Thank you to everyone for your kind words and support. I'm doing better now and am just glad that my mother was able to finally be free of the pain she was in. I believe that she fought as long and as hard as she could.
In other news, my bike was recently in need of repairs that I could not make myself, and I... Read More
Sorry, I have not been around much. My mother, who has been sick, in and out of hospitals & nursing homes for over a year, passed away at the beginning of this month. It didn't help that we have never been close and have lots of unresolved issues. That guilt just adds to everything. And of course the anger. She died as a direct result... Read More
I send you my best thoughts. I do not know you well, but I can easily do at the very least that. To the moment, and every thing that may be.
On the more vapid front: The show I am extolling is so much better than that celebrity monstrosity. It's pretty much a given that when the word celebrity is affixed to any show it will be terrible. There are moments of pure joy, sadness, triumph, defeat, and so many other human emotions on "my" show that make it worth watching. True talent against true talent is so rewarding to watch. Shit, if our ancestors enjoyed and we do as well, we must be getting something right, right? After all these years?
wow - i'm sorry to hear about your loss and the general rough patch you've been going through. i hope you regain your energy to get out sometime soon. i find that, even in moments of low energy and little motivation, if i make it out to see a good show, it has incredible recuperative and revitalizing effects.
the picture in my journal is actually taken just a few blocks from my house. it's the tower for WXRT, which has actually now moved to a location downtown, so i'm not sure it's even in use anymore. it's kind of a bland radio station that i never listen to anyway. i mostly appreciate it as a beacon when i'm wandering home drunk on foot.
I thought I was done with this place. But I missed you guys too much.
It's weird being able to see the profiles of gray people again. Even weirder that you can leave them comments. I feel compelled to go and ask all my gray friends to come back. Think they will come back if I offer them a cookie?
I was feeling a little down earlier. Then I took a nap and woke up with all 4 of our cats sleeping on the couch with me. And I feel a lot better. It's like they knew I needed comforting.
In other news I finally got one of those emails from Nigeria that everyone is always talking about. About time. I was starting to feel... Read More
Emergency rooms & midnite rides around moonlit lakes.
So I wasn't even sure I wanted to write about this. Partly because I was still a little freaked out and partly because I didn't want anyone to worry about what may turn out to be nothing. But then something else put things in perspective for me. So here goes.
Oh my! I hope you're feeling better! This is may due to all the last amount of stress you felt. Well, riding a bike everyday is very healthy so I don't think you have something to worry about.
Thanks for your comment, things are ok on this side of the world. I still have a little thought for her, every day.
To answer to your question, I'm a master at updating every once in a while. I'm here since 2003 and I used to update daily but I lost the faith. In fact in all kind of forums, blogs, etc. But for sure, everyone has something to say!
I need to get out and do something. I'd like to go see a show. But it seems no one I actually want to see is coming anywhere near here. I was hoping that Iggy Pop or Patti Smith might be wandering over this way. Both of them are on tour, but neither is coming... Read More
I had this really long entry written. It was an attempt to change the subject. To talk about something else. To share something about myself that I had not previously revealed. But in the end it bored me. And it didn't ring true.
It wasn't the real me. It was just the me I wanted to present. I never really share the real me. Or... Read More
How is it that I didn't know you were back on here? I guess that should show how active I have been here since "the guy" left, which is damn near a year ago now.
It's funny ... I think that I try to show who I really am, but no one really gets it anyway. I always feel utterly inadequate and it makes me sad, too. I don't know when this happened. I don't know why this happened. I just know it did.
Still, I put on the brave face and take my best stab at it.
I can't believe this. After all the googling, the mapquest, the checking and rechecking routes and directions, I am not going to make it. Because I wouldn't ask for help. Too stubborn. Too afraid of being... Read More
I feel a bit embarassed since I wasn't that close to her but I've kept her a little comfy place in my heart. I'm glad that all your love was gathered at that moment. I think that, with all the people who love her, there will be sparks shining for her every day for a long long time...
When is it? I'm not sure if I'll be able to go. But if i can, I'll give you a ride if you want. I forgot you don't drive. That's an awful long bike ride
That really sucks.