Lets get something strait. I stopped taking my insulin. I dont have teh time money or energy to waste on this being healthy for you or you or even you. I do this for me. and I will explain.

I have diabetes. Lets all deal with this tid bit for a second. I (and in capitol letters) HAVE DIABETES!!! Lets not pretend like there is great deal of concern here. This is a battle I have been losing even when I was vigilent in all endevers. And in my current personal life I REALLY dont give a shit about myself. I have been walked away from by more people, employers, coaches and teachers that its pretty well hammered home that I will always be a fringe memory. I have had virtually every relationship ever, romatic and associated, walk away from me SHOWING me that I am not much more than something to be brushed off and left. So lets not all have a pity rally over this.

I give all of myself in almost every way. And it is never enough. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, work hard, trust with my entire being jst to be ridiculed, and brushed off? Fuck that bullshit!! Why the hell do I want to be healthy another 38 years to watch those I open up to slam me shut lke a pantry door.

I DO THIS FOR ME BECAUSE i AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT!!! If we cant deal with it, its not like I havent been walked away from before. And I will be just that again. A fringe memory. What does anyone care?

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Lets get something strait. I stopped taking my insulin. I dont have teh time money or energy to waste on this being healthy for you or you or even you. I do this for me. and I will explain.

I have diabetes. Lets all deal with this tid bit for a second. I (and in capitol letters) HAVE DIABETES!!! Lets not pretend like there is great deal of concern here. This is a battle I have been losing even when I was vigilent in all endevers. And in my current personal life I REALLY dont give a shit about myself. I have been walked away from by more people, employers, coaches and teachers that its pretty well hammered home that I will always be a fringe memory. I have had virtually every relationship ever, romatic and associated, walk away from me SHOWING me that I am not much more than something to be brushed off and left. So lets not all have a pity rally over this.

I give all of myself in almost every way. And it is never enough. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, work hard, trust with my entire being jst to be ridiculed, and brushed off? Fuck that bullshit!! Why the hell do I want to be healthy another 38 years to watch those I open up to slam me shut lke a pantry door.

I DO THIS FOR ME BECAUSE i AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT!!! If we cant deal with it, its not like I havent been walked away from before. And I will be just that again. A fringe memory. What does anyone care?

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