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Sunday Dec 12, 2004

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The Saga of the Ex-girlfriend continues....

Boy, she is pissed as ever! whoa-ho! I'm trying to sound cheerful because I'm really sad. frown

Either way, it's true - her family wasn't giving her my messages. She swears up and down that if I had been calling her, they would have told her. So now I'm in the precarious position of either I'm the liar, or her family is the liar. Boy, that's a no-win situation if ever there was one!

Also, it's very obvious to me that she is trying to build up a hate of me. She wants to hate me so it'll be easier for her to cut it off with me (something I thought she'd already done). She's always trying to make me angry and jealous by pointing out whenever she's going out to get drunk at bars with her guy friends. I....do....not.....play.....mind....games!

So I'm going to call her later today and just end it once and for all. I'm going to call until she answers her phone and then tell her I'm done and I can't stand this shit anymore and that she wanted to drive me away and she did, so she can go to sleep a happier person tonight.

I feel like an ass. I promised I'd never hurt her, and breaking it off with her, even if it's inevitable at this point, is still going to hurt her a little, and that means I broke a promise. I do not break promises lightly.

Still, I cannot keep going on like this. Actually, I'll just ask her if there is any way to salvage our relationship. To this I honestly expect her to go off the cuff and start screaming and yelling and cursing. I really hope she doesn't, cause if she does I'll just hang up the phone, and that'll be the end of it. While it's true I want to end it, I don't want to end it like that.

But my pride has been hurt in this relationship, and whenever my pride get's hurt that dark little part of my soul I hate so much wins the battle and makes me do things I don't want to do (i.e. breaking up with someone). I hate knowing that much of this decision to break up with her is pride-based and not from the heart. But, at the same time, I can't help but get the impression that she is not only consciously trying to drive me off, but is just waiting for me to break up with her.

Well, I'll play it by ear and see what happens, even though I know the end result is going to be me coming on her later tonight to post that it's finally over between us. I wonder if I'll be sad? Upset? Happy? Angry? Indifferent?

Probably a mix of all five.
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therealtexasguy:
I don't know if the three things are connected, but I ate an unusually large breakfast (well, two value meals at McDonalds...course even one is unusually large seeing how I do not eat breakfast) and I quit smoking....now I can't stop sleeping. Seriously. At first I just thought it was the pill I took this morning wearing off, but I didn't take that much, and now it's a fight to keep my eyes open, forget about trying to walk around. Maybe a shower and some coffee will rectify this situation.

In other news, I've been weird ass dreams in my drug induced, McDonald's poisoned, nicotine-wheened state. Something about driving around in a motorized pizza box onto Federal Government animal sacrifice lands that lead to the backs of people's apartments....don't ask, they didn't make sense when I was dreaming them, and they sure don't make any more sense now....
Dec 12, 2004
datsun:
So sorry you're going throught that. It's always hard to move away from someone emotionally. It's tough knowing that someone you've shared so much with won't be in your life, but hang in there. If she's doing this, it can't get better any time soon, so you may as well try to walk away. Good luck.
Dec 12, 2004

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