I had hoped that this blog would be a more cheerful one, but turns out shit got just about as bad as it could get. Long story short, the arguing got worse. I though very seriously about finishing all of my medications and taking a bath that I'd never come out of, but that didn't happen. For better or worse, we'll see. We finally had enough of each other and decided to separate, but he's still going to live with me until he leaves to go overseas...which is...awkward to say the least. Right after we decided to end it, I went to a friend's house and smoked some chronic. (OMG!!) Anyway....his best friend moved into my spare bedroom today. Even more awkward, and at this very moment, my husband is on a date, less than 24 hours after we decided it was done and exactly a year after he asked me to be his girlfriend. What kind of stupid fucked up mother fuckin shit is that?! I guess it really is what it is, a douche bag will always be just that. But I'm giving an old "thing" a fresh start, and I'm hoping and praying that it works out, cause I gave this guy my heart before...and he destroyed it. But he says he's changed and I honestly believe him. We'll see what happens.
I'm going back to dancing which I'm really excited about. Stage name, "Alex." I'm ready to be that girl again. I miss the stage, and the pole, and the girls. Other than that, I'm just gonna keep doing me, making money and shit. Oh, and since I'm not trying to conform to "wifey life" for him anymore, I'm getting pierced up again. I have 4 in mind already. OMG yay!
I'm going back to dancing which I'm really excited about. Stage name, "Alex." I'm ready to be that girl again. I miss the stage, and the pole, and the girls. Other than that, I'm just gonna keep doing me, making money and shit. Oh, and since I'm not trying to conform to "wifey life" for him anymore, I'm getting pierced up again. I have 4 in mind already. OMG yay!
chamuko:
good for you!! i'm a guy, but that is still wrong to go on a date while you're still living with your future ex-wife. and how the hell did his best friend end up living wit ya'll? well good luck, and just keep on living for yourself.