how come no one understands me wanting to loose 5 pounds.?
everyone tells me im fine where i am, and i have a good body and all this shit.
that i am being crazy over 5 pounds...its the last five pounds from my goal weight..
im a super short girl and most girls that i consider to be thin and skinny at my height are 103 to 105, unless they are more muscle.
and i dont want to be all muscle, i like having a little bit of flesh and curve, which i still would have at those weights...
why doesnt anybody else see what i see.
i know i get a little obsessive over it, but its only b/c im so close, yet so far to it.
all i want is to be able to wear a bikini and not worry about my fat spilling over or looking ridiculous.
why cant people understand that i dont look how i want to look or feel how i want to feel.
i dont feel right at this size, i feel like i am meant to be smaller and thinner and that it would look better.
i dont want to be freaking super skinny,
i want to be curvy thin....is that so fucking diffcult to comprehend.
i think i wouldnt be so distraught over this if i had some more support and understanding.
of course i kno im not going to be miraculosly happier when i am thinner, cause ive been there, but i also know that i felt better in my clothes and wasnt so concerned with how i looked in a bathing suit.
.....ugh
everyone tells me im fine where i am, and i have a good body and all this shit.
that i am being crazy over 5 pounds...its the last five pounds from my goal weight..
im a super short girl and most girls that i consider to be thin and skinny at my height are 103 to 105, unless they are more muscle.
and i dont want to be all muscle, i like having a little bit of flesh and curve, which i still would have at those weights...
why doesnt anybody else see what i see.
i know i get a little obsessive over it, but its only b/c im so close, yet so far to it.
all i want is to be able to wear a bikini and not worry about my fat spilling over or looking ridiculous.
why cant people understand that i dont look how i want to look or feel how i want to feel.
i dont feel right at this size, i feel like i am meant to be smaller and thinner and that it would look better.
i dont want to be freaking super skinny,
i want to be curvy thin....is that so fucking diffcult to comprehend.
i think i wouldnt be so distraught over this if i had some more support and understanding.
of course i kno im not going to be miraculosly happier when i am thinner, cause ive been there, but i also know that i felt better in my clothes and wasnt so concerned with how i looked in a bathing suit.
.....ugh
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the last bit of anything you're trying to do in the hardest...the last 5lbs is just like trying to get anything just right. perfect costs. ok, well, ok isn't that hard. thats part of why its 'ok.'
it may help to focus on something else other than 'five pounds.' you can lose that five pounds and depending on how you go about it, still not be happy with the results. maybe pick something else quantifiable like a waist measurement or seeing 2, 4 or all 6 beers in the 6 pack. you have a picture in your head of what you want (skinny curvy). figure out exactly where you are in relation to that mental pic and then figure out how to get there while still being smart and healthy (ie no wrestling style cutting or bulemia ).
in any case, from what i can tell from your photos, you have a great body, you look great, you're totally haWt, yadda yadda since you already have reinforcement of your hotness (both from me, some random perv on the net and your friends) you can go about fine tuning yourself without any pressing self-esteem stumbling blocks in the way.
be patient, keep working and have fun. and when you're happy in your bikini post pics for us!
So, you want to lose five pounds, that is okay. It is all about making yourself feel good about yourself....
Have a great day!