I was in an abusive relationship (not physical, although it was heading there), which was my rebound relationship from my last ex. Who I never shouldve dumped and am trying to get back....

Anyway. I'm glad you can take some blame off yourself now. Abusers are manipulative, and pretty much trick you into playing their games and thinking its all normal and everythings your fault. The guy I was seeing was such a con artist, he caused me to leave my 6 year bf and not go back to him several times when I really wanted to and could have. Now Im rid of that guy, and my good ex is seeing someone. Ahh! Relationship topics always lead to me writing out my story

I also had to have my therapist point this out to me, and it became so obvious. I'm sure you will learn about how abuse cycles work in therapy, and how to recognize and avoid them. This will really help you in the future.