Until now, Ive expressed my interest in the possibility of attending medical school to only a handful of people. Now its time to make it more public.
There. Ive said it. Im considering attending medical school.
No, not a desire to attend back when I was in college, but right now. Today. Throw my career away and start anew. No question this is a weighty...
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There. Ive said it. Im considering attending medical school.
No, not a desire to attend back when I was in college, but right now. Today. Throw my career away and start anew. No question this is a weighty...
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God, did I really wake up at 5:30 this morning?
Its now my second day since returning to the masters swim class. I asked for an ass kicking and Im getting it in spades. I managed to swim nearly a mile today before I became too frustrated and quit after 35 minutes. See, many of the people masochistic enough to show up this early seem...
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Its now my second day since returning to the masters swim class. I asked for an ass kicking and Im getting it in spades. I managed to swim nearly a mile today before I became too frustrated and quit after 35 minutes. See, many of the people masochistic enough to show up this early seem...
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cklarock:
Right on, dude. Don't quit! You'll blow past those times eventually.
Take this dude I'm training right now. When he first came to me, I had him doing a circut of 30 seconds jump rope, 1 minute rest for 3 reps. It kicked his ass. Eight weeks later, he's doing circuts of 2 minutes with 30 seconds rests. Not exactly world-class, but the best shape of his adult life so far, and getting better.
He started and was slobbering and shaking off of 10 hindu pushups, but recently set his max reps at 35. In fact, we tested him at 3 weeks into training and again at the sixth week, and he increased his reps in each exercise, but most importantly did the whole routine in literally half the time. Like woah. So he's kicking ass and taking names.
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Re: visual effects, I totally get all that. I've worked around film and video enough to know a bit about green screens, getting keys, artifacting and halos, etc.; I'm not an expert, but I'm conversant.
I would have tried to cover the window with matte green tape.
In fact, this weekend in St. Louis, my friends produce a TV show that uses green-screens on the set for compositing, and Sophie and I totally meant to get our pictures taken in front of them, so I could do some fun photoshopping, but it never happened. C'est La Fun.
Take this dude I'm training right now. When he first came to me, I had him doing a circut of 30 seconds jump rope, 1 minute rest for 3 reps. It kicked his ass. Eight weeks later, he's doing circuts of 2 minutes with 30 seconds rests. Not exactly world-class, but the best shape of his adult life so far, and getting better.
He started and was slobbering and shaking off of 10 hindu pushups, but recently set his max reps at 35. In fact, we tested him at 3 weeks into training and again at the sixth week, and he increased his reps in each exercise, but most importantly did the whole routine in literally half the time. Like woah. So he's kicking ass and taking names.
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Re: visual effects, I totally get all that. I've worked around film and video enough to know a bit about green screens, getting keys, artifacting and halos, etc.; I'm not an expert, but I'm conversant.
I would have tried to cover the window with matte green tape.
In fact, this weekend in St. Louis, my friends produce a TV show that uses green-screens on the set for compositing, and Sophie and I totally meant to get our pictures taken in front of them, so I could do some fun photoshopping, but it never happened. C'est La Fun.
sophie:
welcome back you stickyuppy haired boy! we missed you and wondered where you went! cklarock tells me it was some hard stuff, but you sound like you're doing pretty well now.
that is just most excellently delightful. do the soothing stuff. good for the bones.
that is just most excellently delightful. do the soothing stuff. good for the bones.
If youve known me for any appreciable amount of time, you know that I occasionally drop out for awhile. Its not typically because Im bored with the site but because Im preoccupied with that whole real life thing. Add to this a fairly deep depression of late and its really quite understandable.
Last we spoke I was talking about wonderment and the infinite beauty of...
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girlblue:
You'll figure it out.
[Edited on Jul 26, 2005 7:24AM]
[Edited on Jul 26, 2005 7:24AM]
cklarock:
Thank you for the comment! Five months is really not enough time to work through all the turmoil, sadness and doubt of a serious relationship going south. Give yourself a break, dude; you're *supposed* to be sad right now. If I were you, I'd exercise more, because it takes the edge off, and at least at the end of your sadness you can be fit and strong.
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I am honored to find your comments. You help to remind me of my own strength at a time when I need it. I wont bore you with details. But thank you.
You're welcome. What are the details? 
Email them if you'd rather.
Let's see . . . it's been a while . . . did you know I'm living with Sophie in Kansas? In my old hometown (well, my adopted hometown)?
WONDERMENT
He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe is as good as dead; his eyes are closed. - Albert Einstein
People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged...
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He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe is as good as dead; his eyes are closed. - Albert Einstein
People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged...
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girlblue:
Dude. Please get an internet connection at home, this place seems a little less bright without you here.
jasechase:
Hey I know I haven't commented in a long time. I have been gone traveling for a while. I have lots of new pics from Amsterdam, Iceland, NYC up on my page. I am putting the others from London and Paris up soon too. Stop by and say hey sometime. Peace - Jase 
This little article was revealed to me by former SG member Lunabelle who is expecting a baby girl in about one month. I found this to be a highly amusing way to end the week.
The Unitarian Jihad by Jon Carroll
Republished without permission from the Friday, April 8 edition of the San Francisco Chronicle.
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The following is the first communique from a group...
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The Unitarian Jihad by Jon Carroll
Republished without permission from the Friday, April 8 edition of the San Francisco Chronicle.
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The following is the first communique from a group...
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sophie:
I always felt that Stacey Peralta injects himself into the film too much.
i hearrrrrd that. heh.
how funny we were trading comments simultaneously. fortuitous and coincidental. you must be one of those connected beings. i knew it all along!
takeshi21:
It's quite possible. Very little about me believes in such things like connected beings. But I also can't deny that sometimes, you just meet people with whom, inexplicably, you've always been deeply connected.
What I think is even trippier is when you get that sense from somebody that you've only known online.
What I think is even trippier is when you get that sense from somebody that you've only known online.
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cklarock:
Semi-colons and backslashes. Woah. Then I tried to fix it and just started a new entry. Whuhuh?
Apparently, I am having a pathetic day, but they forgot to tell me. Today, I am one of those incompetent people who don't know they're incompetent.
Apparently, I am having a pathetic day, but they forgot to tell me. Today, I am one of those incompetent people who don't know they're incompetent.
bob_dobalina:
e3? no problemo.
Step in a little closer. A little closer still. A little closer still. Perfect.
Let me tell you a little about my new home, Mt. Washington.
Its a hill, actually, that stands about 940 feet high, just five miles from downtown Los Angeles. It was apparently named after a Colonel Henry Washington, who came to Southern California in 1855 to survey the region. Major...
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Let me tell you a little about my new home, Mt. Washington.
Its a hill, actually, that stands about 940 feet high, just five miles from downtown Los Angeles. It was apparently named after a Colonel Henry Washington, who came to Southern California in 1855 to survey the region. Major...
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prettyb0y:
"Reading about nature is fine, but if a person walks in the woods and listens carefully, he can learn more than what is in books, for they speak with the voice of God." - George Washington Carver
Kings of Convenience. I hadn't heard of them before this. I will investigate. Thanks.
Kings of Convenience. I hadn't heard of them before this. I will investigate. Thanks.
tororo:
It's always good to have a dog called Chavez by your side.
I'm sorry my Online Friends, I've been a bad journal buddy. Please forgive me if I've been remiss in providing updates in my, or your journals. I'm dealing with some very heavy personal issues that will probably flatten me for some time to come. Prayers welcomed and accepted.
Peace be with you.
Peace be with you.
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prettyb0y:
Zen does not exist to avoid pain, but to reveal love. I hope life doesn't flatten you to badly.
I wish you great luck and challenging journeys.
I wish you great luck and challenging journeys.
bob_dobalina:
charged bay street this morning. chest-high and cleeeeeean.
should be more of the same this weekend.
should be more of the same this weekend.
As many of you may (or may not) know, I am in the midst of transition. I am moving this weekend, so my evenings have been ostensibly filled with the joys of packing my belongings in preparation for my New Life. But I seem to keep getting fucking sidetracked.
Inspired by many a fine journal and blog, I began searching for a letter I wanted...
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Inspired by many a fine journal and blog, I began searching for a letter I wanted...
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cklarock:
Dude! We should build a website for your letter archive!
Also, here is my favorite all-time quote on pain, given to me by the dangerous guy who can go invisible:
"Pain is just an emotion."
Also, here is my favorite all-time quote on pain, given to me by the dangerous guy who can go invisible:
"Pain is just an emotion."
bob_dobalina:
i have a box of letters that i've collected over the years. its amazing how much good stuff you can forget if the bad ending is what's freshest in your memory.
How do you go about delineating the difference between grieving and just moping? A couple close friends of mine have talked to me at length that I should spend time grieving the loss of E., observe the pain and the difficulty, and accept the loss for what it is.
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prettyb0y:
"Grief has limits, whereas apprehension has none. For we grieve only for what we know has happened, but we fear all that possibly may happen." - Pliny
I think the grief they're talking about is about moving on. It's future focused. Moping would be past focused, which would be a no-no.
"Grief is the agony of an instant. The indulgence of grief the blunder of a life."
yet,
"One often calms one's grief by recounting it." So I guess find the middle ground between the two. Find the pain that will help you grow, instead of the pain that will stunt you.
One last one. I acn't help myself.
"For pleasures past I do not grieve, nor perils gathering near;
My greatest grief is that I leave nothing that claims a tear."
- Lord "MutherFuckin" Byron
I think the grief they're talking about is about moving on. It's future focused. Moping would be past focused, which would be a no-no.
"Grief is the agony of an instant. The indulgence of grief the blunder of a life."
yet,
"One often calms one's grief by recounting it." So I guess find the middle ground between the two. Find the pain that will help you grow, instead of the pain that will stunt you.
One last one. I acn't help myself.
"For pleasures past I do not grieve, nor perils gathering near;
My greatest grief is that I leave nothing that claims a tear."
- Lord "MutherFuckin" Byron
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