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Ever feel like things are going to shit and there is nothing you can do about it except wait and see what happens?

It has been hard to not cry myself to sleep the last 2 nights.

Still no contact, it's for my own good.

I am still in severe pain, I don't understand what is wrong with my o's. It's never usually this bad.

Today:

Pick up tax forms
Interview at 2:30
Laundry
Stay the hell out of the house

Tomorrow I think Garbage and I are going for Thai food and the Laker game. I am looking forward to that because Adam is super awesome and we've been talking for some time and it's about damn time I hung out with someone new and cool. We are also going to get pierced one of these days. I'm debating corset piercing vs double lip vs nape piercings going all the way down my back. Suggestions?

Last night I made a new girl friend. Her name is Sara and she is smart. She schooled me in the way of dealing with some of the shit I've been going through. Now I just hope it works.

Goal for the day: Don't cry, and don't be looney tunes.

Hah. Good luck on that one Mary.

P.S. OH JOYOUS DAY, I FOUND MY PIECE OF SHIT WEBCAM AND GOT IT TO WORK. Here's me looking like a fucktard, enjoy: