Hey I was talking to Amanda today and being an ass about the whole just being friends thing like normal partly it's because i feel like shit that she doesn't want to be with me regardless of the reasons but ya so I don't know if being friends with her is going to work out we shall see. Probably one of the most eye opening experiences about today though was Kaila going off on me. A little back story on Kaila for all the people reading this (maybe there's one) but anyway we went out for like a week when I was in grade 12 so a considerable amount of time ago we only went out for like 2 or 3 weeks and it really wasn't much of anything. so ya. but I always liked her after that so on occasion I'd talk to her on msn and we'd get together and go for a walk or some random thing I was kinda half assed hoping to hook up with her again but it didn't seem to likely. So ya I have a problem (didn't think it was a problem) of judging or being negative towards her like she'd change her hair and I'd make some smartassed comment about it and ya I though she realized I meant it in the nicest way and didn't actually mean anything bad but today I found out that I was totally wrong about that when she says that I always have something negative to say and basically going off saying it makes her feel bad to pick out her flaws... so Ya I said sorry and like when I actually said something smartassed it was because I like it (odd I know) and that me acting in that way was probably because I liked her... that's partly it I think though it is mostly because from the start I got the impression that stuff like that didn't bother her and that it was all in fun well I was wrong.... just feels weird that she's been feeling this way about it supposedly for a while and I didn't have a clue.... hmmm guess I have to pay more attention to these things in the future.
Bye!
Bye!
gigantic:
girls are silly. =) hopefully everything works out the way you want it.