I really wasn't expecting to see Mindy in the market. I just wanted to buy some sausages, and enquire about sausage meat for the HE Photography Staff BBQ Great Scotch Egg Contest. Thinking about mixing the meat with apple, and some spices. hmm.. yummy.
but I turned a corner, and she was there walking towards me, with her fella. It was too late to turn around, cos we'd both seen each other, so just walked past. She smiled, and I think Rob didn't even know who I was. My heart started racing, and I felt a tightness in my chest, and I couldn't breathe. I had to get out. I went outside and sat on a bench for 5 mins till I'd calmed down.
It hurt like hell. it's been 3 months or more now, I don't wanna feel like this anymore. she messaged me on myspace a few days ago saying she'd been thinking about me. the anniversary of the first time I said those '3 little words'. she was in LA at the time, and she read about me knowing I loved her on my 9 June 2006 blog on here.
Well nothing has changed, as this morning, well afternoon, proved. I still love her. tho a year ago, she came home and 'it was brill' as she said, but this time, she's not coming back, and it hurts.
I wasn't expecting my reaction to be so severe too. I got home, I couldn;t carry on shopping, was hard enough just asking for 6 pork sausages, couldn;t speak, all I could hear was deafining white noise and the BOOM of my fast beating heart. I was confused and puddled by the time I got home. I intensely cleaned the house. it wasn't dirty at all, but needed the theraputic effect. followed by the theraputic effect of a few long whiskey + cokes. and too many cigarettes. I'm calmer now. think I might go out and get nastily drunk later.
In other news, yep, my website is back, but changed slightly. No longer is it chriswparker.COM, but now chriswparker.CO.UK. Please have a look, and tell me any comments or suggestions.
I'm also looking for projects to work on over summer. I'm doing some burlesque photography, but it's a saturated market. who wouldn't want to shoot a lot of lovely ladies in their finest smalls? But I have shot the lovely Willow, and think Diva Hollywood will be coming into the studio next month or the month after.
if you've got a local (to me) band, or something that you want capturing on camera, let me know. the weirder and stranger the better.
I'm full time at work from september, it's official. I'm also doing the full time 3rd year for my BA, and gonna be so damn busy doing both. it's gonna ba a challenge, but it's 9 months I suppose. it'll be worth it.
right now, I'm still just calming down. having another drink.
but I turned a corner, and she was there walking towards me, with her fella. It was too late to turn around, cos we'd both seen each other, so just walked past. She smiled, and I think Rob didn't even know who I was. My heart started racing, and I felt a tightness in my chest, and I couldn't breathe. I had to get out. I went outside and sat on a bench for 5 mins till I'd calmed down.
It hurt like hell. it's been 3 months or more now, I don't wanna feel like this anymore. she messaged me on myspace a few days ago saying she'd been thinking about me. the anniversary of the first time I said those '3 little words'. she was in LA at the time, and she read about me knowing I loved her on my 9 June 2006 blog on here.
Well nothing has changed, as this morning, well afternoon, proved. I still love her. tho a year ago, she came home and 'it was brill' as she said, but this time, she's not coming back, and it hurts.
I wasn't expecting my reaction to be so severe too. I got home, I couldn;t carry on shopping, was hard enough just asking for 6 pork sausages, couldn;t speak, all I could hear was deafining white noise and the BOOM of my fast beating heart. I was confused and puddled by the time I got home. I intensely cleaned the house. it wasn't dirty at all, but needed the theraputic effect. followed by the theraputic effect of a few long whiskey + cokes. and too many cigarettes. I'm calmer now. think I might go out and get nastily drunk later.
In other news, yep, my website is back, but changed slightly. No longer is it chriswparker.COM, but now chriswparker.CO.UK. Please have a look, and tell me any comments or suggestions.
I'm also looking for projects to work on over summer. I'm doing some burlesque photography, but it's a saturated market. who wouldn't want to shoot a lot of lovely ladies in their finest smalls? But I have shot the lovely Willow, and think Diva Hollywood will be coming into the studio next month or the month after.
if you've got a local (to me) band, or something that you want capturing on camera, let me know. the weirder and stranger the better.
I'm full time at work from september, it's official. I'm also doing the full time 3rd year for my BA, and gonna be so damn busy doing both. it's gonna ba a challenge, but it's 9 months I suppose. it'll be worth it.
right now, I'm still just calming down. having another drink.
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i know those sppedo stormtroopers are bizarre and freaked me out a bit!!!!