my other shit has not made me gain weight so im sticking with those only .they dont know why anyway so why torture my self with weight gain .
i kinda quit drinking and drugs months ago also so for all this to happen npopw really sucks woulda made sense if it happened when im poppin E .........i wonder if i should finish off the last 2 ..........
the assholes faxed a paper to the D.M.V. SO NOW IM LICENCE LESS they too my licence away ,i can no longer drive my lovely beautifull loved 64 chevy how i dearly adore my car it will sit or i will be taxied around in it FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME REALLY AWFULL SHIT THIS PAST FEW MONTHS IM REALLY HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME HERE ,not to mention im now having to home school my son he`s in the fn 7th grade shiyt how im gonna manage that ................its a longer story .
phewwwwwwwwww
so after a million and ten test and 2 days in hospital nothing just popped my shoulder back in ,thank gawsh they put you to sleep i cant imagine how painfull it must have been ,so after wards the pain and fear i was in was just awful i was devistated to have been through this awfull ordeal .
okso a week later im at walmart ,i wanted to go wash my hands ,while walking twards the bathroom i was feeling dizzy and i kinda been that way all day and the days passing so i just took a xanax and walked slow ,anyhow i went into the bathroom and boom i was down straigh back busted open my head and had a bump the size of a golf ball and when i awoke i was looking into the eyes of my husband and hearing people talking about whatever it sounded more like charlie brown blabber ,then i hear someone say i`ll call 911 or would you like me to call 911 something like that ,so again im off to e.r. and im terified im crying i , cant talk my teeth are clenched i`ve bitten my cheeks to pieces as well as my husbands finger while he was trying to keep me from injuring my self swallowing my tounge or bitting it off whatever ......so 3 days spent in the hospital they decide they will figure out why this is happening and again a million and ten test and nothing ,they just go with the assumption my antidepressant (wellbutrin ) may be causing these what fucken ever i been on the shit over 5 years so they send in some neuroligist to tell me this and then change up all me meds (asshole) adding klonopin to the mix increasing lamictal and adding effexor and stopping xanax blah blah blah ........i go home eventually see my psychiatrist and he`s pist off that this doctor would do this with out contacting him so he changes it all back lets me stay on klonopinn its an antiseizure med but im thinking its gonna make me fat im scared about that i lost alot of weight its been tough and i do not want to gain it back cause of that aghhhhhhhh.
and they still dont know know why im having seizures so fuck it im done with the med klonopin all my other shit has not made me gain weight so im sticking with those only .they dont know why anyway so why torture my self with weight gain .
i kinda quit drinking and drugs months ago also so for all this to happen npopw really sucks woulda made sense if it happened when im poppin E .........i wonder if i should finish off the last 2 ..........
the assholes faxed a paper to the D.M.V. SO NOW IM LICENCE LESS they too my licence away ,i can no longer drive my lovely beautifull loved 64 chevy how i dearly adore my car it will sit or i will be taxied around in it FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME REALLY AWFULL SHIT THIS PAST FEW MONTHS IM REALLY HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME HERE ,not to mention im now having to home school my son he`s in the fn 7th grade shiyt how im gonna manage that ................its a longer story .
phewwwwwwwwww
i was little dead riding hood ...................pics tonight they`e good ones ................
life sucks hahahahahaaaaaa
life sucks hahahahahaaaaaa
this isrediculous every other time i come here my profile is deleted ,i dont understand it takes so much effort to do it every time its so irritating ................i swear this is the worst time ever time flys bye and all i feel is tense and hatefull feelings .................im so angry at the way thigs are i know only i can chnge it ..........i have become so lazy and im wondering if its the medication or my age i dunno its just sucky and i`ve never beena lazy person ever i hate i disgust myself so much right now and this makes me more mad 
sadness seems to charm me at this time of the year ..............i dont get it ...
i also put up some pics in my folder of dannicus from the shows (im a dirty pirate hooker) go see thye`re fun i have more it takes forever so i`ll finish later
xoxo
darlene
i also put up some pics in my folder of dannicus from the shows (im a dirty pirate hooker) go see thye`re fun i have more it takes forever so i`ll finish later
xoxo
darlene
i really wan to get my profile to stop dleating .............to have to keep editing it is a pain in the ass just a wate of time ..........today i see psycho doctors and its good cause ima slipping away although not to the eye hmmm i dont think could make sense of it with explanation ...........i did stop all my meds not advised but totally sick of the sid effects since stopping them im loosing the weight it piled on and lots of other bad things are going away but im becomin a mess ..................trying to weigh out the good and the bad is such a bitch ............im a happy outgoing person but very depressed so now irregular cause no meds its definetly a trying time but i think i`ll win ima try anyway im sick of those pills and living like this.........whatever im going out tonight and ima be a DIRTY PIRATE HOOKER .pics soon
My birtday is only a few days away i been celebrating all month and reiving gifts in the mail last gift was my most favorite thing ever a purse by kathy van zeeland its the only kind i buy and to recieve it was wondderfull .so saturday we are going to game time tavern to celebrate and watch dannicus live and make out with girls .
im lagging and dragging on my workout though its not going as planned but whatever i wont quit.
im lagging and dragging on my workout though its not going as planned but whatever i wont quit.
SOMehow my whole profile has been deleted /erased hmmm well i guess it gives me something to do when im bored and lonely
oh well
oh well
its so lovely to log on and see a beautifull hot girl with such a sexy set ,i just love it! 
