smirkingatyou

the following is a rant that's been coming for quite some time.

i've taken my share of shit from women over the years for my tendency to chase young tail. normally, i shrug it off. no. fucking. more. in the past few years, i've dated females that had -5 to +7 years on me. the only significant difference is that the older chicks had better...
Read More

If i don't wake up with a bullet in my skull, I'm going to set something on fire.

every so-often, i can completely ignore the future and disregard the past and just exist in the moment. now is one of those times. i wish i could save moments like this like a computer program in my psyche and run them at will.

also, sometimes i wish i was selectively autistic. there are times that i'd really like to be thoroughly detached and self-absorbed...
Read More

Aside from being on call last night and getting some piss poor sleep, today didn't suck nearly as much as expected. I managed to avoid the usual caffeine-induced-post-call-stomach-ache. I finished all of my morning work in time. I didn't even get hassled for not completing a small project (that I will have finished by tomorrow morning). However, the highlight of my day was potentially diagnosing...
Read More

it's been an odd night. i don't know how i get myself into these fixes, but i always manage to get out of them with a few good stories. no, i didn't get laid. a night can be plusgood without sex. (if you got that reference, you are such a fucking geek.)

aside from losing more games of pool than i won (fuckin' fuck!!!), i...
Read More

i'm so worn out that i find it hard to think. no time to exercise. no time to socialize. no time to clean my rat hole apartment. no time to make phone calls. no time to do anything worthwhile in my personal life. surgery is a bitch. i don't know how i'm doing on this rotation. i dread the final exam, but i dread my...
Read More

Every week, we have a Morbity and Mortality conference. This week, a patient was presented that seemed familiar. He was my patient, and he died. This is the first patient I've ever had that has died. I wasn't there for the operation, but I helped take care of him afterward. For days I Iooked out for him. . .kept up with his labs and such....
Read More

The depth of my contempt for you is as great as the depth of love I once felt. The degree to which you hurt me is as great as the degree to which I once trusted you. I owe an apology to everyone who has tried to love me since I met you.

Added a new folder of pics. Enjoy.

i'm so drunk that i'm pissing clear, but i'm not so drunk that i don't understand WHY i'm pissing clear.

someone please pith me. (by the way, you get bonus points if you know what the word "pith" means [in this context] without looking it up.)

oddly enough, i knew how to kill via this method long before medical school. in fact, i used to...
Read More