So, this Friday is my 62nd birthday. I'll be the only SG member to be eligible for Social Security in two days. I'm grateful to all the people who made me feel that I belonged. I'm also very proud of myself for being able to fit in with all the young people here.
I'll be spending my actual birthday looking at an apartment that I...
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I'll be spending my actual birthday looking at an apartment that I...
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I'm feeling a little better today. Unlike my blog of about 10 days ago, i'm promising myself that i'm not going to have any regrets about what i'm about to post.
My daughter, Heather, came back from a ten day trip to Paris and Amsterdam. She showed me pictures and told me all about the trip that she and her friend took together. She had...
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My daughter, Heather, came back from a ten day trip to Paris and Amsterdam. She showed me pictures and told me all about the trip that she and her friend took together. She had...
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sunshine:
AWW THANKS! 
I'm glad that you feel that way! yeah, the blog is almost finished. I'll probably proof read it and post it tomorrow! I'm excited!
I'm glad that you feel that way! yeah, the blog is almost finished. I'll probably proof read it and post it tomorrow! I'm excited!
scarletletterman:
Thanks for sharing that story. For the record, I'm 100% certain that Annette is just happy because you are happy. I'm also certain that Lyrical came into your life at just the perfect time. There are no accidents. Everything in life happens the way it's supposed to, so hold your head up high and be at peace.
The Depeche Mode shows at the
Hollywood Bowl were pretty amazing as always. This was my 14th time seeing Depeche Mode in concert since 1984. I was just a kid when I saw them back in 1984. As I danced, jumped, cheered, and screamed throughout the night, I realized that I have literally grown up with Depeche Mode. They have played an important role in my life from childhood, right through adolescence, and now into adulthood. I find that pretty amazing!
The Depeche Mode shows at the
Hollywood Bowl were pretty amazing as always. This was my 14th time seeing Depeche Mode in concert since 1984. I was just a kid when I saw them back in 1984. As I danced, jumped, cheered, and screamed throughout the night, I realized that I have literally grown up with Depeche Mode. They have played an important role in my life from childhood, right through adolescence, and now into adulthood. I find that pretty amazing!
As I was waiting for a bus yesterday, I saw an older couple walk by. They both looked like they were in their 70's and were almost certainly married. They looked in good health as they walked past me at a good pace.
I observed the way they held hands. Each person's fingers were interlocked with the other person's. There was a real closeness there....
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I observed the way they held hands. Each person's fingers were interlocked with the other person's. There was a real closeness there....
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grayb:
I've felt that way a few times over the years after traumatic breakups with wives and girlfriends. Maybe I'm lucky - I've had much practice throughout my life dealing with this sort of trauma.
I've know others our age who have lost a longtime companion and, sometimes even when they did not expect to, found someone new and very special. I've known some who never found another special someone but enjoyed the company of several others and lived rich lives. I know of at least two unhappy individuals who quite literally gave in to their misery and withered and died within a couple years of their loss.
The choice is up to you. You have a hard road - you've not only lost your lifetime love but you are facing difficult times on many other fronts. You're doing your best to find employment. I believe that you are looking for a new place to live. These are two things that I detest doing and find extremely stressful. I know that I am not alone in these feelings.
Please try to concentrate on the good things in your life. You have your wonderful daughters and grandchildren. Find joy in the new friends that you are making and the friends that you already have. Live your life and pursue your interests and someone will come along. They always do. Just stay on the path, keep getting the other facets of your life in order and you'll fine. Probably much better than fine. One day you'll wake up and you'll be happy.
Struggling in and suffering reversals because of these troubled and difficult times does not reflect badly on you. Suffering a great loss does not make you a loser. These things are up to you to decide. You have a new life. The slate has been wiped clean. So many people say that they want to start over. You can.
I'm cheering for you. I know that others are too.
All the best...
I've know others our age who have lost a longtime companion and, sometimes even when they did not expect to, found someone new and very special. I've known some who never found another special someone but enjoyed the company of several others and lived rich lives. I know of at least two unhappy individuals who quite literally gave in to their misery and withered and died within a couple years of their loss.
The choice is up to you. You have a hard road - you've not only lost your lifetime love but you are facing difficult times on many other fronts. You're doing your best to find employment. I believe that you are looking for a new place to live. These are two things that I detest doing and find extremely stressful. I know that I am not alone in these feelings.
Please try to concentrate on the good things in your life. You have your wonderful daughters and grandchildren. Find joy in the new friends that you are making and the friends that you already have. Live your life and pursue your interests and someone will come along. They always do. Just stay on the path, keep getting the other facets of your life in order and you'll fine. Probably much better than fine. One day you'll wake up and you'll be happy.
Struggling in and suffering reversals because of these troubled and difficult times does not reflect badly on you. Suffering a great loss does not make you a loser. These things are up to you to decide. You have a new life. The slate has been wiped clean. So many people say that they want to start over. You can.
I'm cheering for you. I know that others are too.
All the best...
lizaeth:
Don't assume that they have been a happy couple "all these years." And if they have been, one of them still has to go through what you are going through now. I hate to put it like that but, one of them is in for a world of hurt. Unless they are lucky enough to go at the same time. Then poor poor family.
I don't know what can make you feel better. Your are just gonna have to continue to deal with Annettes death for the rest of your life. Just try to put it someplace where it can be OK. I think a lot of people would rather be in your place, mourning a lifetime of love and a life of loneliness, heart break and bad relationships.
I don't know what can make you feel better. Your are just gonna have to continue to deal with Annettes death for the rest of your life. Just try to put it someplace where it can be OK. I think a lot of people would rather be in your place, mourning a lifetime of love and a life of loneliness, heart break and bad relationships.
I've been going to a social group on Tuesdays for the past month or so. I've met about a dozen people,who all seem pretty nice. I've done a few things with a handful of people in the group, both men and women, like dinner, a movie, just talking on the phone and hanging out.
There's a woman in the group named Ellen. She's 57 years...
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There's a woman in the group named Ellen. She's 57 years...
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allied:
Yeah, the Yankees are surprising me a bit. Most wins in baseball. I knew they'd paid enough for the best, but they didn't seem able to put things together until now. I wasn't a Girardi fan, but I have to hand it to him. He's done a great job.
Glad to hear you're getting out there, and that you're being cautious. Good for you.
Glad to hear you're getting out there, and that you're being cautious. Good for you.
southernguynj:
ha haaa!!! flippin' fantastic, the cool guy is out and about!!!
how big is that grin myfriend???
positive thoughts coming your way.......
how big is that grin myfriend???
positive thoughts coming your way.......
I was having a casual conversation with a 30 something woman the other day. Out of nowhere, she says the following. "You're very handsome, for an older man."
It would have been nicer if she stopped after "handsome".
It would have been nicer if she stopped after "handsome".
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ferkixlll:
But think of how things might have turned if
she added; 'And I adore older men!'
Too bad the art of complimenting is fadeing away.
You've got it over alot of kids a fraction of our age.
she added; 'And I adore older men!'
Too bad the art of complimenting is fadeing away.
You've got it over alot of kids a fraction of our age.
liathach:
I take all the compliments I can get these days!
And, yes, it is a wonderful place to escape to. Relatively unpopulated and with hardly any 'visitor attractions', if you know what I mean. Just beautiful landscape.
And, yes, it is a wonderful place to escape to. Relatively unpopulated and with hardly any 'visitor attractions', if you know what I mean. Just beautiful landscape.
I don't usually post a new blog this soon after the previous one. I decided to do so because I wasn't totally comfortable with the things I spoke about in my last blog. I know i'm human and have certain needs and desires just like anyone else. And, of course, this is SG after all.
Yet, there still was a certain level of discomfort that...
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Yet, there still was a certain level of discomfort that...
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ted_stryker:
Age is only a number and as far as the "innuendos" it is perfectly natural to appreciate a good looking woman in public, it shows that you are still alive!
erinya:
to the right place and to the right hands...
Now for something completely different.
I was walking toward the bus stop a few days ago, knowing that I needed to hurry. I passed a convenience store that was on the way. I stopped short as I saw a good looking woman with a short skirt and nice legs standing on line.
I stopped and stared at this woman as if I was in a...
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I was walking toward the bus stop a few days ago, knowing that I needed to hurry. I passed a convenience store that was on the way. I stopped short as I saw a good looking woman with a short skirt and nice legs standing on line.
I stopped and stared at this woman as if I was in a...
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aldremech:
I might need to find a part time job to supplement my employers' vast stupidity 
dryad:
I do have to say I don't like the stereotype that the uninformed public has about SGs. For instance, mildots posted a video from CSI in my blog comments, and the girls are all freaky at a Carrie-style prom and then one ends up dead because of her "lifestyle" (read: as an SG). I'm not saying that's not possible, but I am saying that it's an unfair generalization.
I do have to say I don't like the stereotype that the uninformed public has about SGs. For instance, mildots posted a video from CSI in my blog comments, and the girls are all freaky at a Carrie-style prom and then one ends up dead because of her "lifestyle" (read: as an SG). I'm not saying that's not possible, but I am saying that it's an unfair generalization.
Went to the dentist today. I'll need one filling and probably an extraction. Compared to the other crap I'm dealing with, going to the dentist is almost a pleasure.
A close friend has been suggeating that I write more abut my family. I'm in the mood to do a litle of that today, So here are two stories that come to mind.
The day that...
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A close friend has been suggeating that I write more abut my family. I'm in the mood to do a litle of that today, So here are two stories that come to mind.
The day that...
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quella:
Make sure you keep the emails of the account activation from me AND your buddy Grayb ^ so when one dies, you can use the other!
mrsted_stryker:
Welcome back hun! Remember, there IS a number to call if sending emails is not an option!
I loves ya! Its been so...so.... crazy? I dont know if thats the word. For whatever reason it has been so crazy that I am loosing my ability to speak properly!
sigh
I loves ya! Its been so...so.... crazy? I dont know if thats the word. For whatever reason it has been so crazy that I am loosing my ability to speak properly!
sigh
I just joined a very interesting program. This woman I know runs group that gets people like me, meaning men and women who are dealing with loneliness and isolation for various reasons, together. There are weekly get-togethers, where various issues are discussed and group outings are planned.
The outings that aren't free are paid for by the organization that sponsors the program. We are also...
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The outings that aren't free are paid for by the organization that sponsors the program. We are also...
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kas:
ah I hope so, he's a great little guy
lolablu:
The foot feels OK. I won't know if I need physical therapy until the cast comes off. I saw the doctor today and he said that would be about 3 weeks from now.
I survived the weekend. There was no way that could have happened without all of you. I owe you so much. I wish things were different, but wishing won't make it so.
Special thanks to those of you who reached out to me with their PMs. You afforded me the much needed opportunity to communicate the kind of personal thoughts and feelings that would have...
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Special thanks to those of you who reached out to me with their PMs. You afforded me the much needed opportunity to communicate the kind of personal thoughts and feelings that would have...
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desdmonia:
Great! What has made you feel good lately?
dryad:
thanks, he did.
I hope that you had a wonderful weekend- Manhattan, that has to be a good time no matter what you were doing.
My wish for you goes far beyond just one day - it is for now and always: that you find the peace, companionship, love and passion that you so richly deserve.
*BIG HUG* to you.
Happy 62nd birthday. I hope that you and your family have celebrated well. With laughs and cheers. How are you grand kids?
I have had some feed back for shooting a set, but I haven't decided whom I will shoot with. In due course.
Sean and I are wonderful, and I haven't asked him yet. I'm thinking I will or I won't. It really all depends if I get a proper job. Because when and if I do ask, I want to have a proper ring to do so.
You also must keep in mind that when we do get married it will be in NYC. So saving money to come to England won't be needed at all. I am well however I've developed some allergies since I've moved, other than that I'm doing just fine. I hope that you are well. Talk to you soon lovely.
<3 I miss you
xx