Heyyyyyy SG! I've missed you. Life is kinda crazy right now. I'm back at the club part time making really good money, so I'm finally not stressed out financially. Jeff and I were apart for a few months, and last week or the week before, we got back together. Well, I'm not sure if we're together or not right now. I cried and pitched my...
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agnstallodds21:
Good to hear you are doing well and hope you did great on your finals. You're beautiful and should be happy 
So, update time, though I don't know where to start. The night that I posted my last blog, my husband and I got into it, really bad. He brought up leaving again, and I flipped, I turned into a person that I had never seen before. I was going to kill myself right in front of him. He took all the sharp objects in the...
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throughnthrough:
you'll get through- even though it might not seem it sometimes...i hope you start feeling better soon, and that the meds help a bit...i've got some experience in this area so I can tell, it does get better eventually...just hang in there! i'm thinking of you!!
confusedattimes:
I hope too that you start feeling better. One BPD person to another It is tough and I know you are thinking things will never be good in life but there will always be good and also great times along with the bad. Many hugs for you.
It is tough and I know you are thinking things will never be good in life but there will always be good and also great times along with the bad. Many hugs for you. "Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow."
So today was quite a day. I met with my psychiatrist for only...
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throughnthrough:
I am in the same boat...cutting can be a release: i get that- it's been 7 years without for me, but i understand that it helps manifest the emotional pain as physical- something tangible you can see...but people would miss you...i only read this one blog, and I would be sad to hear you were gone. hold on-hopefully the med change will help...and if you ever need to vent, i would certainly listen
tourniquet:
Thank you. I like your profile. I don't know what else to say, but thank you.
The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected. So when we're thrown a curve ball, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us have to move on to plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need, but sometimes what we need...
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vondieter:
No matter what gets you down stay and fight for what you have worked for. Once you get it(degree) then move forward with your life and skip town with a fresh start and a big middle finger in the review cause you that old life couldnt bring you down... Your strong girl. I know you are but u need you and to prove to you that your everything you can be. Just fight for it
I had hoped that this blog would be a more cheerful one, but turns out shit got just about as bad as it could get. Long story short, the arguing got worse. I though very seriously about finishing all of my medications and taking a bath that I'd never come out of, but that didn't happen. For better or worse, we'll see. We finally had...
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chamuko:
good for you!! i'm a guy, but that is still wrong to go on a date while you're still living with your future ex-wife. and how the hell did his best friend end up living wit ya'll? well good luck, and just keep on living for yourself.