superkitty

The third and final installment of the Superkitty Teenage Heartache Nostalgia Retrospective. It's been a cool and cathartic experience to air these old writings, but I'm also glad to be moving on to other topics because I have many other things I need to say in this space...

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i slipped into your world
swam through the stifling air
determined
shed my skin
and undercover i reached for you
you were there
warm and breathing
so alive - i was so alive
i felt for you to hold you
your chest rising and falling
eyes hidden in the dark
glowing softly i could only feel
wrapped my legs around you
held on tight
protect me from morning
and the light that steals
the passion and the need
had to slip back
to the world i gave the slip
don't forget
if i hold you
i can catch you for a moment
and then you slip back
slip through my fingers
we return reluctantly, separately
to the world we both fear

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blessed boy
wish you knew
i cry tears of you
come back to me and
we could dance to the edge of the world
and take each other
like thieves covered in flowers

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like a candle in the night
the sight of you
makes it all right
but if i don't get over you
it serves me right for loving you
tell me dear
what have you done to me
to make these tears run?
i gave to you
my heart and soul
you flush them down the toilet bowl
without a care without a thought
this is the hell my love bought

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if only he knew i'm not lying
if only he could see the way i'm crying
hoping to be spared this wracking pain
i have dared to continue again
yes, but this heartbreak i can't shed
it swirls around my head
i feel like i'm dead
my soul is frozen
and i'm scared that
no man can ever be
the heat that melts and heals it again

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i'll take you there
anywhere
anywhere you want to go
i touch you
you seep into me
entwined to me
bind to me
you know me
you show me
you love me
above me
you cover me with your stormy warmth
you are me
but who am i?

***

swirling echoes
surround the sound
your voice frees me
showers me in slow warmth
washes me in motion
mind soaked in white-light joy
hands fly to your skin's salty prisms
eyes searching out your need
lips caress your jeweled core
it gives me strength
the earth turns to your heartbeat

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by the ocean in the springtime
amid the seagulls and the pelicans
the secret world i'd sought i thought i found
longing dense and desperate
and the sullen taste of empty
mingled with the primal heat and silent sound
the brilliant warm clear water
dappled brightly in that sunny bay
aching heart soothed by the balm of gentle lies
all was lost - i clasped his body tightly
gasped for inner strength to guide me
gazed into the dark thirst of his eyes
pulling always sinking slowly
cramping fingers slipping surely
from the tenuous hold i'd surely thought was strong
soaring shadows on my salty skin
i thought i'd come to grips with sin
but solitude's been with me all along
so i stand now
helpless hollow stripped
my soul is leaking spirit
which evaporates into the cloudless sky

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Thank you, good night!