I've tried, a few times, to write a new blog, but I've been a little out of sorts lately. Every day is different, and impossible to predict. So I just sorta threw them all together.
Okay. It's quarter past three in the morning. I'm listening to Vredesbyrd by Dimmu Borgir, after an hour or two of Candlemass. I just can't sleep. The many friends I...
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Okay. It's quarter past three in the morning. I'm listening to Vredesbyrd by Dimmu Borgir, after an hour or two of Candlemass. I just can't sleep. The many friends I...
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So... While I don't subscribe to the commercial fiasco that is "Valentine's Day", it seems like a fitting time to unleash the maelstrom of thought I've been undergoing lately. And yes, Pinkie, you better get out that coin purse 
So... Love. Love, love, love, love, love, love, love. Where to begin on this Rubik's Cube reminiscent topic. The trials, tribulations, and everything in between. My...
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So... Love. Love, love, love, love, love, love, love. Where to begin on this Rubik's Cube reminiscent topic. The trials, tribulations, and everything in between. My...
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xylah:
I got your letter and stuff yesterday! thank you! Writing back soon!
ifyoushowmeyours:
thankssss!
So this has been a pretty uneventful last while. I'm just composing my letter to the college board to grant me a year's leave of absence. Apparently it's a sure thing, due to the circumstances. So once I email that, it'll be sent in on my behalf. And that will be the end of it! At long last. I can finally breathe a long-awaited sigh...
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xylah:
I loved the decent. and I still have yet to see blazing saddles. Altho me and my group of friends quote it all the time...As for Vanilla Sky....I didn't like it.....Glad you are starting to get things together 
and having a lot of YOU time!
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and having a lot of YOU time!
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scarringthewound:
I've seen Vanilla Sky, I love surreal films. I think the Spanish original was better though, Penelope Cruz is in that one too. And I'll have to leave it at that Sir. My account's set to expire (it better fucking do this time) on valentine's day (what a fitting day to Die) and I shalln't be resurrected until the middle of May... i'm sure we won't be corresponding to each other AT ALL during that time 
OK, so I've been doing things a little differently for the past week or two. I'm finalising the last of my forms to leave college! I know it sounds like a bad thing, but I can almost feel the stress melting away. So for the past few days I've been focusing a lot on my new Penpal letters. Written five out of twelve, 20 pages...
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geekyfox:
Ever watch Zero Punctuation, the games review show? I say show, it's really a 5 min animation wherein the reviewer mostly just rips into the latest gamtes, but it's damned hilarious. If you've never seen it google Zero Punctuation, it's the first link.
missshell:
i love janedoe sooooo beautiful, vegan and has converge tattoos and a name based on a converge album...
as for the games...one word for you...nerd.
as for the games...one word for you...nerd.
I thought I'd put my "stuff I liked" segment at the start this time. More pictures that really struck me, that I've run into this week. My passion for gorgeous eyes seems to continue. These are examples of the most beautiful pictures I've seen this week:
Jive
Soya
Riae
Radeo
Annika
Shyla
Zoli
I don't think a whole lot needs to be said. Interpretation of...
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Jive
Soya
Riae
Radeo
Annika
Shyla
Zoli
I don't think a whole lot needs to be said. Interpretation of...
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lamujerinvisible:
ahhh, it's been a while since i listened to floyd. this one's my favorite 
ahhh, it's been a while since i listened to floyd. this one's my favorite
ifyoushowmeyours:
haha thanks for the comment and the understanding of inspiration. i'll work on the poem, and get back to you.
Okay. So for my new actual journal, i'm going to make a note of everything i enjoy throughout the day Some stuff that's made my couple of days enjoyable
Starting with chat stuff:
Hahaha, lets just say a certain creepy person had to be dealt with... my bubblebird, inter-lingual, hidden-whisper, insult-link-five! (too long a name?):
*haha, well i thought it was a good move...*
Shyla's...
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Some stuff that's made my couple of days enjoyable Starting with chat stuff:
Hahaha, lets just say a certain creepy person had to be dealt with... my bubblebird, inter-lingual, hidden-whisper, insult-link-five! (too long a name?):
*haha, well i thought it was a good move...*
Shyla's...
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riae:
Thanks something you'd see in my new set?
something you'd see in my new set?
veder:
Santy was a bastard and brought me nothing! Ah well, Christmas in NZ was enough! What about yourself, get anything good? Small quiet Christmas's can be awesome though to be fair!
I know, how cool is our van? My home for 4 weeks that was
I know, how cool is our van? My home for 4 weeks that was
i'm done with the miserable blogs. i'm going to try filling this space with anything that's angled upwards. maybe creating a fun blog can be a project for while. something to fill my days up
I'm running on empty. There's nothing left but fumes. I don't know what to do. I've got no more energy to give. My well has dried up. Rebirth? I don't think so. Phoenix from the ashes, the remnants? No. Probably not. The me i knew died 6 years ago. Where's the new one?
repo_man:
He's coming. Just hold on.
ohvelveteen:
You won't even have seen him coming when he gets here, and you're going to learn to adore him.
Ashes of Darkness
The wretched caw of the fading phoenix,
Harkens through the haze of feelings,
Incessant, ceaseless, senseless bleatings,
For the final time, the minds are meeting,
The ghost of sanity retreating,
The glint of steel, is oh so greeting,
Like a visitor, entreating,
The ominous raven, repeating,
A final cry before the cycled fix
The wretched caw of the fading phoenix,
Harkens through the haze of feelings,
Incessant, ceaseless, senseless bleatings,
For the final time, the minds are meeting,
The ghost of sanity retreating,
The glint of steel, is oh so greeting,
Like a visitor, entreating,
The ominous raven, repeating,
A final cry before the cycled fix
jackwolfe:
It sounds very frustrated, but I like the elements you've used.
Cheering myself back the fuck up with my two good friends: Heavy and Metal. Fuck what everyone else thinks. Fuck the social norm. It's a town full of losers, i'm pulling out of here to win. I have that written in permanent marker on the polycarbonate table i use with my chair. Yeah, so what. You don't like the table, chair or Springsteen? Swivel on...
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wildseven:
Since i can't edit on my phone, i've to comment this instead
Word Count: 2872
Okay. More shite. To complain about. People. Sometimes i hate people. People, in general. And i think it stems from jealousy. Yeah, i can admit it, i'm jealous of people. Most of the time it's harmless, almost an incentive to keep trying to find what i'm looking for. But sometimes it isn't. Sometimes hearing about peoples' happy memories makes me upset. Hearing...
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Okay. More shite. To complain about. People. Sometimes i hate people. People, in general. And i think it stems from jealousy. Yeah, i can admit it, i'm jealous of people. Most of the time it's harmless, almost an incentive to keep trying to find what i'm looking for. But sometimes it isn't. Sometimes hearing about peoples' happy memories makes me upset. Hearing...
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missshell:
i know it/s frustrating but you have to understand sex isn/t everything and many of the stories you hear about aren/t talking about sex within love as an emotional connection with a person...it/s just a fuck, to get off, a physical pleasure.
pinkie_:
This kinda reminds me of one of the episodes of the Life series on the BBC, where the narrator says that all the challenges mammals face is to lead them up the the greatest challenge of all, and the reason we're all here - to pass on our genes to secure the next generation.
As soon as I heard that, I thought 'Fuck that! There are already too many people on this planet, and still plenty of people 'securing' the next generation as it is, and I don't even want kids'. That just comes down to me knowing that I don't want kids of my own, though, but it's a process we probably go through hundreds of times a day thanks to advertising for ''shit we don't need''.
What sCent has written seems true to me. You need a nice balance of now, past and future, with the emphasis on the now, and some emotional fish thrown in, to really understand what's going on within and without ourselves.
Oh yeah, and
As soon as I heard that, I thought 'Fuck that! There are already too many people on this planet, and still plenty of people 'securing' the next generation as it is, and I don't even want kids'. That just comes down to me knowing that I don't want kids of my own, though, but it's a process we probably go through hundreds of times a day thanks to advertising for ''shit we don't need''.
What sCent has written seems true to me. You need a nice balance of now, past and future, with the emphasis on the now, and some emotional fish thrown in, to really understand what's going on within and without ourselves.
Oh yeah, and
never mind
_doctor:
okay, i won't worry about it, i have no idea what I'm supposed to be worrying about, but I won't worry about it, now that you said this
been listening to allot of "this will destroy you" lately... might be a bit soft for you, but i have been liking it.
etc.