Sometimes I feel like I'll never find a place in this world. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel so much all the time. The girl I am truely in love with thinks of me as a very good friend. And I'm almost postive that's all it can be but I can't grasp that as reality. I don't want to. It hurts too much. I can't move on, I'm not going backwards- I'm stagnant. Sometimes I just wish my life was a little bit easier, a little different. I know everything happens for a reason, I'd just like to know the reason. and change it. I feel guilty feeling sad for myself when there are so many people out there that have it much worse than me. I wish I could borrow their strength. I know this too shall pass. but unrequited love is tourture.
I've had 2 experiences like yours and in both I lost out. My advice from those occasions, take your time, don't jump at it, work at it, when you feel it, really feel it, then do it...but make sure the feeling is there.
I so know what you're going through, it's hell, sorry but it doesn't get easier...but never mind it passing, you can control it and make it yours
I am so happy you wrote that. I feel a little less alone now so thank you so much for that! It just gets so complicated in my brain. You make a lot of sense. I need to control it and make it mine.