age: 0 (Sep 14, 1452)
MEMBER SINCE: October 2010
occupation: healer, teacher,natural mystic
stats: top 10 percentile
i lost my virginity: long long ago in a land called Tir-Na-Nog
sign: Chiron
gets me hot: people who are *awake* good physical condition raising consciousness, then losing it
most humbling moment: any time I realise the BIGGER picture
into: breathing deep, paying attention, delving beneath the surface, being real. Yoga, nature and appreciation in all forms. creative expression, communing with faeries. using ritual to alter consciousness. That delicious moment when tension leaves the body....transcendence through immanence
makes me sad: ignorance, abuse of all sorts, feeling disconnected. fear
makes me happy: loving and laughing. being by the sea side, watching nature, good healthy food. feeling loved and appreciated. caring for my nearest and dearest, feeling healthy in body/mind/spirit.Seeing through the veil to glimpse that little sliver of Truth. Channeling healing, growth through joy!
body mods: a few tattoos here and there
fantasy: living it
I had an 8 year relationship end, started a new one (erroneously, but I'll get into that alter) moved house, regretted moving and now have to find another place to live!
So. let it never be said that my life is boring.
I have come to the conclusion that I am a control freak. I've been trying to bend the universe to my tiny will and it has only bitten me on the ass. And whopped me on the head. And just about every other unpleasantness you can conceive. I'm an idiot.
Apparently the only way I could summon the chutzpah to end things in my last relationship was to have an affair. How stupid of me. creating yet another reason and excuse to not step out into the unknown.
I wrongly thought this new man was the answer to all my prayers. Turns out, not so much
So now I am living in his house. He thinks this is for keeps and I just wanna run a mile, but feel trapped.
My dear parents who live in Canada are absolutely gagging to have me join them there, but my stupid pride has held me back. Whatthefuckamidoing?
I think I have to summon the strength to just take the plunge and leave and head for colder climes.
what do Y'all think?
Promise to be in better touch from now on
lots of love
and brightest blessings on SG-land
B
And sorry to hear how this all went down, but sounds like you have a good perspective on it now. Good luck with your current future. 
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