woke up at 909pm. he was gone. it was already arranged. almost every light in the apartment was turned off. i got to the tv. before that, the sun starting to go down with the gold coming through the window. it was an intense contrast. i didn't plan on falling to sleep but my body takes what it can. sometimes it shuts off and it suprises me. i started it again, anyway. today was a hard day. i become cold / unattainable. i turn to stone and small touches fall off me transformed into something very unlike warmth. i started it again. before the sleep took me and when i woke, there it was, the lonliness. then that small ugly voice began.
your alone
it said
and you deserve it.
your alone
it said
and you deserve it.
You don't deserve it.
You just need some and some and some and some and some .
Glad you got a nap anyway.
The voice whispering in your ear is just a voice - it has no pulse. It's not worth a pinch of salt.