I don't have much to write about. I'm looking forward to the holidays. I hope I have someone special to spend them with though...

I think I'm going to Disneyland by myself tomorrow. I'm bailing out of work and walking the park all by my lonesome. It's kinda lame and cool at the same time.

Mortality is my enemy. When I die I hope I go out like a light.
There's nothing like going into shock at the dentist thinking you're having a heart attack. I thought I wasn't going to make it out of that chair. I would have broken my mom's heart and left my cat parentless. I tried to keep breathing and not slip away. It was pretty much the scariest moment of my life. I spent the last day and a half at the hospital getting checked out. My heart is okay, but I'm not sure I am. Fuck.

Obama! I'm so proud to be an American tonight.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

My lizard died today. Sure he ran away everytime he saw me, but he made me smile. His name was "Monster". He cost me 6 bucks at Petco. He lived six years. A dollar a year is a pretty good deal.
RIP in peace my little friend.

Somebody
Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of

Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

OKAY, OKAY...I'd be happy if someone just called me to say hi and see how I was doing.

Okay, now it's October...sweet...Halloween time!

It's only September, but I'm already excited about Halloween!

Next week is the two year anniversary of my heart attack. Pretty much every day of the year I pretend it never happened. It's coming up and I feel a little emotional and a little scared. I work out and I try to eat well (most of the time), but I still have a blocked artiery in my heart.
I'm glad I've lived another two years. I got to see the new Indiana Jones movie and I'll get to see the new Star Wars series. Yes, I'm a dork.
My only wish is that when I do go one day, I will have some kind of impact on someone other than my family. That they might be better for knowing me and me them. My life isn't hard by any means. I just want to say I left some kind of imprint on this planet however small when my time is up.